My mind is damn saturated now. I spent the whole day memorising my bp notes and now i cannot do anymore work. I tried to do ms but it was just too much thinking for my brain to work properly now. The thing that i hate about exams is that it forces you to memorise things. I suck at memory work so very often have to struggle for exams. I do have ways to force information in to my mind, but i don't like to use it. Its a very terrible and long process. It's not like last time when during O or A lvls where u just need to go all out for it. This time round it's just an exam and i see no point in putting myself through the pain. It leads me to wonder again whether i have made the wrong choice of studying in a business school. It is still a long road ahead for me and there are still many more exams that requires memory work. How am i going to cope for the next few years?

Anyway. I came across another inspiring person online again. This person is also very much similar to myself. He is interesting because he loves film making but then somehow he enrolled into a business school too. Yes, its smu! He is the pioneering batch of smu student. It is very inspiring to read that although in a business school, he has never given up on his passion. He continued making films for many of his projects. After a while he created a good portfolio and had even set up his own film making company.

This made me realisr that many things are possible and it depends on whether you want to do it or not. Although not going to a film making school means you lose out on alot of techinical knowledge but if you really have the passion for the things that you do. It does not matter, you will still find your means of getting hold of this knowledge. In fact, if he had just gone to a film makig school, he might have missed out a lot of things that a business school has to offer. Like for myself, although i am not in a design school. But i continue to observe and read up on the latest happenings in the world of design. But if i went to a design school, i might never get the chance to learn about business as wihout the interest i wouldn't be reading up on it on my own.  

Haiz. Really regretted slacking this semester. Am suffering the consequences now. Don't know why i became so slack. I almost always not pay attention to lesson and not revising my work till the last minute. Its a good wake up call for me and i hope to put in more effort next sem. 

Damn sian. Duno whether i should be studying now. Not in the mood to study. But dun study also nothing to do. 2 more days before the exams. Not very little time but also not long either. Still got a lot left for Ma. Although eventually i got the answer. But the time taken is way too long. I take a whole day to finish one 3 hr paper. I wonder if i can cope during the exams. Quite worried, but nothing much i can do now. Its too late already. Can only try to practice a few more questions and hope for the best.

Damn sian... Feel like going out for awhile. 

I'm blogging again. Haha. Well after reading a little bit more about the person whom has inspired me. Well found out that he's not as great as i think he his. His achievement is built on something less glamorous. But i still admire his courage though. Its not easy to tread down this path and not many people dares to do it, especially singaporeans. Therefore if you are daring enough, you are most likely to succeed. 

Haha. You may be wondering what and who am i talking about. Well. I raher not name and mention cos it might lead to other complications. 

Would just like to pen down the thought that although it is still inspiring but its not as good as i thought it would be. 

I guess i'm a kind of person who need constant inspiration to push myself forward. So i'm still very glad that i chance across this blog of his. I would not have been thinking abou what i am thinking and planning to do somethin about it without this trigger.

Hmm. Somehow typing on my ipod touch is surprisingly draining on the battery. I thought using wifi was the worst. I guess typing would rank as second.

Anyways i'm also glad that i've return to blogging lately. Its kind of nice to keep track of your thoughts. It brings back memories when you refer to it in future.    

Hmm. Sux that my phone doesn't have a proper function for me to type long messages. I'm typing on the email function now then i'll need to retrieve it from the email outbox later on. 

Omg, my phone really sux when it comes to this. I just accidently deleted a whole lot of words that i typed. Now i have to retype it again. And guess what, i can't sync the email inbox with the com. So i'm now retying it again on my ipod touch. I think the ipod touch is still the best :)

Anyway, i was typing about what i've been thinking since the last entry. I think it is these quiet an tired moments during the study break that i get emo enough to bother to think about my life and how has it been. As mentioned in the previous entry. I've been thinking whether i'm really pursuing the things i love. 

I know this may sound abit bhb. But i have this feeling that i'm destined for something great. I just need to find the key to unlock this. I've been searching in the past few years but am still lost. Hope to find it soon.  

It has been a long long time since i last updated my blog. Guess i'm feeling so sian now that i even bother to update. Haha.

I just read a blog of person whom i kind of envy. He is about my age but yet he already has achieved so much. He loves what he is doing and excels in it. He has a vision, a drive, to pursue what he wants. This results in a confident young man full of life.

This is not a story of some character who is living under vastly different circumstances. He is just like me, a singaporean, studying in a local university, not very well to do. So how did he find so much energy and life? I guess abit part of it comes from doing what he likes to do.

So i start to reflect on what i am doing now. Am i doing what i like now? Its really very hard for me to answer.

This week is the study week. If i'm doing what i love, would i be dragging myself through all the revision? Would i need to force myself through all these? If i really liked what i'm doing now, then no matter how difficult it is, i'll still be happy right? So all these signs are showing that i might have made the wrong choice.

During my primary school and secondary school days, i cannot blame myself if i were to dislike what i'm doing. I didn't hav a choice then. But now i get to choose to take the course that i like, then why am i still struggling and not happy? Have i really made the correct choice?

I have no answer to this question now. But i am starting to realise the true meaning of university education. It seems kind of late though since i'm already ending my first sem of the 2nd year. But its still better late than never :)

University life is about gaining experience. Its less about the knowledge that you gain through lessons but more about the knowledge gain through experience. At this period of time we are at the prime of our life. We should be doing things and enjoying it. It is less about getting good gpa. Notice i said less cos we still need a reasonable grade for graduation. But really its the experience that counts. And i think its really true. I just need to look back for the past year. The things that i remember the most is not the contents of the books. But rather all the activities that i have taken part in.

So i plan to be continue being active and join many different stuffs :)

I guess this is also part of bringing my personal growth to a higher level. It was already a giant leap for me now compared to who i was a few years ago. Things are starting to change for the better and i have experience many firsts since the change. I am much happier now compared to the past. I guess this indicates that i like to be like this. So i will try to take this a notch higher.

This time round i'll focus on the things i like to do. Still on the topic of the things i like to do, i'll like to share some thoughts about my major. Out of all the majors offered i guess i liked operations management the most. However that doesn't mean that i liked it completely. There are still certain parts of it that i hated. Like all the statistics part. But i guess this is already the closest that i get in choosing the major that i liked. So well no choice but to make do with it. Regarding the second major, well i actually do not know exactly what i want. But i think i have decided to do without it. I think i might want to heed my senior's advice and take a sem off to do a ocerseas internship instead. It is all part of the experience and because since i cannot decide on what i like for my second major.

Hmm. Its a very long entry since so many months. Guess no one is even reading my blog now. But it doesn't matter. Its just an avenue for me to pen down and organises my thoughts. Am very grateful for sone unknown website to point me to the blog of this inspiring young man. I hope that i can keep this inspiriation going while i go back to mug for my exams. Wish me luck. Will blog again when there is a need to :)