View it from my perspective

2010-09-09T16:34:00.001+08:00

Well... this is supposed to be part of a psychology test. But I think that it would be nice that I keep a record of it here. To record my thoughts and feelings towards death and life at this very moment in my life.

If I die today......

Tan Boon Kiat had died on 09 September 2010. He died peacefully in his sleep. Life ended abruptly for him. He no longer needs to wake up to study, work, or even live the life that he had. There were many regrets, things about his life that he would have wanted otherwise. But then none of them matters too much. Life is short, and it ends soon. Regrets only last for the final moments till your death. After death, regrets ends with it too. He would like to thank everyone for making his life so wonderful, well, though not the one that he would have wanted most, but still, a nice and comfortable one. He would like to especially thank his parents for all the support and freedom that they had given him over the years to pursue what he likes. He would miss all of us. He wishes that everyone not be too upset over his death. Death is an inevitable end; he wants everyone to just remember that he was part of their life.

If I die in 50 years time......

Tan Boon Kiat had died on 09 September 2060. He has died peacefully in his dreams. It was a very nice dream that he was having when he died. There was a faint smile on his face as he passed on. Days before his death, he told his children and grand children to not be too upset if he passed away. He had lived a wonderful life, and met many wonderful people. His children are the best legacy that he had left behind as he had given them more than what was given to him. And to his wife, there are many feelings that cannot be expressed in words, or rather, words are inadequate to express the love for her and his wish for her to live on strongly without his physical presence and continue to care and love everyone in their lives. She would only need to feel with her heart and would realise that the message was there all along throughout their lives and nothing more can be said when it has come to an end. To all his friends, he would like to thank them for all the wonderful experience they had together.

2010-08-10T10:40:00.000+08:00

26 May

Going by the exact date. Today is the 1 month mark for my internship. I joined this company on the 26th of apr. 1 month has past, but it feels like there is still a long way to go. Am looking forward to my reservist as by then I can really see the light at the end of this tunnel.

Things are going fine at work. Although it could be better, but I'm still grateful of what I am enjoying now. The culture in the company is quite relax. Although I try to come by 8.30 every morning, but I'll join the other interns in the pantry until around 9+. Then go back to my seat, check my personal emails and stuffs before I get to work. My boss don't come in the morning for tues and wed. So I don't need to worry about my conduct too much. Not to say that I do anything weird, but its a relief to know that there is nobody supervising you.

Initially remember that I complain about my cubicle being very empty with no one. The other intern had moved into my area and now I feel alot better. At least at the edge of my sight. I can see someone else working beside me. I can just turn my head and have someone to talk to. There is more life in the area and I enjoy sitting here alot better. Next time if I am a manager, I'll ensure that the cubicle walls are low.

The other intern also brought some life to the office life. When I am alone, I do not dare to slack. Or, there is not much things that I can do to slack. But, after they come, we would go to the pantry for drink or walk around during work. Lunch time is also more fun and we really make full use of the 'extended' lunch hours. At least now I don't feel alone. There is someone else in the same boat, doing a internship. Someone who we can bitch about the company together. These are the small little things that makes life more bearable in the office. Although we belong to different departments, it does not make a difference when you are an intern. Just like in the army.

There is this acne at the back of my neck that is giving me a headache all day since yesterday. Must be the horrible weather that makes it too warm for the back of my head when I rest on the pillow. Its damn annoying and you can do nothing about it. Hope it goes off soon.

1.45pm. My boss is back in the office. Haiz... but life goes on. 4 more hours to go before the end of the day. Tomorrow is the last working day of the week already. Been looking forward to it the whole week. Finally can enjoy a long weekend.

31 May

Monday. 9.25am. Boss came late to office today. Damn sian. Just went to another colleague for help but was turned down. Not that I blame her cos its really not part of her job to help me on this matter. Hate it when my boss just divert my questions to anyone else instead of just answering it and solving the problem. Then now I have to keep bothering people and get on their nerves. Those who knows me will know that I hate bothering people. I would try my very best to look for answers on my own before asking people. I have always believed that this is the way I learn and got to knowledge I have today. I never like to rely on others for information. So what I am doing now is clearly going against my very nature and I am very very unhappy about this. If I can quit, I would have quit.

Now I am starting to feel that its my boss that is making things difficult, rather than the job itself. Things would have been much much easier if he could just point me in the correct direction rather than just throw me to random person to have my questions answered.

Oh well... just have to endure till the end of this internship. Nothing much I can do as an intern. Life sux. actually, not really. my boss sux. Haha.

Checked my horoscope today. It says that I can find temporary escape from the mundane work but it will be short lived so I better make good use of it. Well. Its kind of true that i have nothing to do now. So hopefully I can enjoy these moments of peace before my boss throws me some more work to do.

I think my boss spoils all my motivation to do well for this job. If I really liked this job, Ill try to do my best. But then now I kind of treat it just like a temp job. Slack as much as I can, don't ask for work. And just become transparent till the end of the internship.

Haha... okay. I really have a lot of time on my hand as of now. Nothing I can do on my com. The other intern is sleeping. Oh.. I know what I can do. Go to oasis and check out the new intern that is coming tmr. Haha... I shall do it now. I'll come back if I still have time after checking it out. lol.

OMG. Haha... I just checked out the photo on oasis. Although the oasis photos are hardly a good representation of how we look like. I think he's someone in my SCM class. =x Haha. Pity him for working 6 months down here. Well, actually it might not be that bad lar, at least he will be under another guy instead of my boss. The other colleague looks alot more friendlier than my boss. I guess perhaps it the trade off. Get a good boss and work 6 months. Or get a lousy one and work 3 months. Perhaps when you get a good boss, 6 months might just seem like 6 weeks, and a lousy boss will make 3 months feel like 3 years. So I guess there is hardly any comparision. Just my luck for getting this internship. Well this is still better than no internship at all lar. So shouldn't complain so much. Humans, or perhaps singaporeans just likes to complain lar. No action done other than talking. So, no harm done :)

Yay. Its 10.15 now. One intern is typing this blog entry, one is playing around his excel. The last one is best. Sleeping in the office. Haha. Thats the life of an intern :D Actually I admire his guts to sleep in the office. I can never dare to do that. Actually, they are also quite lucky to get the job. 2 person doing 1 person's job. So they can take turn to do it. But in actual fact. Its only one guy doing the job. The other just sleep the whole day. If I were to one teaming up with him, I sure very dulan. How can I do all the work while he is sleeping. So yar, the sleeping guy is also fortunate to get a nice buddy. Poor me, alone in my department. No one to share the work load with. No one to gossip about my boss.

Woah... this entry is really getting very long. Haha. its 10.19 already. Spend about 1/2 hr typing this entry. Time to go toilet again. Lol... Later come back if got time then I continue typing.

I'm back. Haha. I think I hold the record of going to the toilet for the most number of times in the office. LOL. I keep leaving my seat to go toilet. Other than that I also go to the pantry for water. So I kind of keep leaving my seat. Luckily I am seated at a corner and the toilet is pretty much accessible to me. I do not have to walk past any one else to get to it.

Almost 10.30 now. Lol... and this entry is still growing longer by the minute. It really shows how bored I am at work. Not that I hate it, given the kind of boss that I have. But its still quite sian. Okay, shall not complain about having no work to do. Otherwise work might just fall right from the sky and stress me again. Hope I can really get past this morning doing nothing at all. :D A good way to start a week.

Okay... I have run out of things to say. Guess that will be the end of this entry. Gonna move on to do something else to kill time.

6 Jul.

Things really went crazy after my last entry. Lots of things happened. Lots of screw ups. Almost quit the job. But now... all is peaceful again. Awaiting another bubble to burst. Another 1 month to go. Please let the bubble burst only after I leave. Its tuesday now. Counting down to the end of my internship. The other 2 interns are ending next friday. I am so envious of them. Finally can get out of this shit hole. I guess they don't hate the internship as much as I do, since they only did some basic stuffs. They are so insignificant that nobody cares about them. They are free to do whatever they want. And they are paid the same pay as me. How can the world be so unfair? You may argue that its the experience that counts. I have gone through and learnt so much more than them. But it is not enough to justify my sufferning. If given a choice, I would rather have their job.

So yar... 1 more month to go. I'm just looking forward to the other intern's last day of work. When that comes, it also means that I have only 3 weeks left. 3 weeks left to my freedom.

7 Jul.

Okay... I'm receiving less work from my boss. Don't know the reason. But I'm hoping that he realise he shouldn't push me too hard rather than me actually having work to do but I don't know. Hope it stays like this for the rest of the internship then I happy already. I think I have seen quite enough work for this already.

Stomach feeling very bloated now. Must be all the sitting down after lunch. I seriously need to exercise. 2 weeks of reservist didn't manage to slim me down.

Reservist is not too bad. Although the planning kind of sux. Lots of 'snow balling' with our 'not that he is incompetent' OC. But heck, its the frens that you have that makes reservist fun. It is almost like we have never left before. Still the same group of people. Doing the same old stuffs. lots of complaining, little work done. The typical army lifestyle. No responsibility, no worries. How nice if that could be work life.

Perhaps it can be. 2 ways to do it. Either you be a boss in singapore, or go some less developed country to live. Its not easy to start a business, neither it is to give up all the comfort of living in a developed country. But working in singapore is not a very good option either.

Hohoho.... 4.30 already. 1 more hour to go and wednesday will be over!!! Then its only 2 more days till the end of this week. Hopefully nothing big happens. I think my boss is busy with other stuffs to even be bothered about me. Then he starts to give the other intern more work. So yar... hopefully things continues this way for the rest of the internship.

Saw a pair of glasses by porsche design. Quite nice leh. Black half frame and red at the side. Looks cool. But somehow the frame don't look that nice on my face.

Haiz... duno whether to get the specs or to use the money to get a new phone. Although the phone would be much more expensive than the specs. Haha...

Still considering whether I should spend that extra money to get the data plan or not. My current phone won't be able to fully utilise the data plan due to limited functions. However, getting another phone that runs andriod OS is gonna be more expensive. but I really want to have the web at the palm of my hand leh....

I don't understand why I need to live in constant fear of my boss. I listen and react to every movement he makes. Every creak of his chair would alert me. Why? This kind of life is unbearable. I am starting to wonder if my decision to stay on is the correct one. How am I going to survive till the end of the internship? Luck will run out one day and shit will start to happen again. I had imagined that if I had not come back, perhaps I would feel happier. Yes, I'll get bored very soon. But, boredom is surely better than fear isn't it? I can just find things to do, or perhaps indulge into the dark side for a while. It still beats coming to work under such conditions.

Argh... another slightly more than 30 mins to go. Boss still seems to be occupied with his own work to bother about me. Guess today will pass just like this. Still deciding where to have dinner later. Need to drop off some books at the library.

9 Jul.

After a fury events that happened just now. I decided that I should relax till lunch. Its 11.10am now. Haha. Okay lar, not so exaggerated. But my mind is not in the mood to do any work now. Its friday again! Haha... successfully survived the first week coming back to work. 4 more weeks to go!

12 Jul.

Personal life has been a daze for the past weeks. I've been venturing into the dark side and it starts to cloud many things. I think its about time to stop now. This time round, however, wasn't like the previous few times. I had a aim, a target that I am looking for. This time round, I know what I wanted...

So for the past 2 or more weeks... I've been searching for the thing that I'm looking for. Many options appeared. There is one that I really like. But, it is not ready yet. I thought it would be, I thought given some effort it would be. I really wanted it... but in the end. It just wasn't ready. Its like some sub atomic particle, uncertain, confused, unstable. There goes the happy ending. It was almost the perfect thing that I am looking for, except for its unstable properties. I really hope it would stablize one day and I could hold it again in my hands. For now... as much as I hate it.... I have to let it go... I wish for it to one day be able to stablise and harmonize with itself. To realise that there is nothing wrong, if it is done in a proper way. It is almost a risk free thing and it yields satisfying results. Where on earth can you find such a risk free asset with high yield?

After many years in this field. I have come to realise what I am really looking for. I am tired of the many bad habits in this field. Those are highly volatile assets that can really turn into huge liability if handled wrongly. SO I really just want to find a safe, blue chip that I can own, perhaps for the rest of my life. But its not that easy. Unlike stock markets where blue chips company are clearly marked. In this field, they aren't and they are rare. So I am really having a hard time discovering them.

But nonetheless, after weeks of venturing into the dark side. I found some potential ones.So I guess its time to stop going into the dark side as I might just lose control one day...

Hopefully these potential items would be useful.

15 Jul

OMG... the time bomb that I have been working on and building up for the past 2 months is gonna blow up very very soon. =X The next few days will be critical as they are going to action on what I have done for the past 2 months. This is not a good thing cos what I have done the past 2 months is just building up this huge bomb. The bomb should have been diffused when at first I said I wanted to quit. But, my boss let me stayed on and continue bomb building! haha... Praying hard that somehow the blast would be contained. =X Otherwise I would really be fried. Yikes... Okay... actually this is not entirely my fault. Well you can say that 60% is, but the other 40% is because of my boss. So, in this sense, my boss actually contributed 40% to this bomb. Haha... How can you let someone so inexperience handle such a shit without any good guidance. He even dare to go for a holiday in the middle of it. So of course the bomb grew out of proportion while he is away.

Haiz... I seems to be leaving bombs around when I work. Haha... It was like that in my previous job also. But somehow, it didn't really cause too big an explosion I think, considering that I didnt feel any tremor after I left. Haha...
This time round it I made another bomb again. I think the more responsibility I have, the bigger bomb I make. Haha... this bomb is really huge compared to the one in my previous employment. I wonder how I am going to work next time. I won't have a chance to escape when it is a perm job. Unless I keep changing jobs lar. Haha...

21 Jul.

Its a wednesday. My boss just came to work not too long ago. A mini time bomb is just waiting to explode. One of our forwarder has not given us the data we wanted. And my boss has been asking for it for the past few days. Damn sian to be stuck in the middle. It is obviously not my fault that the forwarder have not sent the information. But first person my boss will open fire at is me. Ok lar. not as if he will scold me. But I dun like the way he talks to me.

Haiz... only about 1 more week to go. Today is wednesday. Tomorrow will be thursday and friday will be the end of this week. Next monday, things will start to be a bit different as friday will be my unofficial last day when my boss goes for his reservist in the last week of my internship. So yar. Just a few more days to go till the end of the nightmare. Ok lar, when this entire shit is over, I'll look back and be glad that I had such a experience. Although it is not exactly a good experience, but nevertheless it is still an experience. But until then... which is less than 2 weeks later. I'll still curse and swear when I'm on this job.

I wonder if this is a case of 'one is not supposed to wish for something that is not yours' I think I might have mentioned before, I only got this job after praying for it. Well... perhaps I should learn that I shouldn't ask for things that are not supposed to be mine. I should have applied for another internship. But anyway... now that I come to think of it. I didn't specifically asked for this job did I? I don't think so. I did ask for an internship, but I didn't specify which one. So yar... actually this may not really apply. Haha... Oh well... I'll just leave it here in the entry. It's still a thought that I have.

Argh... Feeling like shit now. Bomb are just exploding out of nowhere. I can't understand how would anyone be able to take work like this. Living under the fear of your boss. Be on alert the whole time. Respond almost immediately when he calls out your name.

22 Jul

Damn sian... its only 3pm now... still got like 2.5 hours to go... Can't take it anymore. Its thursday already. The count down has already began. Haha... my boss realises that I do not have much time left. But then... shit will still continue until next week. At least till wednesday.

Argh... duno how am I gonna kill time for the rest of the day. Not in the mood to do any work now. Actually. I haven't been in the mood to do anything for the past few days. haha... Perhaps its because I know that I will be leaving soon.

26 Jul

Haiz... its already the last unofficial week I'm at the company already. Yet my boss is still throwing shit at me. Don't know what is wrong with him. The month of july hasn't ended yet he is already demanding the jul report from his forwarders. Then the poor me have to get stucked in the middle. My boss needs the report, but the forwarders cannot provide me with it. Well... technically it is not my fault, but I just don't like the way things are. I don't like the way he does things as well. Rushing people for no good reason. It is not as if he is the biggest or the only customers that our forwarders have. They also have other work to do. Who are you to expect their staffs to work at your beck and call?

4 more days to go. 2 is a half day. So actually its only 3 more days. Just have to bear with this shit.

Argh... somemore I'm not in the mood to take all this shit now. Slept ard 12pm last night. Went to play lan. Haha... then half way through my sleep I was woken up by the rain. So I didn't get the rest I needed. Juz now went toilet to try to sleep. Haha... guess I was really desperate. Couldn't take it anymore. I thought I only took awhile, but then realise that it was actually 15 minutes already. So I went back to work.

2 Aug

Something happened that made me gave up any hopes for a good farewell to my boss. What kind of boss will go and calculate every single day of your internship? To ask you to pay back that day. That was the case with the reservist. Fine, it was a 2 week absence which I can understand. But, last friday was the ultimate. I took a urgent leave for a good reason, and now he intends to pursue this matter by asking me to extend or take a pay cut. What kind of boss would do such a thing?

At first I thought maybe I still can have a good ending after all these shit that I have to go through under him. Still planning to meet him for lunch for a proper goodbye. But now I guess, forget it. I have enough of his nonsense.

This shit should have ended that time before my reservist. I have given myself, and also him a second chance. But now it seems like the fault isn't mine. He is just a f**k up A**hole.

Argh.... Just have to get pass this week. Hope he never calls again. I will try to not pick up the calls.

4 Aug.

Wednesday. Final countdown of the last 3 days of my work. Feeling the peace after the storm now. Almost 4 months of suffering is coming to an end. Almost cleared my work now. Did what I could. Boss is not around to pick trouble. So thats the end. WHen he comes back, I'll be gone. No more worries. Well. Didn't managed to build any network in this company. Somehow the environment is just not condusive for such things. Especially in my department. People just do their own stuffs and seldom interact. Hopefully I'll end up in a better internship next time.

Nowadays I've been coming into office late. Around 9.30. I don't have to wake up at 6.15 anymore. I can sleep till almost 7 and then catch the 8am train. Good that I can come in later. Since I don't have much to do. When I come in at 9.30. Lunch time is only about 2 hours away. 2 hours is just about the right length for me to do my stuffs and not get bored.

Haiz... its not that I wan to be like this. So slack. If this is a company and position that is worth my effort. Then I do not mind working hard. But after all these months I see how my boss treats me. I totally give up on doing my best for this company. This company is a sinking ship. The internal process are all screwed up. We are just fighting fires everyday without addressing the root of the problem. If this is my perm job, then okay. I'll need to initiate some changes. However, I am only here on an internship. There is no point for me to suggest any changes. So yar... I'm just here to do my job and then go off.

Oh well... just my luck to have such a boss.

2010-05-30T20:45:00.002+08:00

Haiz... feeling the dread of work again. Although there are few things to look forward to this coming week. Hope it makes time pass easier. We'll welcome our 4th intern on tuesday. Joining my department but doing other job functions. Coming from SMU as well. Kind of have this urge to go oasis to find his face. But aiya, lazy to do so, not a girl anyway. Haha... so yar. Just wait till he comes. Don't think I'll know him or see him anywhere in school before cos he's a year 4.

Then we'll have our department lunch on thursday to welcome me and the other intern. Although its not as much a welcome for me since I have been working there for more than a month already. But anyway, still a good chance to have extended lunch time and eat good food :)

Then friday I'm going back for my glass bead class :D Had stopped for almost 2 months as my instructor went to japan for an exhibition. He's having one in Singapore as well. Think I'll go take a look and support him.

There is still another event happening this coming week. Not much details yet. But its something that I have been looking forward to for a long long time. Really hope it'll turn out great :D

So yar.. quite happening this week. Other than the week itself. There are few more events that I'm looking forward to. I just can't wait to get out of this hell hole. Haha... Okay lar, not so bad. But I really do not like this job. Or perhaps its just my boss. Although he's quite okay. But I am still quite afraid of him. Last week got a little 'scolding' from him. So yar... its damn stressful. I am being put in an environment that I am totally unfamiliar with. There is no one to guide me along. How can he expect so much from me? My boss would just throw me something to do without explaining much. He expects me to just go out and ask every one else except him on how to do the stuffs. But that just goes against the very nature of myself. As much as I am willing to venture out of my comfort zone. I still need time to adapt to it. So I really hate the way he just throws work at me and expect me to find my own way. I know perhaps this is how things works when I go out to work next time. When you are no longer a intern, people expect you to know your way around and do your work. Well, I accept it. But just can't help to feel like shit about it.

Anyway... as I was saying, there are 2 other events that I am looking forward to.

My boss is going overseas the week after next :D So that means that I will only get to see him for 2 days of the week :D Then 1 week later after he goes on holiday. I will go for my reservist :D LOL. A whooping 2 weeks that I don't have to face him !!! Haha... But then when I come back I still got another 5 weeks to go... Haiz... Hopefully there will be more events happening along the way. Otherwise I can't imagine how I can survive the last 5 weeks. My other 2 interns will leave earlier than me. Then I'm left with the new intern. Hopefully we get along well with each other. Haha.. Oh well... he's doing a 6 months internship there. Haha... good luck to him. This isn't a company that you would want to work long for. :P

Will gossip about the company another time. Think thats all for tonight :D Bye~

2010-05-23T21:10:00.008+08:00

Had a wonderful b'day celebration with my friends yesterday. Am very grateful to have met this bunch of friends. Cherish the friendship alot. Really want to thank them again.

Feeling the dread of work.... it feels as though its the eve of booking in again. Same dread, same looking forward to the end of the week, same counting down till everything is over.

I wonder what could cause this dread. The impending shit falling tomorrow? The fear of screwing up? I am starting to hate this job. It is just not me to do this job. It is against even the basic fundamental nature of myself. I have a kind, peace loving nature, however this job requires me to be fierce. Well, if there is reasonable grounds for me to do it, then I don't mind. However, somethings it is my company's own fault and then I am asked to go and fault or bother other people about it. This is the part that I hate most. I am being stuck in the middle of my company and the other. I actually sympathize with the other company that I am supposed to find fault with.

I am thankful that I got the 3 months internship rather than the 6 months one. Otherwise I don't know how I am going to survive it. Luckily I didn't manage to defer my reservist. So that means that I have a 2 week break in the middle. and when I come back. Its only 2-3 weeks more to go. So yar... I'm really looking forward to my reservist now. I really need to get out of this job.

2010-05-22T12:37:00.001+08:00

Work BLog

27 Apr

Argh... Damn sian... Second day of work. Hate the steep learning curve. Luckily my cubicle still okay. Haha. Wun get much attention. So I could do my stuffs without too much people peering through. The cubicle walls are very high. So when seated down, I cannot see anyone else in the office. Its a nice privacy that I have. Bad thing is that I cannot connect to facebook at work. MSN quite sian. So I didnt download too. Maybe I should. My boss comes to work at 2pm on certain days. Which is kind of good haha... so I am free for the morning. He seems to be quite strict, am quite afraid of him. Hopefully things will get better as time goes by. If my memory didn't fail, my first week at my previous job also didn't go down quite well. SO yar, hopefully things will really turn out better cos still got more than 3 months to go. Damn sian... they really want to make full use of the intern. I wan to go for my reservist also cannot. Still need to apply for deferment. I don't want to, but they say either I defer or extend my stay. What kind of logic is that? How would extending my stay help? Anyway, still got 1 month before the new intern comes. I hope the new intern would be nice. THen at least we can talk.

I hate my work. Damn sian. Its almost the same as my previous management accounting work where I need to juggle between so many excel documents and reports. I hate this kind of work. I think after this internship I'm gonna try a marketing one. Really cannot take it doing these kind of things for the rest of my life. So I think I've decided what to declare for my second major. haha. It'll be marketing :) Argh... sux... don't know how to settle my lunch today. Boss coming later. Then I have to eat on my own, unless got other people jio me for lunch :( Sux. I hate new environments!!!! Haiz... well, have to get past this first week lar. 3 months to go... SIAN AR!!! OKay... I just installed MSN, but dun have anyone to talk to.

I don't know how I survived my previous job.I even had to teach tuition after work. I no longer have such determination to do it. If I could, I would want to quit now. Go home, have a good sleep. I really feel like giving up. But I can't. I need to perservere on. I need to change my working attitude. I shouldn't be afraid to show that I don't know a single shit about operations. They should have known when they hired me. I am only a year 2 that have taken just 2 modules on operations? Actually I think even if I finish all my modules on OM, it doesn't prepare me for the job. I am thankful that I managed to get a job on OM. To get a feel of what it is like to work in such an environment. The conclusion? It sux. Haha... well at least for now.

28Apr

3rd Day of work. Things are slowly falling into place. Feel more comfortable working with the colleagues. Took a shuttle bus out to east point to have lunch today. It seems to be a long long time since I have contact with the other categories or class of people. For the past 2 days. All I see the whole day is the working class. The business park working environment is really bad. Everything is just too well planned. Buildings, roads, food court. All of them exist just for one purpose. To fulfil the basic needs for workers. Workers only. So its like you are put in a artificially crafted business environment and everyday you turn the wheel to move the business. There is no life in this place. Just work. I remember what my fren who took a architectual module told me. When architect design a facility, it tries to incorporate life into it. A facility on its own does not have a life. Its the people that uses the facility that gives it it's life. In a business park. All the people that uses it are workers. And the life that the facility portray is just work. And work is no life. So the whole place here is dead! Haha... I know I'm gonna fail my AS with this kind of argument. But heck. What I want to say is that there is really no life here. So I'm very happy that I get to go out for lunch today. Seeing all the residents, students and everony else other than the working class. This is life. So yar. I would prefer to go out and eat whenever possible and not just stay in the business park.

Anyway, as I was saying, things are getting abit better. However, more responsibilities are coming in. So yar... but at least I have climbed quite far from the foot of the learning curve although there is still some distance to go. I guess thats all for today. Bye~ Can't wait for the weekends.

My boss is so busy that everytime he says he'll send me something. He forgets. And how can I expect myself to pester my boss? What an irony.

3 May 2010

2nd monday of work. Feeling alot more alert than previous week. Guess the weekends really helped me to recover from the initial shock. Anyway, its still a monday, so we'll see how the rest of the week goes. Just received an email that I'll be attached for 1 day to a freight forwarding company to observe how they work. I guess my boss is really trying to teach me things. I am grateful for that. I begin to see the point that my boss is coming from. He take this internship more of as an opportunity for me to learn rather than to help him do work. He tries to allocate different task for me to do so as to expose me to the various functions of the work. Rather than just to let me do the same work repeatly. While I am grateful of the opportunity to learn, it also places a lot of stress on me as for every new task, I need to learn the things again. I have no chance of learning one and then just repeat it over and over again. So thats the worst part. Hopefully I can finish learning the stuffs in these few weeks and let life become mundane and routine again :)

Anyway, as I was saying, I started this week off on a good note. Feeling somehow more alert. Therefore, I tried to speak up more to the other colleagues. Well, more of lunch partners. Which is even more important if I don't want to eat alone in future. I don't want to spoil the mood at lunch by keep quiet. So yar, here goes the 2nd monday of the week. Just received my intern pay for last month. They forgot that I actually asked for 800. So I only get 700 in the end. Oh well, nothing much I can do now. When you are the one begging, you don't have a choice. Hopefully next year things will be different. I will be the one choosing the job and asking for higher pay. Whether I'll get a marketing job or come back to logistics will have to depend on how I feel at the end of this job. I do enjoy the environment of this job. Sitting in the back office, less formal attire. It could have been a great place if I am here permanently. I got so much desk space that I can stuff with my belongings. Right now, the people don't really interact much with each others. Only among their small clique of friends. If I am around, things might be different. Last time in my previous company, colleagues will buy snacks and distribute to everyone around mid afternoon. But I don't see the kind of culture here. Perhaps due to its location its hard to do so. Or maybe no one just bothers. But I do care, so this is one of the target I have during this internship. I want to start this thing of sharing food. This is one of the small ways that I can give back to the company.

I guess thats all for now. I am trying not to stress myself too hard so that I still have energy for the rest of the week. GOnna sleep early tonight too.

2.5 more hours to knock off :D Haha
Today pass much faster than last week. Gotta keep the energy level up :)

7th May
Its 5.53pm now, friday. Few more minutes before I go off. I've finished the urgent stuffs already. So I'm ready to go. But my boss is still around. Although the office is quite empty already. There is still 6 more minutes to go before 6pm. Although by right I can go off at 5.30. But, my boss is still here and its not even six. So yar, better to just wait awhile more. The week past quite okay. Wasn't as tired as last week. At least I still have energy now, as opposed to last week where I almost nearly died. Things are picking up momentum already. As what I had wished in the first week. Life becomes slightly easier, and it'll be this was in days to come. The morning trips are more bearable now once you get used to it. I'll watch half of a drama in the morning and finish the rest at night. The drama will cover half the journey, then my eyes will need to rest for the rest.

2 weeks into the job. 10+ more weeks to go. Things will move faster along with the momentum. :) I still miss school.

10 May.

The third monday at this job. Things are getting along okay. Work seems more mundance now. Just tio arrow to do up this huge report. It's just about grabbing numbers from everywhere and pieceing them together. CUrrently my access to all the information has not been granted yet, so I'm kind of free now.

Although the learning curve is not as steep anymore, there is still some upward climb to be done. I've also start to realise the nature of this job. Looking at how my boss work and how I work. I don't really feel like working like this in future. I wonder if it is the company that makes me feel so sad. The culture in this company is bad. Really bad. People do not communicate to each other. There is no interaction between each colleagues. I guess partly due to the freaking high cubicle walls. It essentially blocks off face to face interaction with your colleagues. You only have someone on your left or right to talk to. And they still position themselves at a corner so that they won't see each other even at the corner of their eye. I guess this may be the reason that I don't really like this job.

At first I thought the logistics department would be where I belong. In the back office, where the rules are lax, and people have fun together laughing at the top. Well, its true that the rules are lax. We can tell from their attire. Nobody really dresses up in proper business attire. You can see people in jeans around the office. But the people are not having fun together. Thats what that matters.

Oh well, no matter what I'll need to survive this 3 months. I'll try to find out more about the job from my boss. Find out why he stayed in this job, in this company. I've not been to much companies, but I feel that this company is very disorganised internally. Perhaps this is due to the fact that this is not the main head quarters.

Oh, one good thing that I realise from taking on this work is also to watch our for companies that have head quarters in europe and us which are at almost opposite end of our time zone. As they are the high and mighty head quaters full of ang mohs. They wouldn't want to accomodate to our time zone. So often I have colleagues that stay through the night just to have video conference with their heads in the other part of the world. So yar, thats one thing that
I'll need to watch out for.

I guess that'll be all for today. Bye!

14 May

Yay. Its friday again :D Survived my third week in this company. Damn tired now. Slept late yesterday.

2010-05-03T20:48:00.000+08:00

Feeling rather lethargic in recent months. No matter how much i sleep. There is this heavy weight on my mind. It is depressing all my feelings and emotions. I couldn't smile and laugh freely. And my daily life has been affected by this. This is especially prominent in the past week at work. During the first week of work, you need lots of energy to overcome the inertia and get the momentum going. You need to start getting the relationships with you colleagues up. Then u need to expand it to your business contacts. All these takes huge amount of effort to get it started and then the momentum will handle the rest by itself. So yar. I kind of wasted the first week at work cos i haven't been very receptive to the hospitality that my colleagues offered. As the first week was kind of a big change to my lifestyle for the past few years. I forgive myself of that. But starting next week. I've got to put in more effort in work.

2010-03-11T21:51:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Damn sian now. Went for my internship interview this morning. Didn't go as well as i thought i could have done. Am very worried now. The interviewer shows both positive and negative signs. So i dun realy know how they feel. I really wanted this internship. Especially after they told me what i'll be doing. The reason why this internship is 6 months is because I'll be learning almost all the operations function in the company. From freight to distribution. So it'll be a very very good exposure to what i will be or hope to do in future. I'll be a first hand experience even before i graduate. So despite all the negative side of this job like the 1hr 45mins travelling time and the 6 months period, i am still willing to endure to experience the job. So i really pray very hard that i'll get the job. I've been lucky all my life. Not in terms of winning lottery or lucky draws. But my life has always been smooth sailing. I almost always get what i want if i really put effort into it. I also meet good people who appreciate who i am. So this time round i really hope that luck will be on my side once more. Argh... Please please let me get my internship!!!!

2010-01-01T18:35:00.003+08:00

Happy 2010! Its the time of the year to look back and review what had happened and to make plans and resolutions for the next year. There are a few entries that are long overdue and not posted. But we'll just leave it till another time. On this special day, we'll do our usual new year entry! This would be the 6th new year entry already! Its amazing how long I have kept this blog running. Although entries are lesser and less often than before, and I guess the readership is also on the decline too, I'll still try to keep this blog going :D So lets start with reviewing the year 2009!

2009 is awesome year! I really mean it when I say that. Its the year where the seeds that I sowed in the previous year are starting to germinate and grow. Many things have happened for the first time and it was a wonderful experience. I am very happy for myself to have realised what was missing in the past. Although it was a bit late but I am still glad that I could still catch up with what I have lost. And 2009 really showed the results. I am really glad that a few years back I have taken the first step to step out of my comfort zone and really experience the world. And I think one of the most important decision that I have made was to apply to SMU.

It is not about the academic knowledge that I gain, but about the opportunities that it provides. This may not seem much for normal people, but for introverts like me, I guess it really does mean alot. I know it seems embarrassing to share this here, I just want to share what I really feel. If there is one important thing that I have learned, I guess it would be to really accept my introvert personality and work around it. This is a small lesson in my MPW class, but it matters alot to me. I was taught that personalities do not change much over the years, so it means that I'll most probably stay a introvert for the rest of my life. But being an introvert doesn't mean it is bad. I just need to accept it and work around it. In the past, I used to think that I am just weird and anti social, so I get very awkward situations and I blame myself for that. But now, I accept that I am just like that and will try to find ways to minimise these kind of situation.

Another thing that really made a difference but is really really embarrassing to say it out here. But heck. Haha... I just want to say. I learn to be more comfortable when hanging out with girls. LOL... cos for the past few years I have only hang out with guys and I used to feel very awkward when I talk or hang out with girls. Its like during my secondary school, I usually hang out with the guys, then after that JC too and its followed by army. So for around like 6 years all the outings and gathering or hanging out after class is all guys! Haha. But now, I hang out with this bunch of girls. They really taught me alot of things :)

Haha... so who is this bunch of girls? They are my LTB group! Haha. I am really really thankful that we were put into a group. I can't imagine my SMU life without them. They are the ones that really make my school life fun.

I have also learned that friendship really takes effort to maintain. In the past I take a more passive role, but I have learned that to really achieve what I want, I need to be more proactive to maintain contact.

Hmm... K lar, enough for all these embarassing stuffs. Makes people think that I'm such a loner in the past. Haha....

So for the new year ahead. I hope to continue what I have done in the past. I would also want to try out new experiences. I want to continue to improve myself. Most importantly I want to do the things that really truly makes me happy!

Well I have already taken a step forward. I signed up for a art glass class which will start next week :D So excited. Will update again.

With that, I bid farewell to the year of 2009 and I wish that 2010 would be a even greater experience :D

2009-11-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

My mind is damn saturated now. I spent the whole day memorising my bp notes and now i cannot do anymore work. I tried to do ms but it was just too much thinking for my brain to work properly now. The thing that i hate about exams is that it forces you to memorise things. I suck at memory work so very often have to struggle for exams. I do have ways to force information in to my mind, but i don't like to use it. Its a very terrible and long process. It's not like last time when during O or A lvls where u just need to go all out for it. This time round it's just an exam and i see no point in putting myself through the pain. It leads me to wonder again whether i have made the wrong choice of studying in a business school. It is still a long road ahead for me and there are still many more exams that requires memory work. How am i going to cope for the next few years?

Anyway. I came across another inspiring person online again. This person is also very much similar to myself. He is interesting because he loves film making but then somehow he enrolled into a business school too. Yes, its smu! He is the pioneering batch of smu student. It is very inspiring to read that although in a business school, he has never given up on his passion. He continued making films for many of his projects. After a while he created a good portfolio and had even set up his own film making company.

This made me realisr that many things are possible and it depends on whether you want to do it or not. Although not going to a film making school means you lose out on alot of techinical knowledge but if you really have the passion for the things that you do. It does not matter, you will still find your means of getting hold of this knowledge. In fact, if he had just gone to a film makig school, he might have missed out a lot of things that a business school has to offer. Like for myself, although i am not in a design school. But i continue to observe and read up on the latest happenings in the world of design. But if i went to a design school, i might never get the chance to learn about business as wihout the interest i wouldn't be reading up on it on my own.

Haiz. Really regretted slacking this semester. Am suffering the consequences now. Don't know why i became so slack. I almost always not pay attention to lesson and not revising my work till the last minute. Its a good wake up call for me and i hope to put in more effort next sem.

2009-11-27T13:25:00.001+08:00

Damn sian. Duno whether i should be studying now. Not in the mood to study. But dun study also nothing to do. 2 more days before the exams. Not very little time but also not long either. Still got a lot left for Ma. Although eventually i got the answer. But the time taken is way too long. I take a whole day to finish one 3 hr paper. I wonder if i can cope during the exams. Quite worried, but nothing much i can do now. Its too late already. Can only try to practice a few more questions and hope for the best.

Damn sian... Feel like going out for awhile.

2009-11-25T17:27:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging again. Haha. Well after reading a little bit more about the person whom has inspired me. Well found out that he's not as great as i think he his. His achievement is built on something less glamorous. But i still admire his courage though. Its not easy to tread down this path and not many people dares to do it, especially singaporeans. Therefore if you are daring enough, you are most likely to succeed.

Haha. You may be wondering what and who am i talking about. Well. I raher not name and mention cos it might lead to other complications.

Would just like to pen down the thought that although it is still inspiring but its not as good as i thought it would be.

I guess i'm a kind of person who need constant inspiration to push myself forward. So i'm still very glad that i chance across this blog of his. I would not have been thinking abou what i am thinking and planning to do somethin about it without this trigger.

Hmm. Somehow typing on my ipod touch is surprisingly draining on the battery. I thought using wifi was the worst. I guess typing would rank as second.

Anyways i'm also glad that i've return to blogging lately. Its kind of nice to keep track of your thoughts. It brings back memories when you refer to it in future.

2009-11-24T17:18:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Sux that my phone doesn't have a proper function for me to type long messages. I'm typing on the email function now then i'll need to retrieve it from the email outbox later on.

Omg, my phone really sux when it comes to this. I just accidently deleted a whole lot of words that i typed. Now i have to retype it again. And guess what, i can't sync the email inbox with the com. So i'm now retying it again on my ipod touch. I think the ipod touch is still the best :)

Anyway, i was typing about what i've been thinking since the last entry. I think it is these quiet an tired moments during the study break that i get emo enough to bother to think about my life and how has it been. As mentioned in the previous entry. I've been thinking whether i'm really pursuing the things i love.

I know this may sound abit bhb. But i have this feeling that i'm destined for something great. I just need to find the key to unlock this. I've been searching in the past few years but am still lost. Hope to find it soon.

2009-11-21T23:09:00.001+08:00

It has been a long long time since i last updated my blog. Guess i'm feeling so sian now that i even bother to update. Haha.

I just read a blog of person whom i kind of envy. He is about my age but yet he already has achieved so much. He loves what he is doing and excels in it. He has a vision, a drive, to pursue what he wants. This results in a confident young man full of life.

This is not a story of some character who is living under vastly different circumstances. He is just like me, a singaporean, studying in a local university, not very well to do. So how did he find so much energy and life? I guess abit part of it comes from doing what he likes to do.

So i start to reflect on what i am doing now. Am i doing what i like now? Its really very hard for me to answer.

This week is the study week. If i'm doing what i love, would i be dragging myself through all the revision? Would i need to force myself through all these? If i really liked what i'm doing now, then no matter how difficult it is, i'll still be happy right? So all these signs are showing that i might have made the wrong choice.

During my primary school and secondary school days, i cannot blame myself if i were to dislike what i'm doing. I didn't hav a choice then. But now i get to choose to take the course that i like, then why am i still struggling and not happy? Have i really made the correct choice?

I have no answer to this question now. But i am starting to realise the true meaning of university education. It seems kind of late though since i'm already ending my first sem of the 2nd year. But its still better late than never :)

University life is about gaining experience. Its less about the knowledge that you gain through lessons but more about the knowledge gain through experience. At this period of time we are at the prime of our life. We should be doing things and enjoying it. It is less about getting good gpa. Notice i said less cos we still need a reasonable grade for graduation. But really its the experience that counts. And i think its really true. I just need to look back for the past year. The things that i remember the most is not the contents of the books. But rather all the activities that i have taken part in.

So i plan to be continue being active and join many different stuffs :)

I guess this is also part of bringing my personal growth to a higher level. It was already a giant leap for me now compared to who i was a few years ago. Things are starting to change for the better and i have experience many firsts since the change. I am much happier now compared to the past. I guess this indicates that i like to be like this. So i will try to take this a notch higher.

This time round i'll focus on the things i like to do. Still on the topic of the things i like to do, i'll like to share some thoughts about my major. Out of all the majors offered i guess i liked operations management the most. However that doesn't mean that i liked it completely. There are still certain parts of it that i hated. Like all the statistics part. But i guess this is already the closest that i get in choosing the major that i liked. So well no choice but to make do with it. Regarding the second major, well i actually do not know exactly what i want. But i think i have decided to do without it. I think i might want to heed my senior's advice and take a sem off to do a ocerseas internship instead. It is all part of the experience and because since i cannot decide on what i like for my second major.

Hmm. Its a very long entry since so many months. Guess no one is even reading my blog now. But it doesn't matter. Its just an avenue for me to pen down and organises my thoughts. Am very grateful for sone unknown website to point me to the blog of this inspiring young man. I hope that i can keep this inspiriation going while i go back to mug for my exams. Wish me luck. Will blog again when there is a need to :)

2009-07-05T17:03:00.000+08:00

Crazy week. Slept in school for 2 nights in a row.

2009-06-13T20:16:00.002+08:00

Came back from reservist yesterday. Well, it wasn't as bad as what i thought it would be. Infact, i kind of miss it already. It was a period of time where you do not need to think too much. Instructions were given and you just follow it. Once things get done then its all free time. You get to chat with frens whom you have not contacted for more than a year. You get to meet some new frens too. So it really is a good break from the usual life.

Remember in the last entry i said that i do not feel like i'm having my holidays? Well i didn't feel that way for the past week that i'm in camp. But now when i'm back the feeling just comes back with it too. So much school related stuffs, its almost like school again. Perhaps i've joined too many activities. But anyway, i'm stopping soon le. I've joined quite enough activities and its time for me to concentrate on my studies.

So yar, even though i hate to admit this, but somewhere within me i am looking forward to my next ict.

2009-06-07T16:46:00.001+08:00

Haiz. Feeling very sian now. Can feel the dread of booking in. But then, this feeling aside, i'm quite optimistic that it will be fun. I guess it is a good break from all the work i've been doing. I kind of don't feel that i am having a holiday now as all the things i do is similar to what i usually do during normal school. Minus the exams and mugging part, its still going back to school, having meetings, doing projects. So perhaps a change of environment to a place where i have limited access to the outside world. Actually its the other way aornud. Its a place where the outside world has no access to me. So i can put aside all my work and enjoy a few days off. Its kind of like a overseas holiday. Just a little less freedom. Can take this chance to try and slim down. Haha. I'm really getting very fat. Its shocking how fast and how fat i can grow.

Anyway, hope it will be fun. Afterall we are nsmen now already, so i expect better treatment. But no matter wad, the best thing is to be able to meet some frens again and i guess with them around, nothing will be too unbearable :)

2009-05-27T21:30:00.002+08:00

I haven't been applying the knowledge I gain into my business. I guess I should start to do so now. In the past, I used to think that it is all bullshit and I don't really need it to grow a business. Or even, thinking of keeping my business as a hobby without all these hassles. However, I'm starting to think that I'm wrong. I require these knowledge to help my grow or even just to sustain my business. Without it, business may fail, and my hobby will be gone too. From now on, I'm going to apply whatever I learn into my own business. What better way to learn than to experience it first hand.

2009-05-21T22:22:00.001+08:00

My life is changing. Positive changes, those changes that i had always wanted. My hardwork over the past years have paid off. Those tough decisions i had made is beginning to reap benefits.i'm really happy. I'm beginning to experience the many things that i had missed out in the past. Little things that many pepole had, but i didn't. Now, its slowly starting to happen. Although it can never fully recover wad was lost. But i believe that it can be close enough. This is the best birthday i had in recent years.

2009-05-06T21:29:00.001+08:00

I'm beginning to feel that all the work I've been doing are rather fluffy and does not value add much. Perhaps its because of the lack of income. Haha... cos when you work outside, you know you are getting paid and got something to look forward to. But when you take part in organising school activity, everything seems to 'wayang', like act only. There is no feeling of value adding :S

2009-05-06T21:20:00.002+08:00

My body is aching all over from the ippt. :S an indication that it has been a long long time since I last exercised. My fitness level decreased by a whole lot. I had a shock when I saw my 2.4km timing. Out of all the 5 stations, I'm most proud that I always managed to pass my 2.4km. Not to say pass, I usually manage a sliver or something close to it. But this time round, my timing cannot even pass. Its the worst timing since a long long time ago. Its almost back to where I started. It didn't help that I started to train running 2 weeks ago when holidays started. The timing is really horrible. I realise how far my fitness level had dropped already. Hope to rescue abit before the school starts, otherwise it will continue to drop even further.

2009-05-03T18:23:00.001+08:00

Hmm... Been quite busy since the start of the holiday. Wonder if i had sign up for too much things. Haha.

2009-04-22T00:23:00.002+08:00

finally... about 1.5 hrs later. I finally got the cock off the wine bottle. Its a f***ing stubborn piece of cock that refuses to come out. In the end I just tore it into tiny pieces and push it into the bottle.

2009-04-21T19:07:00.003+08:00

oh no. I just realised that when I updated this template, my tagboard is gone! and I can't add it back cos I don't have the script and I forgot my account password! :S

Now no one can leave a msg already... Haiz... but then, I wonder how many people still reads my blog. Haha...

2009-04-20T16:59:00.002+08:00

OMG! They are currently airing a remake of Fullmetal Alchemist! :D Woho~ Its one of the best anime I've watched. Haha... but feels kind of weird though, cos they restarted from the beginning and then all the dead characters from the old one came to life again. Nevertheless I think it will still be a good anime. THose who haven't watch the old one can go try watching.

2009-04-18T13:20:00.001+08:00

WOHO!!!!!! Exams over le!!!!!! 3 Months of FREEDOM!!!!!

2009-04-15T20:20:00.000+08:00

Damn sian... no mood to study....

2009-04-15T17:41:00.002+08:00

:( Feeling abit worried now. I think I didn't write enough for my BGS :S 10 mark short answer question. I don't know how the prof allocate the marks leh. If 1 mark for one point then I die liao. Got some questions I only make like 1 or 2 points :( Hmm... hope everything will turn out okay. I'm betting heavily on my MCQ to pull up the marks. I think my MCQ did quite okay... managed to find most of the things. Haiz... wads over is over liao lar....

My FA okay lar... quite bad... but I don't really feel that sad cos I already know that I won't be doing well for it. Haha.... for AS, I was hoping for a better result than my mid terms. At least this time round the options in the MCQ makes more sense to me such that I can make a better choice. The mid term one is really anyhow choose one lor. So yar... hopefully I can pull up the mid term grade.

Now its time to worry for my MPW and TWC. MPW got so so so so so many many many many things to memorise lar! And I'm the worst at memorising things. So very worried. Then for TWC, the prof is making everyting so confusing. The more he tries to help us, the more confusing it gets. First he did a review slide, and things get abit more complicated. After that he keeps redoing his slides and adding more comments on it, all the way through the study week. Its like, why you keep changing things at the last minute. I already prepared using the old slides, and now you complicate things by adding more stuffs into it. Then I have to read everything again. Waste my time. I know he is trying to help, but I think I rather not have it.

Woho~ First time after so long since I typed like a proper entry to my blog. Guess I'm really very fustrated. Haha.... heck care lar... 2 more papers to go. I don't expect much. Just don't get a C can liao... :D Bye~

2009-04-12T21:07:00.001+08:00

AR!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-12T15:11:00.002+08:00

Damn sian... stop practising FA already. Just memorising stuffs and looking through the notes. Need to relax and calm my mind now. I've did wad I could already... spending more than 4 days of my study break on it. 1 FA mod takes up like 80% of my study time... Now can only wish for the best for tmrs exams.

2009-04-12T13:30:00.000+08:00

One more day and fa will be over!

2009-04-07T15:32:00.001+08:00

I HATE FA!!!!!!

2009-04-06T21:09:00.000+08:00

wah... I think smu server overload liao... everyone mugging. I can't even download notes from the school website!!!!

2009-04-06T21:05:00.000+08:00

I think my blog is becoming more and more like twitter. Haha... lazy to type long entries so the recent entries are very short :S

2009-04-06T21:02:00.001+08:00

AR!!!!!!!!!!!! Exams are coming!!!! and my FA is chui!!!!! How how????????? I think I'm most worried for my FA. :S The rest still okay... just need time to memorise things... but then FA is so mathematical... Haiz...

2009-03-25T21:58:00.000+08:00

Yay... finally nearing the end of the term :) Cleared most of my work already. Last week was hell... but this week can finally relax abit. Wads left is to chiong for the finals!

2009-03-13T19:04:00.006+08:00

Smile~ Even when you work is piling up high. There is always reasons to smile :) All the best for all who are mugging for their finals :)

2009-03-08T22:04:00.001+08:00

Eh... I think so be...
SO MUCH WORK TO DO!!!!!!!!!

nvm... my english chui... Actually my language quite screwed up. My chinese sux. Cannot read, only know how to talk. Then my english... cannot write, cannot speak.... -.-

2009-03-08T22:00:00.000+08:00

ARR!!!!!!!!! SO MANY WORK TO DO!!!!!!!

2009-03-01T21:45:00.002+08:00

:( recess week over le.... haiz.... dun feel like going back to school...

2009-02-08T20:40:00.002+08:00

My neck is aching now. Don't know is it because of the stress or because I'm falling sick soon. or maybe its due to the lack of exercise. I think I need to go get a good neck massage soon. I think I've been stressing myself a little bit too much. I haven't been enjoying my weekend. Its like I keep feeling that I should study. There's a FA quiz coming tuesday and I keep telling myself that I should be studying. But the fact is that I did study and I spent my saturday going back for FA lessons and doing things for my MPW. So I really haven't been slacking. But still whenever I stop doing my work, then there is this voice in my mind that is telling me that I should be doing more work :S

2009-01-30T19:59:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a very bad day for me as you could probably tell from me entry. But at least today things are starting to get sorted out. The problem is tomorrow. There are so many things happening in a day that I can barely make time for it. First there is this make up lesson that will take up the whole of the morning. But, problem is that I might need to pass the MPW survey to the participants in the morning as well. Then after that I need to rush home because my relatives are visiting my house. So if I don't get to pass the survey in the morning then that would eat into the relatives visit time. Of which the visit time is already being cut short because I need to be there for the bondue bash. So there is so many things happening at one day. Argh... I'm not going to stay late for the bondue bash. Once I'm no longer needed I'll go off already. I dun like clubbing and I'm really too tired to stay on. Although this monday and tuesday is a holiday. But I didn't get any rest. So its almost like a 5 days week for me. And then tomorrow will be the sixth day.

Cannot take it already. Luckily its all going to be over by this weekend so I can carry on my usual routine when school starts next week.

2009-01-29T17:47:00.003+08:00

Dame du lan now. All the shit start choking up the work flow. First there is this MPW that requires me to find 2 managers to do a series of 3 survey. Its already hard trying to get people to take part in 3 survey and they still want to set so many requirements. First one of them needs to be a manager and then the other one has to be a manager's manager. Then the company has to have more than 100 employees. How am I going to find such a person who is willing to take part in this kind of stupid survey, not only one, but 3 times. They think everyone has parents working in big companies ar...

Other than that still got this idiotic bondue. Fuck up piece of shit. Damn du lan now. I have to cancel my family dinner because of some stupid clubbing event. Now I kind of regret joining bondue. I don't really care about the position. Who cares about a IT director? Its just a person who do all the shit. Make all the emailers. The reason I've joined is because I love to design. They came to me saying that they need the skill and asked me to join them. I thought why not? Because, first I get to design some stuffs. Whether I receive any rewards doesn't matter. As long as my design can get displayed tru their posters and emailers I'm contented. And secondly, I thought I can share my skill and maybe do something for the school or the students. Thats why I joined. But now that they make me do all these kind of shit. I'm really wondering whether I should quit.

Argh... damn pissed off now. I hope that I can get the MPW shit cleared by tomorrow. The Bondue one, actually I don't care that much. I'll do what I can until the point where I really get pissed off, I'll just quit. Bye~

2009-01-16T09:06:00.002+08:00

Yay~ Second week of school is almost over. Well, kind of settled back to school already. Cos last week was still kind of adjusting to the new timetable and profs. Actually I quite like my new timetable, although it is a five day week. Unlike my last term, I don't have to spend long days in school. On days that I don't have morning lessons. I can wake up at 9, then slowly make my way to school. By 3.15, lesson will be over then I stayed back awhile to finish up my homework. I'll try to do my HW in school cos I lazy to bring my books home. Haha.. just throw it inside my locker. Its damn heavy lor, my laptop is already killing me, so I can't possibly carry another book that is as heavy as the laptop around. So, I'll try to finish my work before 5.30 so I can take my train home without having to cram with the rush hour crowd. Having one lesson per day also allows me to concentrate more during lessons. Last term where I had 2 lessons per day, I'm usually day dreaming throughout the second lesson. :S Anyways, school is still pretty much okay for now. Although it was significantly more busy than last term. Its only the second week of school and I find that my free time are slowly being eaten up by school related work.

Okay, enough about school. I just bought a refurbished ipod touch online few days ago. And it is expected to be delivered today :D So excited... haha... Well... it took me about 1 month before I could make the final decision to buy it :| Cos you know lar, poor people like me have to think alot before I buy something. For the past month I've constantly been asking myself, is this really needed, can I make do without, should I save the money instead, or should I use the money to get something else? All these questions have been repeatly asked throughout the month.

And finally, I decided to get it. Firstly, because I've been thinking about it for so long means I kind of wanted it, and the longer I darg, the more time I'll waste trying to give myself reasons to justify the purchase. Haha... So why not I just buy it and can stop all these useless thoughts. Well... besides that, of course there are practical reasons to buy it. I think I'll be needing it. My earphone connection to my handphone is kind of spoilt, so its become very irritating for me to listen to music from it as it will get disconnected ever so often. So I'll need another music player for my total 2 hour journey to and back from school. Imagine that I spend almost 1/6 of my waking time travelling. -.- Other than that, it'll be quite useful for me to carry my documents around. Especially those that requires reading. I think I can still find lots of other reasons, made up or not, to justify my spending. Haha...

Chinese new year is also round the corner. I think the atmosphere this year is going to be quite bad. Its like for the past few year, even when the economy is doing good, the new year celebrations has died down quite abit compared to a few years ago. Then this time round, because of the bad economy, it is going to get worst.

I haven't bought my new clothes for the new year yet :S Haha... I only just bought 1 T-shirt yesterday. Have to go shopping this weekend liao. I'm not just buying new clothes just because to follow the tradition. Its also because I don't have much presentable clothes to wear to school already. Haha... I haven't been shopping for the past year... so much of my clothes are deterioted and washed out, so it become more of my sleeping clothes. So currently I like only left with 3 set of clothes that I need to recycle a few to meet my 5 days week.

K lar, need to prepare some stuffs for lesson later. See ya~

2009-01-07T21:38:00.002+08:00

Just finished the 3rd day of school. Feeling tired... seemed to have done alot in the past 2 days. So now, I felt quit weird that I actually have spare time to watch drama. Haha... I like keep telling myself that shouldn't I be doing something related to studies now. Shouldn't I be reading some text or practising some questions? Haha... Think I'm over stressing myself -.- Should relax abit. The one lesson per day timetable is still going well. But somehow I still kind of prefer the 2 days week time table I had last term. Although its really tiring. But the pain is short. I finish my lesson on tuesday and have the rest of the week to myself. But now... I still need to go to school everyday.

Haiz... life goes on... have to take it easy :) Have fun~ Oh... by the way... my Muggerland pillar won the most popular pillar award! Haha... too bad I had lesson and couldn't be around to witness the event.

K lar... shall stop here.... see ya~

2009-01-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

Oh no... what have I gotten myself into? I think I'm gonna get real busy this term. Other than the extra 1 mod I need to handle. I still joined the exco of the business society! This is crazy.... Hope this will turn out okay, otherwise I might need to quit the exco next term -.- Crazy... Why am I doing all these? Just study can already mah... do so many extra things....

2009-01-04T21:30:00.001+08:00

AHHHH!!!! School is starting tmr!!! So sian... After one long month of sleeping late. I dun think I can wake up early for lesson tmr!!! -.-

2008-12-31T23:25:00.002+08:00

Its the last few minutes of the year again. So as always, its time to look back and review all the things that has happened throughout the year and make new resolutions for the coming year.. This blog is started in 2004. Which means, I have already written 4 entry, not including this one. So yar, lets start.

Lets rewind back to the entry that I wrote at the end of 2007 and take a look at my resolution for the year 2008. *reads last year entry* Actually, it wasn't much. Haha... Last year at this time, I'm still stuck in the army. So I was still wishing for my ORD date to come soon and to stay happy :) 2008 is quite a eventful one. It witness my ORD, 3 months of working, and start of my University life, oh and also, getting my driving license :D

ORD is one of the best thing that has happened to be this year. Haha... Finally after 2 long years I'm able to get out of army. The air is much fresher outside the gates of the camp. :D I've also worked for more than 3 months before I started school. That period of time is quite tiring. I have to teach tuition everynight, except for one, after work. So it wasn't a very pleasant time. But still, I did not regret it. Cos I earn lots of money. Haha... But then... it was all being offset by my Litbud and my driving lessons. So in the end all my hardwork was just to break even my spendings. Oh well... its still better then having a deficit in my savings. Haha.... After that I started school at SMU :D Although its far, inconvenient and EXPENSIVE... but still I do not regret my decision to study there. I really enjoyed my time there. :) By right I'm supposed to continue with.. "I'm looking forward to school"... but somehow I wasn't really. haha... sound so contridicting. :P I've also gotten my driving lesson quite recently :D So happy! But still dun have car to drive... :S Haiz... have to wait till I graduate and start working. :)

Life has been great so far. But still, I don't think I'm living it to the fullest yet. Life is short, every seconds counts. However, at many instances, I still find myself wasting time. So my new resolution for year 2009 will be to fully make use of my avaliable time. I need to participate in more activities, gain more experience, and make my time as enriching as possible. But that would mean that I'll be very very busy. Haha... Oh, have I mentioned it here before? The other day I went to check my horoscope and zodiac. Both of them says that I will have a very busy year. I think its going to be very true with me taking 5 mods next term. Oh well. Being busy is a good thing as well. I've lived much of my life quite leisurely so its good to have a change. :)

I've actually more things to do now, as seen from how I passed this holiday. Although I cannot exactly name what I have been doing for the past month. But its the first time where I don't really feel bored during the holidays. Holidays in the past was quite boring for me. I would finish whatever I want to do during the first 2 weeks of it and would be bored to death for the rest of the holidays. But this time round, I still have things that I didn't have time to do. So its a good start. I hope this will continue or even improve next time :)

So I think I'll borrow a motto from M1 for this coming year. One life, Live it. :D I wish all a happy new year, and enjoy year 2009!

2008-12-20T21:59:00.002+08:00

Hello. It has been quite a while since my last entry. Well not exactly long, but still enough lag for Ben to start shouting in the shoutbox. haha... Many things have happened for the past weeks. Good things I should say, as the absence of blog entries proved. Most bad things would be published quite almost instantly when I start looking for a place to vent my frustrations. Good things usually get obmitted in my blog as I would be too happy and lazy to blog about it. Somehow, happiness and laziness have this funny relation when it comes to me blogging.

A couple of things worth mentioning happened in the short span of weeks after my last entry, which was the exam week. After the exams at SMU, I took my Driving test the following week after. And yes, I passed :D I got 14 points for my mistakes that includes not checking my blind spot correctly (2 pts). Strike Kerb (4 pts). And another long mistake that I couldn't remember the exact name, but still cost me 8 points. Its something like causing inconvenience to other road user or something of that sort. But nevertheless, I passed. :D The total cost came up to slightly under 2K. Which is alot compared to a private candidate who told me that he only spend half the amount I did to get his license. That half the amount is actually a hefty 1K that I could have spend it on some other things. But it doesn't really bother me that much. As long as I could get my license. There is this aunty who was taking her 3rd driving test on that day. And sadly she still didn't make it that day and had to book for her 4th. I guess she must have spend well over 2K, close to 3K in fact for her many attempts. I've not seen her drive before, so I couldn't really say if she was really so unlucky to always get the worst test routes, or she is just plain incompetent. Anyway, still have to wish her all the best.
Although I got the license, but no car for me to drive. Haiz...

Anyway, I've also gotten back my result and GPA for the first sem at SMU already. It was quite average with a GPA of 3.4. I know its already not bad. But still I believe that I could have done better if I had put in more effort. I got a B+ for my stats. If I could have put in more effort and not lag behind lessons. I could have done better. Another regret is my management comms. That one was a bad mistake on my part. I think I screwed up my final individual presentation. Due to the bad timing of the presentation. I didn't have any time to prepare for it. Considering that I am very bad at presentation, the lack of preparation really screwed it up. I got a B for that and this is one thing that I could really have done better. My other 2 subject were fine. Got a B+ for Biz law. This one I'm actually quite happy with it. Well, many not happy, but no regrets for it. Cos all along I didn't do very well for Blaw.

But... anyway... whats over is over. At least its not beyond salvation. I can work harder next sem. But thats another problem. I got like 5 mods next sem and they are quite heavy. So it will be hell when school starts. Compared to the 2 days week and 2 final papers last sem. Next sem everything will more than double with a 5 days week and 5 finals papers. :S

K lar... feeling abit sleepy already. Will blog more if I have the time and of cos, must also be in the mood too :) See ya~

2008-11-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

How? How? Tomorrow is my Biz law exams le. I am very very unprepared. Think I am going to screw up my result this sem. -.- I have not felt so not confident about an exam for a long time. And I think this feeling is really bad :S When you are not confident about something, more likely that you are going to screw it up. Haiz...

I have already stopped studying about since yesterday morning liao. Its only a occasional flipping through. I think there is no point carrying on. I have already been stuck at this stage for a long time. So if there is somethiing to be done, I would have done it long ago. So now I just need to relax myself and rest for the exams. Getting too stress out is bad for the exams as well. So since I can't really do much now, I can at least get my mind to properly relax first.

I think I might also be giving myself too much stress. I am expecting myself to get an A. And nothing less than it is acceptable. In the competitive environment. I guess its hard not to feel this way. But then in the mist of all these competition. I might have forgotten that as long as I had tried my best, it is good enough.

Really, I think I had never given myself so much stress before. All along, I just do my best and hope for the best result. And even if I don't get it. I wouldn't feel bad. But then this time round. I have this mentality that I need to get an A. Yar... I think this is why I am so stressed now.

Now that I have realised this, I must stop it. I cannot let this kind of things affect my performance. It never had, and should never be the case. Haha... so yar... I guess I am feeling much better now. Writing down, or perhaps typing down my thoughts into words is a good way to reflect and identify problems. I have gotten too obsessed with getting an A that I end up giving myself too much stress.

But anyway. I think I have already screwed up one of my mods liao. Based on the result that I gotten back. I can at most manage a B. And then, if there were to be moderation. My B might not hold and may drop to a C. Although moving up the grade is also possible. But then I am not very hopeful about that as there are quite a number of strong players in the game. Haha... but oh well... B isn't too bad a grade. Considering that my english is not fantastic and my presentation skills suck to the core. To be able to get a B for management communications could already be a great achievement. Haha...

Its already 10.30pm. By right I should be sleeping already to prepare for exams tomorrow. But then, because I wake up late today and also took a small afternoon nap. I won't be able to fall asleep so early. So might as well spend the time doing some other things to relax my mind. Afterall, tomorrow's exam is in the afternoon. So I need to wake up early.

So, perhaps I shall take this opportunity to blog more. Haha...

I have already confirmed my timetable for next term le. Actually it was confirmed long ago, but I was just lazy to blog about it. Haha... I taking 5 mods next term, which is one more mod than what I am doing this term. I think that for this term I am rather slack. Perhaps its also because of the mods that I took which isn't too heavy. Take for example now. I only have 2 papers to prepare for the finals. But then next sem. Things will be different. Some of the mods are quite heavy and time consuming. Then for the final exams. I got 5 papers to prepare for. Which is like more than twice the number I had for this sem. So yar... think I going to die next sem.

But then, maybe the more busy environment is good for me. Cos I think my this term is too slack liao. So my engine hasn't gone running yet. My intention for this term is to first warm up my engine and gain momentum. It has been 2 years since I last studied. So yar, don't know still can cope or not. Also I need to first try out how heavy a module is. Otherwise, I might kill myself in the first term by taking more than what I could handle.

So yar, hope next term will be better ba. Anyway. Its only 3 more days and 2 papers before I clear everything for this term. So yar. Very fast one :D After that I can switch to holiday mood again :D It has really been a hectic journey. Must take a rest first. Haha... woho~ long time never see such a long entry liao right. :P Bye~

2008-11-23T13:48:00.002+08:00

Muahaha... tmr is my exam and I am still here blogging :X

Sibeh sian... dun feel like studying. No mood liao. Can no longer study like how I did for A lvls. :S
Haha... but someone say its okay not to study like that. A lvls is 2 years once, this one is half a year once leh. If study like that will die. Haha...

:S Aiya, I finish my preparation for the exam already. All I can do now is keep practising and practising. But then. Not in the mood to practise lar. Heck care. Will see how the result turn out ba. This time round the feeling is kind of different. For A lvls I can say that I was really confident that I will do well. Cos there was a lot of preparation work involved. I did like countless past year paper before the exam. But this time round, I only did like 2 past year paper. The older ones are not very relevant. So... I'm like so under prepared :S

Argh... not matter wad I hope to get this over and done with soon. :D

2008-11-12T20:19:00.003+08:00

Haiz... feeling rather demoralised now. Just went for my second driving session for today. Didn't perform very well. It was raining heavily and I was not accustomed to it. The rain made my visibility drop by half, and then its sound masked the sound of my engine. So my judgement of everything is off. I can't see the poles when doing parking, I can't change my gear appropriately. Everything is just screwed up. Somemore, I took a nap in the afternoon, so my mind wasn't in the correct state as well... Haiz...

The session in the morning went well. I was alert and could react effectively. The sun was bright and the weather was warm. So the whole session went on quite well. I thought I finally can have confidence to pass the test. But haiz... the afternoon session drowned all my hopes.

Oh well... I still have another session tomorrow morning. Hope I can do better then.

Anyway... it seems that I haven't been blogging for quite some time. The early few weeks was because I got too much school work to prepare. So yar, I didn't have time. But starting last week. Everything was cleared. But I was just lazy to blog. Haha... so yar.... drag until today.

I've cleared most of my work already. So now just need to prepare for the exams. But the thing is that I am not really in the exam mode yet. :S I study abit here and there, and then very soon be distracted to do other things. While it is still okay for this week. I'm not going to let it happen next week. Next week I'm really going into mugging mode liao. Have to catch up and grab back all my As. Although must of it is gone, but I still must try to grab as much as I can.

Why do I say much of it is gone? Because, I haven't been putting in my best for all my other assignments. So now, its very hard to catch up as the major part of my grade is already decided. Now what I can do it just to try as best as I could to grab as much as possible. I came to the realisation of how important my GPA for the first few sems are. So now... my term 1 is gone already. What I can do is to work harder for the next coming sems.

K lar, see if I got time then I blog again. See ya~

2008-11-06T17:19:00.002+08:00

Hello... It has been quite a while since I last blogged. Life was hectic for the past weeks. Lots of projects and assignments due. Luckily it is all over now. Now, I only need to concentrate on 2 more assignments and then prepare for my final exams...

But haiz... I think I'll need a lot of effort for the preparation. I've been lagging behind both the subjects that are subjected to final exams. Which is.. biz law and stats. Biz law still okay, can still handle on my own.. But stats is the killer... I'm lagging very much behind and I have a hard time trying to catch up.... 2 more weeks left... I hope everything will turn out okay.

K lar... blog another time... haha... I know this entry also very short..
But I need to go have my dinner le... See ya~

2008-10-08T20:32:00.002+08:00

Yay... mid terms finally over. But still have to worry about the result. :S I think my stats quite bad. Biz law is still okay. So yar... pray hard that it will be fine.

Having my mid term break now. Not really a break as everyday is still packed with activities. For the past 3 days I had been helping out at a old folks home as part of my LTB project. Then I've also tried to chiong for my driving test. I only realised today that I can no longer cancel and rebook a test date without forfeiting the payment. This new policy started just this month, October. So yar... that leave me with no choice to try to chiong for my current test date. Cos no matter whether I pass or fail, the money will be gone.

I'm having 2 lessons tomorrow. Quite sian... cos I have to space out the 2 lessons and inbetween I got nothing to do. Guess I'll bring some work and my laptop for Mcdonalds and camp there. :S

Oh well... must really enjoy this term break before school starts. I'm so lucky to have all my mid terms before the break. I see friends who have it after the break all still so worried about the exams. K lar... all the best to everyone. :) See ya~

2008-10-02T15:58:00.002+08:00

Very worried about the Biz law test tomorrow. I really don't know how it will turn out. The format of the test is really different from what I have been doing for the past 10 years. In the past, all the exams have specific type of questions that you can prepare yourself for. Take for example, stats, which I'm also having test tomorrow. I'm not that worried about stats because I know what are the types of question that will have a chance of coming out and I can prepare for it by practicing. Or maybe if you want a closer comparison. For economic essays, you also kind of know what types of questions will come out and you can just structure your arguments to it. But Biz law is quite different. You are given a case, and you have to scrutinize the case for details that you can use to fight the case. I'm not used to this kind of exam format and I hope I don't screw it up.

Oh.. I just thought of a apt explanation for my feeling. For stats... I know what I don't know and can work on it. But for biz law, I don't know what I don't know... so how am I going to work on it? Furthermore, there hasn't been any class assignment that I can hand in for my prof to grade. So all these while, I'm just looking at other people's presentation and have no idea how many marks can my answers garner.

Oh... anyway... I just realise that my biz law test is only 15% -.- Which is kind of little considering that class participation mark has the same percentage. So yar... at this if I screw up this time, it won't be that bad. And I think my class part marks won't be that bad. Haha... considering that out of all my modules. I speak up most during biz law. So I just hope that my prof can remember my face and award the marks accordingly. Haha...

Argh... then still got the stupid comms assignment. A one page letter will cost me 20% of my module grade. Thats like woah!!! One letter only leh only a maximum one PAGE and it cost 20%!!! Thats a huge percentage on such a little assignment lar. Really worried.

K lar... all will be well after tomorrow :) Tomorrow night I going for MIC movie night :D So can chill out after one long day of 2 test :) K lar.. see ya~

2008-09-11T23:20:00.002+08:00

Wah sian... I really have no time for my driving lessons. Looking at the current situation. I need to complete like 10 lessons during my recess week, then subsequently I need to do 2 lessons per week so that I can do the test before my membership with the school expires.

I'm seriously considering whether I should just renew my membership and spare myself the torture. Because having 10 lessons a week, while it is not very physically tiring. But I'm worried that I cannot learn as fast, and I'm not optimising the time spend in the lesson if I keep repeating the same mistakes. Other than that, the twice a week lesson during my school days is also another problem. I do not know if there will be projects that will need my attention. Somemore the final exams will be round the corner. And the worst of all... I might not pass at the first try, so in the end, I might still need to renew the membership afterall.

Argh... sian ar!!!!

2008-09-11T15:05:00.002+08:00

My arms and legs are aching now. Haha... Yesterday went for my first recre badminton session :D It has been a long long time since I last played badminton. I think the last time I played was during my JC. Then until now its like more than 3 years le! Haha... But my skills still not very rusty yet :P Sill managed to play quite comfortably. :) I really like to play badminton, but too bad there arn't many opportunities for me to play. Although the recre badminton is held once a week, but there is just too many people around. Its seriously over crowded. So its quite hard to play properly. I can only like step one step away from the origin to return the ball, abit further and I risk getting wack by another player at the side. So I think I won't be going that often.

I've also joined the poems stock challenge! Haha... very sad leh... wadever stocks I buy all fall :| Guess I really cannot play the stock market.. Anway, there is a ranking for the Top losers... Hope my name dosen't show up there. Haha... I'm currently around 20 places to getting inside. LOL... which is really close lar.

Oh well... wondering why am I blogging at this time of the day? Well.. I've kind of finished my assignment :D Wee~ Haha... so can slack abit. Today is only thursday. Later going to do some biz law reading then I'm done for the week :D

I think friday is my favourite day. Haha... Morning got LTB meeting, but okay lar, its not that heavy and its actually quite fun. Cos don't really need to use alot of brain power to get things done. After that got MIC! Haha... its kind of like a karaoke club. Quite cool right. Like at the end of the week you just go there, chill out, talk to people, listen to them sing song. Somemore its not very expensive. $10 for a year membership. haha... Its a good way to end a week :) Then after that is the investment club lor. Go there listen to lecture, which is kind of sian lar.... haha... but its still okay, if sian just don't listen lor. No penalties. Haha... Just that I feel abit bad for the speaker lar when he is trying to teach and I just don't listen. :P

So yar, life is great :D But hor, I think its just for now lar. Cos I think I've been taking things very lightly these days. Perhaps after 2 years in the army ar, I think I'm god. Haha... cos there is no test that you can fail in the army. Like everything can just bullshit and pass. But now back to the school environment hor, I still can't get rid of the mentality. So I think I'm gonna get a shock during mid term. After that then I will start to feel the pain. :S Now I'm trying to minimise the possiblilty of that happening lar, so I'll still continue to read. But then, I sometimes I just cannot control the urge to slack. Haha...

K lar, thats all for now... See ya~

2008-09-07T22:24:00.002+08:00

Starting tomorrow its already the 4th week of school and things are picking up pace. I can feel the increased workload coming from the various modules. Currently, I'm kind of behind time for my readings as I've been down with flu for the past days. That cost me a lot of valuable time. So yar,I guess this coming week will be quite busy as I need to chiong finish all the readings. I've also have another project coming up soon. So things are really getting busy. Luckily I did not take 5 modules this term, otherwise I will get a shock. Haha... I see my other friends who are taking 5 mods suffering now. I'm not prepared to take on that burden in the very first semester of my uni life. But starting next term, I'll try to take 5 mods.

Anyway, since the start of school. I've been doing all the school stuffs and my litbud.com and driving got neglected. I'm putting my litbud on hold for the time being until my term break. But my driving is the headache one. My membership expires this coming december and I've book my driving test date already. So I don't have much time to complete all my lessons. If I can't complete in time I would have to postpone the driving test and extend my membership. Thats gonna cost me another sum of money....

Oh... I've also been putting on a lot of weight. Haha... my waist line is increasing exponentially. I think I'm going back to my pre army enlistment size liao. All the fats that I lost in army are all coming back. I plan to start running from next week. Hope it can stop my waistline from increasing further or hopefully decrease abit. So yar, please don't rain in the morning next week. Wait till I finish my run and you can rain all you want. Haha...

Thats about all for now lar... See ya~

2008-08-30T22:10:00.002+08:00

Hey hey, it has been a long time since I blogged properly. The previous few post are just rumbling about some stuffs.

Life has been good. Schoolwork is still manageable, in fact it is very manageable. I see my other friends like complaining and struggling with work but somehow my work load is quite light. Other than school work. Life in SMU is quite nice too :)

Oh no... I wanted to make this a proper blog entry but somehow I run out of things to write. So sorry.... I think I'll blog again next time ba... See ya...

2008-08-21T21:52:00.002+08:00

All is not lost, I managed to get another slot for FTT on the 28th, which is next week. Have to constantly remind myself not to miss it again.

Oh well... first week of school is almost over. Actually its quite over since tuesday because I only have a 2 day week! It really feels good to not have any lessons after that. 2 days passes very fast, so it seems like the week ended just like that. Although I still have to go back to school for projects, the feeling is quite different. Its is very much more casual and relax.

First week of school, everything went on smoothly. It was better than expected. At first I was quite worried for some lessons like comms and biz law. But after the first lesson, it seems quite okay. Biz law is still quite comfusing but I think I can get over it soon.

All in all life is still going good :) Blog another time~

2008-08-20T12:15:00.000+08:00

SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!! I missed my FTT date!!!!! WAh... HEARTACHE sia!!!! It wasn't easy to get today's date and I MISSED IT!!!!! ARGH!!!! NOW HAVE TO WAIT SO LONG FOR THE NEXT DATE!!!!!!!!!! SIAN!!!! MUST CAMP FOR THE DATES LIAO :| ARGH!!! SO WASTED!!!

2008-08-17T22:02:00.002+08:00

Oh no! School is finally starting tomorrow! After more than 2 years of break, I'm going back to study again! Feeling quite worried now. Don't know what to expect on the first day of school. Its a totally new environment and system. Hope I can cope well. First day of school and its already going to be a long day. Last lesson ends at 6.45. By then it would have already passed my usual dinner time. Argh, just hope to get the first week of school over soon. There are so many things to do. Once this week is over, life will be more or less settled. So yar... really hope this week will pass by with any major problems :)

K lar... not really in the mood to blog now... argh... will try to sleep now. Hope tomorrow will be good :) See ya!

2008-08-15T21:11:00.002+08:00

Oh no... school is starting next week and there is so much things still unprepared. I've not been able to secure all the textbooks needed for school. At this point of time I've only managed to secure 1 out of 4 textbook needed. And the most worrying thing is that one of the prof emailed us to read up on at least the first chapter before our first lesson. But I don't even have the textbook to start with! So how am I going to prepare for the first lesson? I'm kind of worried about the first lesson. Don't know how will it be like. :S

2008-08-13T16:47:00.003+08:00

I went to watch Money No Enough 2, after getting good response from my family and Alan who had watched it. Well, I didn't really find it nice. The whole movie is very draggy. The storyline is very weak. Its almost like a channel 8 drama. There are alot of scenes that just wastes time, and some scenes are a outright advertisement for their sponsors. I know they needed sponsors to help with the budget, but they can at least do it more tactfully. Sometimes it almost seem like a commercial break in the middle of the movie.

They wasted almost half the time in the beginning talking about MLM, which is not much of a interesting topic or rather it is totally boring. Then the next half they try to act pity on the topic of ageing. They tried to make it a touching movie. But, I think they failed. What they did was to make the actor act pityful, but without a solid storyline, they didn't really touch me.

All in all, I think this may be the worst movie that Jack neo has made. Really dissappointing.

2008-08-12T10:56:00.002+08:00

Yay! Finally got my laptop fixed. Okay, it wasn't much of a big problem. I just went to school, logged in to the school network and changed a few things. Less than 5 minutes everything was done. But I spend more than 1 hr travelling to school just for that. But okay lar, meet up with EJ and managed to get some help from him. ( for other matters, not the laptop) .

Starting school in less than a week time. I just went to see the course outline and some seminar questions for week 1. Totally tio stunned. I'm so not prepared for school. Anyway, 船到桥头自然直。 So hope everything will be alright after the first week :)

2008-08-09T17:00:00.002+08:00

WAH LAU!!! SIBEH DULAN now... I wanted to set up my home connection so that my laptop can access internet through my home computer. End up I signed myself out of the school domain and now I can't set it up without going to school to do it. Argh... So troublesome. Now I have to specially go down to school to do it on monday. I don't want to wait till schools starts cos I already configured my profile on the account. I'm using the administrator account now by the way and everything is not customised for my use. Argh!!! ARGH!!!!! Totally spoil my mood.

2008-08-09T13:04:00.003+08:00

Yay! Everything is almost finally over. I've finished my 2 camps and CSP. So now just have to prepare to start school. Just came back from my bondue camp yesterday. The activities are fun. Haha... The first day we already got very very dirty. We got mud+ ketchup+ soy sauce+ flour+ vineger+ toothpaste+ peanut butter+ tobasco+ egg+ banana+ watermelon all over ourselves. Then we also played captains ball with raw chicken. I think thats the most gross part. I didn't play in the chicken match, but I played with raw cuttlefish as the ball. There was really a conflict of feelings when I watch the chicken being tossed around as a ball. It was really hilarious but I kind of felt sad for the chicken. Like it died for us as a food source, and after he died we still play and toss it around. Its like we are still torturing it after its death.

Anyway, after that the activities are more tone down. We went geylang for supper, sentosa to play games and we had a drinking session the last night. Our team didn't drink too much, so we were more or less sober, but we heard alot of stories of those who drank over their limits.

It was quite a nice experience. But I think I should have been more enthu abit and talk more. Somehow I was very quiet. But overall, I still enjoyed the camp.

This would most probably complete my orientation experience. For the past weeks its really having fun all the way. I guess its part of the university experience and I'm glad that I didn't miss out the fun. Haha... And I'm like super tanned now lar. After spending so many days out in the sun.

K lar... will blog again when I'm free. Bye~

2008-08-05T22:49:00.002+08:00

Hello. Just finished packing for the camp tmr. Its another 3 days camp. Hope that the activities are fun and the teammates are nice. But from the first looks of it, its kind of disappointing. The turn out for the pre camp dinner was bad. Don't know if they really cannot make it or just don't bother to come. I definately hope its not the latter. Afterall, we all signed up for the camp willingly, its not like FTB where it is compulsory, so I hope that everyone will be more enthu abit.

This time round I'm not feeling as sian as before FTB. Cos I know I'll be staying in school, at least the accomodation is much better. Haha... So now I just hope that the activities and the team members are fun.

Its the final big event for me before school starts . 2 weeks after this would be the start of school already. When school starts, I think the feeling will be quite different. I've been like in the orientation mood for the past weeks. Like just go school and play games. HAha...Its really a long long orientation. So since this is the last major event, I really hope it will turn out great. Haha.. I have high hopes and expectation for this camp,especially after my FTB. Haha... I hope it will be even better than it. So yar, must not dissappoint me okay.

Hmm... k lar.... its gonna be a long day tmr. Think I should get some rest. Bye~

2008-08-04T21:39:00.002+08:00

woho! So happy now. Kio tio some good stuffs. Haha...

I logged in to BBDC website hoping to be able to change my Final theory date to an earlier one. Because its very very overdue. I should have completed it eons ago, but because of work I haven't done so. My original date was in sept, but just now I managed to bring it forward to Aug, about 1 month earlier! I'm going for the evaluation tomorrow. Hopefully I can pass, or I should say, I must pass it tomorrow. Otherwise the test date will be void. This something irritating about enrolling in a school. I'm like so so happy now. Because this means that my time line won't be that pack now. I have to complete everything by december otherwise I will need to extend my membership with the school. Pray hard that I can go through this in one shot, afterall its all theory, either I'm right or wrong. Very straight forward, so the chances of passing should be under control.

I've also gotten my school time table today. Well... they only allocated 2 modules for me. -.- That means that I need to bid for 2 more... So troublesome. Anyway, the 2 modules that I got. One has lessons at 8.30 on a monday morning... another has lesson until 6.45 on tuesday evening. Kind of extreme... I dun want to wake up so early on a monday morning, and I don't want to go home so late, not only for tuesday, but everyday. I was hoping that I can make it home for dinner everyday. One thing is that the expenses for eating out is high, especially in town area. Another thing is that I don't like to stay in school until so late. The night is for me to relax, watch TV, surf net... Its my personal time. Oh well, since it was allocated, I guess I will just have to bear with it for this first sem.

Thats all for today... bye~!

2008-08-02T21:51:00.002+08:00

Starring has finally drawn to a close. Well, not officially, but the activities are more or less done. Well it was a good experience but things could have been better if there were better planning. The timing was badly planned and resulting in alot of time wasting waiting for events to happen. This is probably the most annoying part of the whole project. Another thing is that I think there are many people who are not totally commited to the project. People are just there to clear their hours. So the people needed alot of pushing to get moving. Thats probably another annoying part.

Anyway, since its all over I wouldn't want to say too much already. Overall, its still a good experience lar.

With that, there is still a final event before everything is more or less settled. Thats the bondue camp I'm going next week. That is my last major and troublesome event before school starts... Haha... hope it will be fun and I get into a good team too, just like FTB :)

Thats about all for now :) Bye~

2008-07-31T20:50:00.002+08:00

Hello! I'm back from FTB! Haha... it was alot better than wad I expected. And I really enjoyed it. Initially I had expected it to be similar to YJ orientation at Ubin OBS where we had to stay in the forest and doing all the field cooking and stuffs. But this time round we were at the east coast camp site and the facilities there are quite good. Accommodation was in camp and food was catered. So thats already a huge plus point already. I'm very happy to be in team A14. The people are great. Everyone was really trying to help each other and make this experience a good one. Hope to keep in contact! The activities are also well planned. I think the organizing committee did a fairly good job in keeping the events well paced. Overall, I really had a great time at FTB. Although it very tiring... Haha... I slept like 12 hours when I got home, and my body is aching all over. :P

Tomorrow morning I'm finally going for my first driving practical lesson. It was really a long break since I'm first eligible to start lesson. After my Basic theory, I went working and until now I haven't got time to start my lesson. My PDL is expiring very soon so I had to get it renewed already... I'm hoping that I can finish everything before my membership for school expires in Dec this year. Otherwise it would be another sum of money to get it renewed. Kind of excited. Haha... I'm finally able to drive. I guess the feeling would be quite nice.

Alright, thats about all for today. See ya~

2008-07-27T21:48:00.002+08:00

So sian... tmr have to go for FTB. Think they going OBS... Haiz... outfield again.... I'm not really looking forward to the camp. I would love to go for orientation, but I don't want a camp where I have to stay overnight. Whats worst is staying overnight in the wilds... I hate that.

Argh... blog another time ba... not in the mood liao... haha... just wanted to come and complain here... :P Bye~

2008-07-18T22:09:00.002+08:00

Wee~ Finally got hold of this book. Its titled 'Should I flush my goldfish down the loo? and other modern morals'. I first saw it at popular bookshop and got interested to read it. So I went to the library to check its availability. I was so happy to see it available at CCK library... but too bad it was on loan at that time. Then today I went back to check and found it :)

I think it would be an interesting read. Been a while since I last read a book. A small quote from the back of the book. ' I returned home to discover that one of my goldfish was very unwell. When my partner came home, he just wanted to flush the poorly goldfish down the lavatory. Having discovered that our views on the sanctity of life are so far apart. Should I leave him? '

Interesting right? Haha... wait till I finish the book and then write a short review for you guys :) For those who are interested, you can go buy the book or borrow it from the library. When I last check there are still like 5 to 6 copies available in other libraries. :)

2008-07-17T18:06:00.002+08:00

Just came back from watching The Dark Knight. Nice movie I must say... although I feel kind of confused about the story... Haha... Didn't managed to catch some of their conversation so there are some details that I didn't really understand. But overall the action is quite nice :) Lots of cool moves and explosion. Its a long movie so I think its good to find a cinema with nice chairs to sit on. I watched it at Jurong Point and my butt is aching towards the end of the movie. Oh there is this student promotion now where tickets are only for $6. Which I think is quite a good deal. So you can consider watching it :)

Other than that I also watched Red Cliff the past Sunday. Thats another nice movie. Their army formations reminds me of our NDP. :S Haha...

Today is a break from 2 consecutive days of StarringSMU. It was very tiring... On tuesday we had to go around collecting photos of people for the Pledges for the Nation. Its really hard work. I think its even harder than flag day. Cause for flag day, you hold the can and people will know what you are doing. But for this, we had to explain to them what it is about and so many people are just camera shy. Their faces won't be splashed all over singapore. Just a tiny tiny photo in a col large of 30,000. I think if I were the one being approached, yes at first I would reject them, but after learning what it is about I think I won't mind having my photo taken.

The next day we had to learn some drum rhythm and dance moves. Haha.. that was the most silly and funny part. It was then that I realised what I big wooden block I am and I got some serious psycomotor problems... I totally cannot coordinate my hands and legs and they are so stiff and inflexible. I look so silly when I am dancing... Haha.... I wonder how I am going for the samba walk :S Total embarrassment... haha...

Well, so after 2 days of activity I can finally have my rest until next week for the car wash.
K lar, thats about all for now :) See ya~

2008-07-12T22:18:00.002+08:00

Woo... My time table is packed all the way till almost start of school with all the camps and community service. It has been a long time since my time table was this packed. So many things to attend and so many things to do. Luckily I quit my job at the correct time. At first I thought I would have alot of free time quitting it so early, But I guess I'm wrong. Haha... Now I couldn't squeeze in my driving lessons... Argh... my PDL is expiring in August already. I won't be able to complete everything by then so I guess I need to spend another sum of money to get it renewed.

Went for the team building session for community service today. Had quite some fun. It has been a while since I had so much walking around. Haha... My legs are now aching. Although our group wasn't the most enthu around, we still managed to smoke through alot of stations and completed quite a respectable amount of station in the limited time slot. :) Hope for the coming 8 days we can have more fun together :)

Alright think thats about all for today. Won't be writing long entries like while I'm still working. Haha... Now no more time in the office to slack around. I hope they are doing fine back at my previous office. Praying hard that I do not leave too much errors behind otherwise next time also no face to go back and visit them :) Also don't want to spoil my good reputation :P OKay, so I shall blog again... See ya~

2008-07-06T23:33:00.002+08:00

Woho~ Finally! Work has ended :D Friday was officially my last day at the company. I had a very nice time at this company, the people are nice and the working environment is homely. I would like to thank my colleagues for taking care of me all this time :) Because I was quite the youngest there so a lot of things I tend to rely on their help :P I would like to especially thank my boss. Although he is more than twice my age, he still calls me brother. He is a really nice guy and took good care of me while I'm there. Time passes very quickly, I've worked there for almost 4 months. Hope all the best for them and someday in the future we might meet again :)

2008-06-29T21:57:00.002+08:00

Argh.... tomorrow have to report for work again. Just had a long weekend so the feeling is quite bad. Anyway, this will be my last week at work already. So happy... finally its all going to end soon. Can't wait for friday... I am already imagining how it would be like one friday, the feelings and everything... Haha.. Its almost like ORDing :D

K lar, don't feel very well tonight, think partly because of work tomorrow, and partly because I slept in the afternoon. Will blog another time. Bye~

2008-06-07T12:23:00.002+08:00

Hey hey, as promised. This is my latest work! Haha... cute right? You can download the full size version of 1280*720 wallpaper at the following link.

http://t3k-.deviantart.com/art/Dandelion-Bunnies-87915145

Hope you like it :D

2008-06-04T20:37:00.002+08:00

I've changed my blog skin to something simple and pleasing to the eye. I guess what matters is the content and not the design of my blog. Haha... okay, the main reason is that I am sick of designing for my blog. :S

Anyway, its still good news for you people that you have a easier time reading :)

Oh.. just an interesting note, I got a little surprise when I saw the archive list. Woho, I've been blogging for 4 years already :D I wonder how long more it will go :)

2008-06-04T20:09:00.001+08:00

Alright, I finally decided to blog during office hours. Actually I had written a entry before, but I deleted it away due to the lack of content. But I decided to try again this again because I think that I could write better entries than I do at home. When I'm at home, I don't really feel like sitting long hours in front of the computer to type out entries that don't seem as long. In the office, I'm spending even longer time in front of the computer, so I guess I have more time to think and edit my entry. Its not that I'm slacking during work, but there aren't much I can do without any input. I'm more like a human scanner. I receive pieces of contracts which requires me to seek out the data and compile a report. So after 3 months of working here, I think I'm customized to handle such task. All the bugs and errors in the earlier time are gone, okay not gone cos I still make mistake, lesser. Last time due to the slow processing, when the input comes, I can't output as fast, so work at the input piles up. But now, my output is many times faster than the input, so that leaves me with lots of time to do other stuffs. Like day dreaming... and of course blogging. I guess other than blogging for eh.. blogging... blogging also helps you look busy when you are furiously typing on the keyboard. The tapping and clicking sound of the keys adds to the effect.

I guess you can really see the difference just by the amount of text there already are just on this topic alone, as compared to what I usually type at home. So lets start~

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After weeks of consideration, I've decided to give up one of my tuition student. I really have no interest in teaching him anymore. He likes to ask very specific questions that is so hard to answer. I am not a encyclopedia, how am I going to remember how many Joules of energy a body has or the circumference of the earth, or the height of mount everest. OKay, maybe I should admit that I am not very knowledgeable, so I guess also that it is better for him to get another teacher. I can't try to smoke myself out every lesson. But by doing so I am cutting off a good source of income. Teaching him is very easy. You don't have to worry about any exams because he studies at a international school and the school haven't even start to teach science yet. So there is really no pressure. Just go there feed him with information and then leave. If I really don't care if he learnt anything every lesson, I can still carry on to 'teach' and continue this income. But I feel that since I am not up to standard to teach him, then I guess it would be best that I leave and let someone better take over. So thats another problem off my mind. This has been bothering me for weeks.

Meanwhile, I will still continue to teach my other pupil. Although this pupil is not as clever, but somehow I still feel motivated to teach him. Perhaps its because he dosen't ask so much irritating questions. Talking about my other tuition kid, he's also another headache. He takes a very long time to get a concept. Really worry about him. Hope he can do well for his CA2, otherwise I also dun have face to continue teaching him.

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I am recently introduced to this concept that actually, the reason to go green is not because the earth is dying, its actually us, humans that are dying. The earth will never die, when the conditions on earth become uninhabitable, human will all die off, and earth will regenerate itself. millions of years after human dies, the air will become fresh, water will become clean and life thrives again. So earth never dies, what we are afraid of is us dying. So I'm thinking, would it be better if the campaign to go green is targeted at saving ourselves then saving earth. We can maybe show how people are suffering due to the unnatural climate change, how the crops fail, how people are starving, how food prices are increasing. I think that are many more examples of the actual sufferings that we humans face . So yar, lets try to be more environmentally friendly, not for the earth. But for ourselves. Although having said all these, I know I'm still not very friendly to earth. But I can say that I am the friendliest in my family. Haha... Well.. In some instances where it is convenient, I did my part to help :)

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Yay... its about time to knock off, well another hour to be exact. But still feel very happy. Haven't been doing much after lunch. Cleared most of my work before lunch, and no new work after it. So been wasting my time away blogging here. K lar, I think I shall end the entry for today here le. Gonna send it to my mail so that I can copy and past it at home :) Of if you haven't know, I'm actually typing this in a text document first before I upload it at home. Can't expect me to log on to blogger and typing away in the office right.. haha... Alright then see you.

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Today feels kind of weird, I supposed it due to the morning's rush that screwed up my mood. My minds feels kind of giddy and heavy, like its under alcohol influence, but minus the high and happy feeling.

I seemed to have the feeling that I've done alot of work today, which I believe is partly true. The whole of this morning I didn't have any time to day dream. Its one of the busiest morning I had in recent weeks. I hate it when it comes to the end of the month. The trade volume is the highest among the 4 weeks. But luckily due to my relatively superior processing power as compared to when I first came in, I still managed to clear the work way before the deadline. However, that dosen't mean that I am having a easy time. Yes, things are done faster, the effort used is no lesser than before. Anyway, its another 4 more weeks to go, excluding this week and I will finally end my contract. And this time round, it will really be the end, no more extension. The time now is 4.18pm, about 1 hour more before I can go off. Boss is having a discussion with another colleague, so that leaves me with less supervision to do my own stuffs. Even though I think my boss won't really mind me doing so, but I think its still no so nice to do it blatently when he is around. So I still try to act busy when he is around. Haha... Oh one interesting thing to share. Me, my boss and another colleague share this one big cubicle, and we are seated back facing each other. We totally cannot see each other while we are working on the computer. In order to effectively spy on my boss to see if he is looking in my direction. I have tilted my monitor to an angle such that one shiny part of the monitor is actually reflecting what my boss is doing behind. Haha... As the chair he sits on is squeaky, any major movement of his will come with a sound alert. This way I just need to glance at the side of my monitor to effectively keep track of whether my boss is looking at me. Haha...I know this is totally uncalled for, but its always good to know who is looking at you behind your back, furthermore, he's still my boss no matter how nice he is. :P

Alright I really love blogging here, especially when boss is away, I can just continue to type endless lines of text onto the screen and time just pass as fast as the words appear on the screen. It really helps me to kill time.

Oh, on the topic of killing time. I've just realized that I really need alot of free boring time for me to generate ideas. Litbud was conceived during a boring lesson in school. And now, recently I came up with another character :D Its done on a boring afternoon in office. This character will make its debute on Drawing Day! Oh, if you haven't heard, there is this event that aims to create one millions drawings in a day. You can log on to www.drawingday.org for more information. Hope you guys can join in the fun and make some drawings on the day. :D

Alright, I think I'll end here for today :) Spend a good 20 minutes on this entry. :P Although not very long, but at least thats 20 mins off the 'boring' time. Haha... See ya~

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After weeks of having so much free time on hand, it is automatically assumed that the time is MINE. So when one day someone decides to take it away from you. You feel kind of reluctant. But the time isn't mine to be taken away in the first place. That is what's happening now. The people upstairs ( literally upstairs, they are on the 16th floor, while I am on the 2nd) are complaining that I take too much time to produce the report. In my point of view, it is not me that is slowing down the process. I have so much time on hand, so it is not that I am slow, its those who are creating the input for me to process. So to be exact, they should blame others not me for the long delay. But me, as just a temporary staff, am lazy to go and argue with them or complain to those creating the input to work faster. Its only another 4 more weeks. I just thicken my skin and bash on... 4 more weeks later, none of this will ever concern me forever. Well, I shouldn't say forever, many things can happen and it could make a big round back to haunt me. So yar, in the meanwhile, I'll just use another source of input for my work. A more unreliable one, but heck care, if they want it fast, they will have to comprimise on the quality :)

Alright, can't blog much today, got things to do. Anyway its about time to go home. No tuition for tonight, so can take a good rest :) See ya~

2008-05-31T22:28:00.002+08:00

I just uploaded some photos from my phone :) So I decided to picked some out and share it here :D

Durian! Haha... very cute right! It taste just as nice too!

Sunset out of my window

Too bored at work... haha...

Gloomy bear! The hand gripping the doll can actually move. Haha... got a slight shock when I first discovered the function when in the shop. I was expecting it to make a sound, the hand moved instead.

This the the crystal I've been growing for about 2 months :D Nice right? It is made from epsom salt. ie. Magnesium sulpate. You can get the salt from the pharmacy. I've long been fascinated by crystals. During secondary school I took part in the crystal growing competition. At that time I lost very badly, the largest crystal that I grew was smaller than a M&M. So now I finally get the technique right :D

So enjoy the pictures~ :D Bye~

2008-05-25T22:06:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. its another sunday night. My legs are aching from all the walking this afternoon. Went out to meet a old classmate. Well, seems like she is doing very well. Starting a business and running it. I am very glad that many of my classmates have big ambitions and are working in successful steps towards it.

Although I have been complaining about work, saying how much I dread going to work, I still extended my contract. :S I guess, the lure of money and the dread of boredom has a greater hold of my mind then my laziness. So, thats means another 6 more weeks of waking up at 6.30am, thinking that I should never had extended the contract. Another 6 weeks of taking the long ride to office. Another six more weekly reports. Another 24 nights of giving tuition with a half dead mind. 6 more weeks. I hope I can survive.

Anyway. I just watched the charity show for the earthquake. Looking at all the footage and the stories, I really felt very sad for them. I was especially touched about this story. Its about the mother shielding her baby from the rubble during the earthquake. The mother died, but the baby survived because the mother's body had cushioned the impact. What really made me felt the sadness was that she typed a message on her handphone and left it with the baby. The message says that, If the baby survives, she wants him/her to know that she loves him/her. I was almost brought to tears when the last line of the message was shown on the screen. I could imagine the scene where during the earthquake. Everything is shaking violently, the mother is down there, over the baby trying to protect it. She knows that she might not survive the event. All she could do was to hope for the survival of the baby. And in that kind circumstances, she still took out her phone to type a very last message. There is no way a baby could read the message, so that action would quite possibly be meaningless. But she still did it, and I guess she probably felt that that is the only thing that she could leave behind for her child, a life and a declaration of love. When the child grow up, s/he would still feel the love of the mother even though she is not longer living.

So I sincerely hope all the best to the victims of the earthquake.

Alright, its almost 11 already. Got to catch some sleep. Its another long day tomorrow. Argh... why did I prolong my suffering?!

2008-05-20T22:26:00.002+08:00

Yay... Its May 20th :D Haha... My Birthday :D Yay~

Had a early celebration and cake cutting on saturday with my relatives, so there arn't any celebration today. In fact, it was a normal working day for me with the day ending late with tuition. But I would like to thank all who wished me a happy birthday :) Thanks!

Well... I'm getting old... 21 yrs old already!!! Looking back, I've come a long way since my very first day 21 years ago when I first came to this world. Many things has happened. But still there are many more yet to happen.

HAha... kinda stuck here... Don't know how to continue writing. Oh well... thats all lar. Life goes on. :D Perhaps will blog more another time. Another working day tomorrow, so have to get some rest :) See ya~

2008-05-19T21:15:00.003+08:00

Its monday night :) Short week ahead. Hope that this week will pass peacefully without any major mistakes. After which will bring me to the second last week of work already. Am very much looking forward to the end of my contract. I can't continue working there anymore although its a very pleasant environment to work in. The people are nice, boss is nice, the pantry is nice. Work desk is spacious. Aircon is cool. Everything is nice, except for my job scope. I have almost zero aptitude for accounting. I am careless, and most probably care - less as well.. In other words either I make mistake unknowingly, or I couldn't be bothered to make things perfect. I am imperfect. My work is imperfect as well. But there is beauty in imperfection, although that beauty is not appreciated in accounting. So I have been working under tremendous amount of stress in trying to make sure that things turns out alright. It was alright in the beginning as when you are new, you are more easily forgiven. I've been there for 3 months already, the tolerance for mistakes has almost gone down to zero. But it is just me to make mistakes. So in order not to tarnish the good impression they have of myself. I would leave before the expectation soar beyond what I could fulfill. :P

Oh, I celebrated my birthday with my relatives on saturday. Had a BBQ at my home. Would want to thank my parents for organising it. A lot of effort was put in by them to prepare the whole BBQ. :D

Thats about all for tonight. Start of another working week tomorrow. To all those who are also working. The weekend is one day nearer :D Just bear with it! See ya~

2008-05-11T21:55:00.002+08:00

Hello... Sunday nite again... Feeling very bloated... Every weekend at home my stomach will be stuff fully with food. Either from my grandma who never feels that I ate enough or from the excessive ordering of food when eating out with my family. But heng ar... today I weight myself... never increase.. haha... although I feel that my waistline had already increased by quite alot. The pants that I bought a year ago when I am still in the army can no longer fit... they are too tight... :S Had to go shopping soon....

Talking about shopping... Had wanted to go shopping for a long time already... But everytime when the weekends come... I just feel lazy to go out. After all the work during the weekday.. I just want to stay at home... do nothing... and then pass the day....

Oh... by the way... I'm thinking of blogging in better english... Haha... cos I realised that my english deteriorated by alot. My grammer is in a total mess... So yar... From the next paragraph onwards... I shall use lesser of 'So yar' '....' and 'haha'.... OKie~ So lets start.

I guess it would be easier for the reader to read too if I write in proper english. Alright, my english is still broken, but at least I tried. :)

Start of another week tomorrow. I've been kind of counting down to the end of my contract. I don't know if it is the job that I'm tired of or the working life. Work wise, I have to admit that it is quite tough because the work requires me to go face to face with my shortcomings. I have a hard time controlling myself to not make any mistakes. It is very tiring and stressful to live under this kind of pressure. I am very lucky to have a boss that is understanding. If not for him I would have been fired long ago.

The coming week would be the first week of my extended contract. 3 more weeks to go after that. I am still considering whether to accept another extension if offered. I really want to stop working, but I can't bear to part with the money. I have many things that I want to buy so its hard to decide whether to give it up or not.

Well, perhaps its still early for me to worry. I might not even be offered another extension. Haha.

Lets talk about other things. Recent excitement about the EPL final few matches had got me interested :D So I decided to join in the fun and place some bets :P I don't watch soccer, its boring, so the only way for me to get some trill from the game would be through soccer betting. But I don't bet much too, just enough to make me interested and join in the excitement :) I placed some bets on some unpopular results. I have this feeling that these kind of big matches, the results always surprises people. So I chose not to follow the crowd and bet on the popular choices. Although the chance of winning may be lower, but its only a small amount. I just take it as paying for some entertainment :) Hope to see some good results tomorrow :D

Okay. Think thats all for today. Have a nice week ahead :D

2008-05-04T22:00:00.003+08:00

ANother Sunday nite :) Haha...

Last week was great... having a may day holiday really shorten the week. Haha... But that also means I got lesser time to clear my work. Running a little behind time now. Tmr will be a busy day trying to clear the stuffs. I've also got my contract extended :D Haha... so will be able to continue working for another month. That will bring me to the first week of june le... time passes very fast. If things goes well... I might be offered another extension after june... but I am still considering whether to take it or not cos it will be in July when the contract ends... very close to the start of school le. So yar... might want to relax and do some things that I always wanted to do.

K lar... nothing much to blog about... feeling abit tired... but somehow can't get to sleep... Gonna have a hard time sleeping later cos I took a afternoon nap. It always keeps me awake pass midnight... haha... But okay lar.. coming week I got 2 lesser tuition lessons :) Having a break when the kid finished his exams. :D So should be quite a relaxing week :D

2008-04-27T21:02:00.002+08:00

Haven't been feeling well for the past week. Something wrong with my stomach... It feels bloated and I get on and off pain around the upper abdominal area. Hope it gets better by the end of the week otherwise really have to pay the doctor a visit liao.

Duno is it because of the discomfort... I feel very tired. Especially on friday. By friday afternoon.. I was really not in the mood to do anymore work. My mind feels like of pressured and I needed rest. Hope I can recover my energy after this weekend. We shall see about the tomorrow :)

Went out on saturday with the old mec gang to watch the forbidden kingdom. Finally can join their ORD gang le. Haha.. cos last time everytime we meet I'm the only one still stuck in the army. The largest gap between me and the earliest of them to ord is more than 1 year. HAha... Still remember the last time when we meet, we were playing lan games and I had to leave early cos I needed to book in that night.

Well... my review about the forbidden kingdom. The storyline is kind of crappy. I think its because although it look quite serious in the trailer, it actually quite a comedy. Haha... Its some sort of western fantasy idea of chinese kung fu. But I find the fighting scenes really nice. And there is no lack of it throughout the movie. So yar... the storyline aside. Its quite a fun movie to watch... for the comical parts and the fighting scenes.

Tomorrow have to start another week of work. Haha... and Pay day!!!!! Woho~ Well the rest of the company already received their pay check. But cos I'm a temp worker... my pay day is at the end of the month. After weeks of hard work I finally see my reward liao... haha... And I think my boss is going to extend my contract further :) But that is still not confirmed lar. Haha... have to wait till the day of my contract renewal before I can confirm that he will renew my contract.

But I have reasons to be optimistic about it lar. Cos the other day another colleague was asking him about my employment. Then he replied that he wanted me to work perm for him. But too bad I need to further my studies. HAha... so with that I was hoping that he will keep hiring me until my school starts :D

Duno why although work is not hard... but I always dread going back to work. Maybe because it will take away my personal time ba. K lar... thats all for today... bye~

2008-04-20T21:26:00.003+08:00

Hello... Been some time since I last blogged. Well... life has more or less stabilized for the past weeks. Although at one point it almost took another change. Haha...

Well... I was first told they would extend my contract for another one month only then I had to leave liao. But recently.. they said they might extend it for another few months. :D Haha... So happy. Cos if they do not extend it anymore... it means that I have to job hunt again. Other than the inconvenience. I might not be able to find another job as nice as this. I really don't mind to continue working there.

I have adapted to working at the place already. It was tough for the first few weeks as there were a lot of things that I do not know. Then I had to spend a lot of effort to go through all the work. But now... I am very comfortable with my job scope. I began to understand the work flow and I no longer had any problems handling it. I even can do the work in a short time and get to slack around when I'm done with it. Colleagues are also nice people... and best of all... my boss is nice. Haha... He could happily make me his god son... haha... So I pray hard that I can continue working there till school starts.

Recently I also start to have more worries about my business.... Its kind of picking up its pace liao. The goods are coming in... and there are alot of things to handle. Its no longer like last time where I could take my time to do things. Things are gaining momentum and I hope this momentum will continue... but... by that... it would also mean that I got more work to do. Haha... Now I'm waiting for the goods to arrive safely in my hand before I take a break and consider the next step to take. Wish me luck :)

My tuition kid is also another headache... Haha... Really duno wad to do with him. Its not that he is stupid leh... he is actually very clever. But that when he does questions. he is very impulsive. He dosen't take time to understand the question before answering it. So he will just anyhow pluck the numbers and randomly use them. Haiz... coming lessons I'm not going to joke with him anymore. He better get good grades for this coming exams....

I can't wait to start school. Can't wait to go back to the time where I only need to worry about exams. To the time where I have my free time to do whatever I want. My working life now isn't hard. But there arn't many personal time left for me. Everyday I wake up... I go to my office... and get stuck there for the rest of the day. Then after work.. I eat my dinner and have a few minutes of personal time to walk around lot 1... after which I need to go give tuition... and by the time everything ends and I reach home. I'm already tired and need to sleep le..... So yar... I wan to start school soon....

K lar... thats about all for now... bye bye~

2008-03-30T22:17:00.003+08:00

First of all... to start of this entry... I shall share with you guys a picture :D Haha.. long time since I shared pictures with you guys le.

Muahaha... Was walking around IKEA after dinner with my family just now and saw this cage full of orange crab soft toy! Haha... They look kind of cute all packed into one cage. Then... I had a wonderful inspiration.. haha... and I decided to position a few of them into something interesting. And tada~ I got this... LOL...

I didn't seperate them after I took the picture... Haha... wonder if anyone will notice these little crabs in such scandalous position... Haha...

Oh well... Tmr have to go work again... Sibeh sian... Same feeling as in army... haha... now abit worried leh... next time if I really go out and work... will it be the same as what I am doing now or nt... Duno is it just this company or wad... I think I am not very suited for office work leh... I can't stand the office environment. Like u stay in ur cubicle and work and work... Duno leh... its quite a different experience from the previous sales job I have. Haiz... will see how as time goes by ba...

Tmr start of another busy week. Actually time passes very fast when you are so busy everyday. Like for last week... it was really fast. Duno lar... dun wan to dwell too much on such topics... since will still have to report for work tmr... why do face if with a open mind and hope that things will turn out better :)

See ya~ and hope you enjoyed the picture :D Haha...

2008-03-23T17:06:00.002+08:00

Its a sunday afternoon.... warm... quiet... and boring.. Haha..
Bought some stuffs yesterday. Went to rent a HK drama series to watch. Wanted to rip it into my phone and watch on the way to and fro from work. But it seems like not worth the effort. Haha... cos for a 1 hour show.. I need to use almost a equal amount of time to transfer it into my phone. So yar... in order to prepare like 1 episode to watch a day for the week. I need to spend 5 hours at home converting the files.

Anyway... today is the end of the long weekend liao. Kind of sad... tmr have to go start work again liao... No more holidays until may... So sad... But actually okay lar... keeping myself occupied isn't too bad a thing. Starting to adapt to work liao. Just hope that they wun take away my internet connection anytime soon. Cos there is a shortage of cubicles in the office. So maybe in a few weeks time, when new people come in. I might not have a cubicle to myself. I duno how they are going to arrange a place for me. But I just hope that there will be a connection wherever I might be sitted. Haha...without msn I dun think I can survive long. :S

Duno why.. sunday afternoon always seems to be alot warmer then other days. I can just feel the heat radiating from outside my window. The fan dosen't seem to do any good as its just the warm air being circulated round and round the room. My fridge also dun have anything nice and cooling.. haha... Hmm... wait... maybe I go see if I can find anything again.. haha...

K lar... blog another time :) Bye~

2008-03-21T15:26:00.002+08:00

Hmm... after 2 weeks of work... things are starting to settle down liao. :)

I found out that if I can knock off on time, then everything will be fine. I'll have time to enjoy my dinner slowly... take a leisure walk around lot 1 before going for my tuition. I was having a hard time during the first week cos my work was behind time so I had to stay back a little bit later to finish it up. So last week things were better as my work starts to clear faster. Also cos I've started to understand the flow of work better so it makes my work easier.

But although my time is not as packed as last week. But I still feel the tiredness. Not physically but mentally. Sitting down there with a bunch of numbers really drains your brain juice. Your mind get so dried up after work that you just want to let it rest and sleep. But then I still have to rush for tuition. So by the end of tuition... my brain is almost totally drained and dead. Then I sleep and the next day the whole draining process continues again.

Well... although I've been complaining about how busy I am, how little time I have for myself. But when I finally got time for myself, I duno what to do. Like today... Haha... my life is really boring. So yar... its not a bad thing to work actually. I just sit there, work a little... at least it keeps me occupied.

The thing that save me from totally giving up on my work is MSN... lol.. Thanks to MSN I can chat with friends while working. Haha... Almost everyday I talk to dong and ler. Dong is working all the way in HK and I still get to chat with him at work everyday. Its nice to do so. Just like for the past 2 years we have been chatting in the sungei gedong medical center. This is how amazing technology is, no matter where you are, with a internet connection. Its feels as if the other person is just next door. Ler is also another one. Haha... doing relief teaching. So yar.. if you take away MSN.. I think I wun be able to survive at work.

Now back on the topic of work.. Hehe... although I tried my best to be careful. But duno why I just won't get things out accurately. I think its just me lar.. I'm not a person into details. I shouldn't be working as in the accounts department in the first place. Haha... But I think I shall just hang on to this job ba. For the past 2 weeks... okay lar... to be honest... I've tried to do the best I could lar... but there are still some numbers that I sweep under the carpet... LOL... I think these things will come out and haunt me again soon. Haha... Hopefully I wun stay long enough for it to come back to me. Also hopefully that wun give me too much work cos I'll end up screwing up their accounts.. lol... But really... sometimes you just get so frustrated that you just want to give up.

OH well... at first I was really feeling guilty about my incompetency. But then recently I got an enlightenment. I should worry so much, cos I'm only doing a temp job. Others are being paid almost thrice my pay... so just let them worry about it. Haha... I just come to work on time. Process anything that comes by and then leave work on time. I think thats my purpose as a temp worker there. To just help them process all the sai kang i.e. manual work. I shouldn't think too much :) haha... Just as long as I have a computer, a internet connection, and MSN... plus I can work at a comfortable pace with enough time to chat online. Then I guess I will have no reason of leaving this job before they want me to leave. Haha.. Not as in they fire me lar... like when they do not need a temp worker to help them process work anymore.

K lar... all in all... still quite okay with my life now. Though its tiring. But it keeps me occupied :) Hope that things will keep changing for the better in days to come :)

2008-03-16T21:55:00.002+08:00

Haiz... ORD liao still got the sunday night book in feeling... haha... Quite sad hor...

Well.. although I am out of camp... I still feel the loss of freedom and personal time. Cos I still don't have much personal time for myself. Everyday I wake up I go to work... after work have to rush to give tuition. After that go home already almost 10 liao... take a shower and then sleep le... The next moment I wake up... the whole cycle continue again... So during weekdays I still don't have time for myself. Its only in the weekend where I have time to stone around at home and not do anything. Haiz... just have to endure for 2 months... then see how lo... see if can get a easier job...

Oh well... nothing much lar... bye~

2008-03-11T22:05:00.003+08:00

Wah... sibeh sian....

Everyday I get drowned by a tsunami of numbers... LOL... accounting is really not my cup of tea. Haha... really... I realised why my superior is an account... lol... he really like accounting very much...

Today we were sorting out some accounts... then we met with a problem... For me... it was so fustrating cos we need to recheck everything again to make sure that it balanced... I almost wanna just take the laptop and slam it into the wall... But then he... instead of being fustrated.... he was actually excited about it... LOL.... he tells me that he sees it as a mystery and feels motivated to solve it....

I was like -__________- """"

Really... I was suffocating in the sea of numbers... but there he is happily swimming around.

So yar... that makes me realise that I am not build to be an accountant... I never thought accounting would be that tough until I started on this job... :S Wish me good luck man.... still got at least a month before I can get out of this sea of suffering... haha... See ya~

2008-03-10T21:57:00.001+08:00

Work is very xiong!!!!! Haha... enjoy while you can in army man.... although its sucky... but its one place you can slack :P

2008-03-07T21:46:00.002+08:00

Wee~ ORD LOH~ The day I've been waiting for 2 years is finally here! Haha...

Well... for the past 2 years I've been praying hard for this day to come soon. But then now come to think of it... I will kind of miss army life... Haha... Well.. not to suan those who are still serving... but... really....

The buildings that I live in... the people I see... they are all gone... just like that. When I say bye to the people today... I have no idea when will I be able to see them again. I might not be able to see some people for the rest of my life.

So yar... although its a sucky place... I think you will still get that kind of feeling when you leave a place and change to a new environment.

Oh well... Would like to thank some people who have helped my throughout my army life. I dun think anyone will see it... but then... just want to record this in my blog :)

From BMT... My bunk mates~ Haha... went through lots of shit with them during bmt...

Then medic course.... It was heaven down there... haha... Miss my bunkmates as well... lots of fun partying at night... My spec there also... very nice people....

Finally... In A E TC! Haha... Well... I spend 3/4 of my army life there.... went through alot of things as well... I especially will miss my group of medics! Haha... well... I think its very nice of us to be able to stay so cohesive. Not like some places where there are a lot of internal politics.

Oh well... I have finish the army phase of my life already.... time to move on to greater things... The past 2 years will always be a part of my memory... :)

2008-02-28T19:41:00.002+08:00

Feeling damn pissed off now... Can't even ORD in peace... KNN... CCB.... Really...

All because of one person's decision it makes life difficult for so many others... Words can't describe how much I hate him... Its like even torturing him with the world's most deadly torturing technique won't appease my hatred for him.

I think its only in such a organisation like the army that such people can exist and survive. Nobody under him likes him... but he is still able to promote cos the top like him. And the bottom have no means to complain to the top that he sux. Actually this situation may still happen in the other workplace. Whats different is this.

Outside the army... if you are not happy... you can quit... so even if the top likes him... with no one at the bottom to support him.. he won't be able to continue to succeed. But in the army... we can't quit.... we can only suck thumb and follow... so these people dun care... once they get on top of you. They can step on you and make your life suffer, and you have no means to retaliate.

Anyway... there isn't much impact lar... its already the last week for me... that few days is nothing to me.... what is supposed to come will come... Maybe the reason that I feel so angry was because I got quite a shock when the news was broken to me. I had always thought that I will be able to go... so when I was told about it... I just couldn't accept it...

K lar... I had my fair 2 years share of such shit... Its over and done with already... no need to face such person anymore. Coming friday... Total Freedom....

2008-02-27T17:06:00.003+08:00

Muahaha... has been quite some time since I last blogged. Having quite a good time out of camp. Haha... Clearing my leave and off...

Well.. next week ORD LOH!!!!!!! haha... I supposed you can tell from the background of my blog how happy I am to be so close to getting out of the army. HAaha.... I thought its about time for my to change the arm looking background to a more livelier one since I am also moving away from army life liao...

As I leave my army life behind... I enter the civilian life... and the problem of deriving income. For the past 2 years I have been happily slacking and getting allowance from SAF... now that the well is almost dry.... I have to dig another one soon.

I have been digging for the past weeks but all effort are futile... Haha... can't get a good paying job. Still got 1 week to go before I ord... have to find a job quick... If really worst come to worst... no choice but to take even the lowest paying job.

Well.. even if I can't get a job.. I wun starve to death as yet... cos I found a little stream that can supply me with crystal clear water. Although little... its good enough to sustain life. Haha... I'm teaching tuition now... A primary 4 kid... Haha... he's a smart kid lar... the problem is he dun take his time to think.... He just see the question and quickly want to solve it so he jump into conclusion very quickly. So yar... I have a hard time trying to make him slow down and pay more attention to the question and not just anyhow answer...

He just finished his exams today... Hope he will make some improvement... I dun wan my stream so dry up so fast ar... haha...

Other than that... litbud.com is also making good progress :D Some of you might have already seen the sample product that I have for it already... Haha... well... I won't upload any pictures yet. I will try to get everything settled then I will put it up on the website. Everything will take another 1 month or so ba... So yar... watch out for it :D

Tonight going back camp... doing clearance tomorrow... haha... if I can finished everything by tomorrow... then next week I dun have to go back anymore other than getting back my pink IC... haha....

So yar.... Will blog more about my ORD feeling after I have ORDed ba... haha...

See YA~

2008-02-11T12:06:00.001+08:00

Haiz... sibeh sian.... Haha.... I think every time I bother to blog its because I want to let out all my complains and fustration... HAha... I think negative events are more of a motivation for me to blog than positive events.... Whenever something bad happens... I'll take the effort to pour all the frustration out in my blog.... But when good things happen... I'll just be happy and lazy to blog... haha... so maybe when u read my blog its all about the lousy stuffs in my life...

Like now... I'm gonna complain and lament again~ lol... sian leh... got called back for IPPT.... Argh... can't take my off in peace... Guess its gonna continue until the day I finally ORD.... 1 more month to go!!! Argh... Its gonna be a very long month it this keeps happening.... There is soc this thursday... I hope I wun be called back... if they really do so... I have to be prepared to the worst liao.... I only agree to come back this once ar... anymore than that I will do stunt liao....

Haiz... although I know that its their job to screw us... and our job to evade... but then... I just can't help to feel that they are all fuck up... although everyone is just doing their job...

Really cannot take army life anymore.... Haiz... just have to wait for this very long month to pass....

Sian... spoil my mood for the whole day....

CCB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

Its time to lament on the pains of booking in again... haiz... after 1 week of being attached out and enjoying life.... its hard to tune myself back to camp... Well... in another 2 weeks time... everything will end... I will be able to start clearing my off and leave all the way till the week of my ORD day...

2 weeks... not a very long time.... by the next time I book out... there will only be one last week left.... But then.... I just can't help but to wish for it to come sooner.... Although it just 2 short little weeks... there are many things happening.... I still have to wake up for 5BX... go for run everyday... and Rt at night.... ARgh... why can't they just let me off...

K lar... enough of the complains... Just hope that this week will pass fast...

Haiz... no mood to blog about other stuffs liao... haha... think those reading my blog... ( if there is any :S haha ) are already bored to death... after reading entries after entries about me complaining... haha... Hmm... hope after ORD life will be better and I'll write more interesting stuffs :) Bye~

2008-01-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

Haiz... may not have time to blog later on... so shall take this little opportunity to lament on some stuffs... haha... after arranging, planning and carefully plotting my leave and off... I can finally escape almost the whole of February... so that means that I just need to survive past January... Hmm... and in January I just have 2 most troublesome week that I have to past... that is this coming week and 2 weeks later... These are 2 full weeks that I need to report back to camp... After which... will bring me to the end of January already. So haha... when I think of it this way... its kind of more comforting... The time left seems shorter...

But then... January won't past as fast as I wish it would... Its quite an eventful month where I have quite a few covers and ampt... Well.. ampt is slack... just that I need to spend some effort revising all my work again.

Hmm... today is already the 6th of Jan already.... One week less of Jan... Its a mental torture to have something already so close.. but u can't just reach it yet.

Well... just have to push forward ba....

bye~

2008-01-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DUN WANT TO BOOK IN!!!!!!!!!
I WAN TO AWOL LIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol... SIBEH SIAN AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haiz.... the emotional stress is really killing me.... I am extremely reluctant to book in...

HAIZ...........