I was watching the recent episodes of 清宫风云 thats showing on channel U now. When the show just started I thought its just another boring china history show that moves at a very slow pace. But the few episodes that I watch recently really got me hooked. I find the empress dowager very zai! Lol.... steady sia.... My idol! haha...

The show is at its climax now and I'm really impressed by how the empress dowager tries to protect the Qing dynasty. Her tactics and courage is truly respectable. She really has the poise and aura of a leader, unlike the emperor that always put on a cry baby face... lol...

I've always dream of being able to be in the top leadership position and would be able to fight a war of that massive scale. I've always wanted to have that sort of calm mind in the face of danger and make great decisions. She has the characteristics of a person that I want to be. I want to hold great power, but yet have to ability to control it.

Haha... so yar.... she's my idol!!! Hmm... so I must work towards that direction. :D

Just came back from outfield on friday.... 3 days 2 nights.... although it seems short to some... but I find it already tough. Perhaps I've not had any field camps for a long time already. My tolerance level has dropped. Life is going to get harder. The outfield is the start.... there will be more to come. I hope to just last another 5 mths before I can finally embrace civilian life.

Guess my army life is quite a different experience from others. Get to experience a lot of things that others don't. Dun think anyone will understand expect for ourselves. Everyone thinks that we are slack and have a good life but they dun understand what trouble it brings to be able to hold such freedom. Sometimes its a bliss to follow commands blindly.

K lar... thats all for now. Things are all set in motion for the coming months. Although I'm feeling abit confused by all the things that is happening now. But as things are already all preplanned, I'll just let the momentum carry on itself without the need for me to be over concerned. Bye~

Hmm... feeling rather troubled lately.... Something keeps luring me away from my usual thoughts.... something is slowly building up my desire for something bad... I want to stop thinking about it... but then it keeps coming... Argh.... Must not give in to such bad desires... otherwise something bad might happen. So yar.... had a hard time trying to resist it.....

Think I've some problem controlling my desires.... Like somethings I think that its okay to think about it for a while... but these little thoughts once in awhile starts building up to something huge that I won't be able to handle and yield to it in the end. Its bad... I must try to stop myself from having such little thoughts in the first place.

K lar... things are starting to accelerate now... Next week is outfield already... then it starts the ball rolling... Nothing much le.... been too troubled by the lure... bye~

Another sunday night again... sian... my nose just got irritated for no reason and its irritating me :|

Received one of those scam phone calls that says u are a VIP invited for some free event overseas with free air tickets and hotel stay. Haha... I've heard on the news about such stuffs, but didn't expect myself to receive such a call.

The caller seems to be a china lady as she speaks with a chine accent. Then she asked me whether I understand mandarin. Then I say yar... then she continued to explain about all the stuffs. Its quite obvious that its a scam lar... so I didn't bother to waste time with her and just told her that I'm not interested and hung up.

Duno why... after so many reports of the scam the group is still functioning... So yar... to people out there... must really be careful. If it sounds too good to be true, it probably is. Don't get conned.

Wonder if I need to report it to the police or not. Maybe they need it as a record of how many people was targeted. But then I didn't finish the conversation and she haven't start the ask for money yet before I hung up. So yar.... think no need lar.

K lar... thats about all... Long week ahead... haiz.... bye~

hmm... has been some time since I last wrote an entry... Life's so so lately... has it's up and it's fair share of down... so yar... when u average it out... kind of balanced out lar.

Time passed quite easily for the month of august. Now we're into the month of sept ;D Another step closer to finishing my 2 years of ns life. Gonna have a batch of people ORDing in the coming week. Soon... it'll be my turn... haha...

Well... Just have to get by this month... things will accelerate again in october where I'll be going to taiwan for around 3 weeks... and then I'll be back for a week before I fly off to hong kong again for another week. So By the time everything is over... its already mid Nov already :D Yay... haha... December will pass quite easily and then its the start of the new year!

K lar.. nothing much to write about... mind is quite empty lately... didn't want to think too much. My designing work also slowed down. So yar.... nothing much lar... bye~

Wee~ my DIY dinner! haha... :P No one was at home so I decided to try cooking my own dinner :) Won't have a chance to do so when there are people around cos I'll get chased out of the kitchen... haha...

Well... I like cooking... :D Its fun... but dun really get a chance to do it. Actually... its not the cooking part that I like its how I try to make my food look nice that is the point :P Hehe... food art! So yar... if anyone wan to open a restaurant or any food outlet right... I willing to go into partnership... haha... I can design from the interior of the shop to the cutlery to even the food :D haha...

so here's it :D Made from whatever ingredient I can get from my fridge :P Enjoy!
















Looks professional right :P haha....