I'm blogging again. Haha. Well after reading a little bit more about the person whom has inspired me. Well found out that he's not as great as i think he his. His achievement is built on something less glamorous. But i still admire his courage though. Its not easy to tread down this path and not many people dares to do it, especially singaporeans. Therefore if you are daring enough, you are most likely to succeed. 

Haha. You may be wondering what and who am i talking about. Well. I raher not name and mention cos it might lead to other complications. 

Would just like to pen down the thought that although it is still inspiring but its not as good as i thought it would be. 

I guess i'm a kind of person who need constant inspiration to push myself forward. So i'm still very glad that i chance across this blog of his. I would not have been thinking abou what i am thinking and planning to do somethin about it without this trigger.

Hmm. Somehow typing on my ipod touch is surprisingly draining on the battery. I thought using wifi was the worst. I guess typing would rank as second.

Anyways i'm also glad that i've return to blogging lately. Its kind of nice to keep track of your thoughts. It brings back memories when you refer to it in future.    

Hmm. Sux that my phone doesn't have a proper function for me to type long messages. I'm typing on the email function now then i'll need to retrieve it from the email outbox later on. 

Omg, my phone really sux when it comes to this. I just accidently deleted a whole lot of words that i typed. Now i have to retype it again. And guess what, i can't sync the email inbox with the com. So i'm now retying it again on my ipod touch. I think the ipod touch is still the best :)

Anyway, i was typing about what i've been thinking since the last entry. I think it is these quiet an tired moments during the study break that i get emo enough to bother to think about my life and how has it been. As mentioned in the previous entry. I've been thinking whether i'm really pursuing the things i love. 

I know this may sound abit bhb. But i have this feeling that i'm destined for something great. I just need to find the key to unlock this. I've been searching in the past few years but am still lost. Hope to find it soon.  

It has been a long long time since i last updated my blog. Guess i'm feeling so sian now that i even bother to update. Haha.

I just read a blog of person whom i kind of envy. He is about my age but yet he already has achieved so much. He loves what he is doing and excels in it. He has a vision, a drive, to pursue what he wants. This results in a confident young man full of life.

This is not a story of some character who is living under vastly different circumstances. He is just like me, a singaporean, studying in a local university, not very well to do. So how did he find so much energy and life? I guess abit part of it comes from doing what he likes to do.

So i start to reflect on what i am doing now. Am i doing what i like now? Its really very hard for me to answer.

This week is the study week. If i'm doing what i love, would i be dragging myself through all the revision? Would i need to force myself through all these? If i really liked what i'm doing now, then no matter how difficult it is, i'll still be happy right? So all these signs are showing that i might have made the wrong choice.

During my primary school and secondary school days, i cannot blame myself if i were to dislike what i'm doing. I didn't hav a choice then. But now i get to choose to take the course that i like, then why am i still struggling and not happy? Have i really made the correct choice?

I have no answer to this question now. But i am starting to realise the true meaning of university education. It seems kind of late though since i'm already ending my first sem of the 2nd year. But its still better late than never :)

University life is about gaining experience. Its less about the knowledge that you gain through lessons but more about the knowledge gain through experience. At this period of time we are at the prime of our life. We should be doing things and enjoying it. It is less about getting good gpa. Notice i said less cos we still need a reasonable grade for graduation. But really its the experience that counts. And i think its really true. I just need to look back for the past year. The things that i remember the most is not the contents of the books. But rather all the activities that i have taken part in.

So i plan to be continue being active and join many different stuffs :)

I guess this is also part of bringing my personal growth to a higher level. It was already a giant leap for me now compared to who i was a few years ago. Things are starting to change for the better and i have experience many firsts since the change. I am much happier now compared to the past. I guess this indicates that i like to be like this. So i will try to take this a notch higher.

This time round i'll focus on the things i like to do. Still on the topic of the things i like to do, i'll like to share some thoughts about my major. Out of all the majors offered i guess i liked operations management the most. However that doesn't mean that i liked it completely. There are still certain parts of it that i hated. Like all the statistics part. But i guess this is already the closest that i get in choosing the major that i liked. So well no choice but to make do with it. Regarding the second major, well i actually do not know exactly what i want. But i think i have decided to do without it. I think i might want to heed my senior's advice and take a sem off to do a ocerseas internship instead. It is all part of the experience and because since i cannot decide on what i like for my second major.

Hmm. Its a very long entry since so many months. Guess no one is even reading my blog now. But it doesn't matter. Its just an avenue for me to pen down and organises my thoughts. Am very grateful for sone unknown website to point me to the blog of this inspiring young man. I hope that i can keep this inspiriation going while i go back to mug for my exams. Wish me luck. Will blog again when there is a need to :)

Crazy week. Slept in school for 2 nights in a row.

Came back from reservist yesterday. Well, it wasn't as bad as what i thought it would be. Infact, i kind of miss it already. It was a period of time where you do not need to think too much. Instructions were given and you just follow it. Once things get done then its all free time. You get to chat with frens whom you have not contacted for more than a year. You get to meet some new frens too. So it really is a good break from the usual life.

Remember in the last entry i said that i do not feel like i'm having my holidays? Well i didn't feel that way for the past week that i'm in camp. But now when i'm back the feeling just comes back with it too. So much school related stuffs, its almost like school again. Perhaps i've joined too many activities. But anyway, i'm stopping soon le. I've joined quite enough activities and its time for me to concentrate on my studies.

So yar, even though i hate to admit this, but somewhere within me i am looking forward to my next ict.

Haiz. Feeling very sian now. Can feel the dread of booking in. But then, this feeling aside, i'm quite optimistic that it will be fun. I guess it is a good break from all the work i've been doing. I kind of don't feel that i am having a holiday now as all the things i do is similar to what i usually do during normal school. Minus the exams and mugging part, its still going back to school, having meetings, doing projects. So perhaps a change of environment to a place where i have limited access to the outside world. Actually its the other way aornud. Its a place where the outside world has no access to me. So i can put aside all my work and enjoy a few days off. Its kind of like a overseas holiday. Just a little less freedom. Can take this chance to try and slim down. Haha. I'm really getting very fat. Its shocking how fast and how fat i can grow.

Anyway, hope it will be fun. Afterall we are nsmen now already, so i expect better treatment. But no matter wad, the best thing is to be able to meet some frens again and i guess with them around, nothing will be too unbearable :)

I haven't been applying the knowledge I gain into my business. I guess I should start to do so now. In the past, I used to think that it is all bullshit and I don't really need it to grow a business. Or even, thinking of keeping my business as a hobby without all these hassles. However, I'm starting to think that I'm wrong. I require these knowledge to help my grow or even just to sustain my business. Without it, business may fail, and my hobby will be gone too. From now on, I'm going to apply whatever I learn into my own business. What better way to learn than to experience it first hand.

My life is changing. Positive changes, those changes that i had always wanted. My hardwork over the past years have paid off. Those tough decisions i had made is beginning to reap benefits.i'm really happy. I'm beginning to experience the many things that i had missed out in the past. Little things that many pepole had, but i didn't. Now, its slowly starting to happen. Although it can never fully recover wad was lost. But i believe that it can be close enough. This is the best birthday i had in recent years.

I'm beginning to feel that all the work I've been doing are rather fluffy and does not value add much. Perhaps its because of the lack of income. Haha... cos when you work outside, you know you are getting paid and got something to look forward to. But when you take part in organising school activity, everything seems to 'wayang', like act only. There is no feeling of value adding :S

My body is aching all over from the ippt. :S an indication that it has been a long long time since I last exercised. My fitness level decreased by a whole lot. I had a shock when I saw my 2.4km timing. Out of all the 5 stations, I'm most proud that I always managed to pass my 2.4km. Not to say pass, I usually manage a sliver or something close to it. But this time round, my timing cannot even pass. Its the worst timing since a long long time ago. Its almost back to where I started. It didn't help that I started to train running 2 weeks ago when holidays started. The timing is really horrible. I realise how far my fitness level had dropped already. Hope to rescue abit before the school starts, otherwise it will continue to drop even further.

Hmm... Been quite busy since the start of the holiday. Wonder if i had sign up for too much things. Haha.

finally... about 1.5 hrs later. I finally got the cock off the wine bottle. Its a f***ing stubborn piece of cock that refuses to come out. In the end I just tore it into tiny pieces and push it into the bottle.

oh no. I just realised that when I updated this template, my tagboard is gone! and I can't add it back cos I don't have the script and I forgot my account password! :S

Now no one can leave a msg already... Haiz... but then, I wonder how many people still reads my blog. Haha...

OMG! They are currently airing a remake of Fullmetal Alchemist! :D Woho~ Its one of the best anime I've watched. Haha... but feels kind of weird though, cos they restarted from the beginning and then all the dead characters from the old one came to life again. Nevertheless I think it will still be a good anime. THose who haven't watch the old one can go try watching.

WOHO!!!!!! Exams over le!!!!!! 3 Months of FREEDOM!!!!!

Damn sian... no mood to study....

:( Feeling abit worried now. I think I didn't write enough for my BGS :S 10 mark short answer question. I don't know how the prof allocate the marks leh. If 1 mark for one point then I die liao. Got some questions I only make like 1 or 2 points :( Hmm... hope everything will turn out okay. I'm betting heavily on my MCQ to pull up the marks. I think my MCQ did quite okay... managed to find most of the things. Haiz... wads over is over liao lar....

My FA okay lar... quite bad... but I don't really feel that sad cos I already know that I won't be doing well for it. Haha.... for AS, I was hoping for a better result than my mid terms. At least this time round the options in the MCQ makes more sense to me such that I can make a better choice. The mid term one is really anyhow choose one lor. So yar... hopefully I can pull up the mid term grade.

Now its time to worry for my MPW and TWC. MPW got so so so so so many many many many things to memorise lar! And I'm the worst at memorising things. So very worried. Then for TWC, the prof is making everyting so confusing. The more he tries to help us, the more confusing it gets. First he did a review slide, and things get abit more complicated. After that he keeps redoing his slides and adding more comments on it, all the way through the study week. Its like, why you keep changing things at the last minute. I already prepared using the old slides, and now you complicate things by adding more stuffs into it. Then I have to read everything again. Waste my time. I know he is trying to help, but I think I rather not have it.

Woho~ First time after so long since I typed like a proper entry to my blog. Guess I'm really very fustrated. Haha.... heck care lar... 2 more papers to go. I don't expect much. Just don't get a C can liao... :D Bye~

AR!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn sian... stop practising FA already. Just memorising stuffs and looking through the notes. Need to relax and calm my mind now. I've did wad I could already... spending more than 4 days of my study break on it. 1 FA mod takes up like 80% of my study time... Now can only wish for the best for tmrs exams.

One more day and fa will be over!