Wednesday, August 31, 2005

I slipping into depression again.....

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

I'm back... once again before 11.... haiz... duno why.... I can't seem to concentrate on my work today.... There are 2 reasons that I have thought of...

firstly is that I've spent all my energy in the morning Gp paper... then now... I'm really drained....

secondly is that I come home too early. Its like I have too much time in the afternoon and I kind of slacked off... so now... I can get myself back to study....

haiz... duno what I can do.... haiz....

Sunday, August 28, 2005

:) Has been a long time since I last blog :D Haha... blogging less often now... often too tired during the weekdays.... So lets go~

Hmm... I can't actually remember things from chronological order... so I'll start with the things that I have most impression of....

The very first thing... I help ej cut his hair... lol... not cut actually... trim :P Haha... it was the day of phys prac. He had long hair and was caught by the teacher. The teacher asked him to go cut and come back to school for him to see. ej didn't want to leave and come back school again so he borrowed a pair of scissors from edward and asked people to help him cut.... lol.... So yar... I volunteered :P lol... has always wanted to cut people hair... muahaha... every time see the barber cut like so easy... I even tried to cut my own hair... but gave up eventually as my hands are not oriented in the correct way. And I can't see the back of my own head. When I look at the mirror, the direction changed. I have to move my hands left in real life to move it right in the mirror. But muahaha.... although it was only a trim... it was still cool.... haha... maybe I can consider this profession next time :P haha... The results were quite okay :P haha.... used a little technique that I observed when the barber is doing his job :P lol.... was really fun :P Next time anyone want to cut their hair... can come to me... free of charge for the first 50 customers... lol... cos by the end of 50... I would have master the skill.... muahahaha.... K lar... have to stop day dreaming :P

Other than that... hmm.... what have I done for the past week.... can't really remember leh... oh... haha... mentioned about the phys prac just now... haiz.... think its a goner... duno why... everything dosen't seem right... my readings all go haywire.... I had to cancel here and there... significant figures also all screwed up.... Even the axis of my graph also went wrong.... haiz.... had a bad feeling throughout the whole experiment.... nvm... I'll just have to pray hard that the mistakes are not too serious... and the teacher won't be pissed off by my untidiness.... haha... it was the worst prac I had... duno why always screw up my prac during major exams... still remember the O lvls prac.... I did the whole prac in pencil!!! Its said that pencil is for rough workings so it won't be counted.... that means that my whole prac should get a 0 except for the graph parts which are supposed to be pencil... that left me worried for the whole month before I recover and the result was released..... am glad that I still managed to get a A2 for phys... meaning that my prac didn't affect much.... haiz.... was really scary sia... I hope that this time round the A lvls would go on smoothly....

Hmm... after that... like nothing much liao.... then friday played UNO with soo fen and gang. haha.. well... though it was a game for children. We still had fun :D haha... I won 2 out of 4-5 game :P Think that my luck was pretty good for that day :D Or perhaps my lucky star was 1 seat away... muahaha.... kk... shh.....

Thats all for now lar... weekends nothing much to write... as usual... slacked... but this time round still managed to do 60 questions of econs MCQ.... yay... haha.... give myself a pat.... lol... think I'll be doing MCQs during the weekends from now on... thats the only work that I can do without falling asleep :P haha.... k lar.... ending the entry liao :D Have a nice week ahead :)

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Woho! Had such a beautiful evening sky at my place!



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All ready to prepare for war! LOL... haha.... went to get my mahjong paper today... and two of them is up on my wall liao :D Take a look :P



One piece is for econs and the other for misc stuffs. So from now on... whenever I meet with something that i want to make myself remember, I would write it down on the paper. So everynow and then I would refer to it and force an impression on my mind :P Hope it helps in my studying ;)

K lar... then today in school... haiz... did quite badly for the thermo test... then mr leong wrote, Hope you can concentrate better after NIBC (the blogging competition). This is really bad. Actually hor.... I don't like to use the competition as an excuse for anything. I would like to keep things seperate.... the reason I didn't do well for the test is carelessness... not that I was too busy with the competition...

Got a recommendation of a documentry for you people to watch tonight :D Haha.... its at 10pm... forgot which channel... just surf around and find yourself... Its about an research on whether intelligence is actually inborn or acquired. They go and study duno how many people from the first day they are born till they are twenty... which means the research took 20 years to complete.... which is older than my age lar.... so yar.... its a really interesting documentry.... Haha.... So for those whom are interested in finding out the big question of whether intelligence is inborn or not... do catch this documentry :)

Okay... thats all for today... bye ~ prelim phys prac tomorrow :) Wish everyone all the best :D

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Haiz.... its 15 mins before 11.... the official time for me to rest :S Haha... but can't help it... today totally inefficient -.- I spent 3 hrs on a 1.5 hr paper and still cannot complete it -.- Haiz... but cannot blame lar.. spent a lot of time refering to notes... cos just nice its that few topics that I haven't done revision on yet... so yar... although I didn't complete much of my work... but still hope that I learn something :)

K lar... actually nothing much lar... just came by to visit the school blog again... see if there's anything.... going to sleep soon lar :) bye~

Monday, August 22, 2005

Oh well... its monday again. Haiz.... 7.13 now.... just finished blogging for the school blog... took slightly more than an hour.... haiz.... sian ar.... can't wait till the end of the month when I can stop blogging there anymore... haha.... then I will leave it to heaven to decide whether I will win or not.... can't be bothered with it anymore.... I'll just try my best to blog once a day then thats all... really have to energy to go against 10 people.... my competitiors... well... it you want to compare in terms of quality, then it would be too great a difference. However, I hope that I would win on the point that my entries are easy to understand. Theirs look too much like literature writings... read liao also sian.... then also, I hope to win in terms of blog design... their color is not very pleasing to the eye.... one last point that I wish to win them would be in the comments section. They only like have 2-3 comments for each entry... while I try to build up at least 5 or more comments. So yar... I hope to win the competition based on this 3 criterias. :)

Today school was okay... rather slack as usual.... then haiz... got a little angry at my friend :P haha... scolded them 'do things without using their brains' .... Thats the sentence that I always scold my sis.... muahaha.... cos I really dislike people that do things without using their brain. They don't think of the consequences before comitting an action. Especially now when they are already 18... please be more mature and think first before you do anything.....

Oh well... actually nothing much lar.... this is what happened. They went to write something 'funny' on my keychain ( rubber) using a pencil... and wrote it very hard. So it left an imprint that cannot be erased. I wasn't angry about what they wrote as I know they were just joking.... I was angry at them as they didn't use their brain. The material is rubber and yet they wrote it so hard.... it spoilt the keychain.... and now the words become permament... Hello... 18 yr old liao don't know the simple fact that the rubber will be scratched? if you want to write then at least write softer or don't write at all lar... as I always say... "hao hao de dong xi ge ni men nong dao zhe yang.... " they have a pair of very distructive hands.....

hump... dun talk about them liao... hope they will use their brains in future....

okay.... anyway.... after school we went to north point to check out weilian's CD.... haha... I want to see how the cover looks like. So hmmm... saw it... well.. okay lar... not too bad... but he still got that erriee feeling whenever he smiles.... We also couldn't find kelly's... lol... think her album sold out liao.... I can't believe it lor... she don't have the looks and the voice.... then so fast sold out? haha.... guess we roughly know who will win in the grand finals liao lar.... :)

K lar~ its 7.30 liao... got to stop and start work le :) bye~

Sunday, August 21, 2005

I'm back~ Haha... got miss me or not... so many days nv blog liao... haiz.... been busy for the past days.... okay... lets start with thursday~

Thursday was erm... a normal day... can't recall much about it.... So lets move on to friday~ haha :P

Friday was erm... a rather nice day :) As usual, was a early day for us... lesson ended at 12.30... didn't went for consultation with mr leong as well... nothing to ask... So yar.... went to the student lounge... played carrom.... after that about 1.30 then we went off liao... wanted to play lan... but we couldn't decide where to play. If we were to play at yishun, then some of us would have to buy a new shirt..... if elsewhere, then eng jin cannot come along... so yar.... in the end we still decided to go without him... haha.... went to beauty world.... cos it was more convienient for us... but go there then find out the place had closed down -.- then sian diao.... took a cab to ginza.... and then everywhere full house.... lol... didn't know that there is still such a strong demand for lan shop... We placed our names on the waiting list... then luckily didn't have to wait for long... however our seats are split into 2 pairs .... so me and kerling took a pair then andy and senmin the other pair. Played CS... lol... I'm a super noob sia.... all the controls I don't know... then have to keep on asking kerling -.- he must have find me very annoying... haha... then yar... always get killed..... my kills to death ratio is 1:2 ... haha.... next time war cannot send me to the frontline... cos I have to die twice before I can kill once... lol Then yar.... got a few times quite fun lar.... did a double kill with a para.... lol... cos the two of them standing beside each other very far away.... so I just aim and keep shooting.... lol.... hmm... was rather fun lar :)

Hmm.... just few weeks before prelims and we are still playing at a lan shop.... lol.... K lar.... guess its the very last time that the group of us is able to play together before we really begin to study hard :)

Thats all for friday.... sat and sun was... oh-so-boring... wanted to do a little bit of maths... but... haiz... guess weekends is really a bad day for work.... didn't accomplish anything at all.... sian.....

Then hmm... also... want to talk abit about the school blog..... I'm really getting tired of it le.... I'm already 1/2 way to giving up..... I dun really hope for the prize liao lar.... afterall... I've nv won anything big in my life before... so I don't hope for too much this time round too... Its really not easy for me, one person, to go against a team of 10 from my competitor... they can write 2-3 entries everyday... but me? the most that I can manage is one per day.... Though I believe that I am stronger than an average person.... but against a team of 10.... there is still a gap or should I say... chasm... ( miss lim(GP teacher) will be very happy ) between what I can do and what they can do. I do hope that I will still be able to win, as I've tried to improve on some things that they lacked. So yar... hope that the judges would see my effort :)

talking about winning and losing.... one person whom would have felt this greatly would be project superstar contentant junyang. He had a very very bad fall..... I guess he must have felt that he would sure win the contest as the judges gave him very high marks, and also his opponent is blind... there has so been specutations that he will win.... everything seems to have confirmed his status of being crowned the winner.... but... he lost..... He just fell from the peak to the foot of the mountain in an instant.... I guess its a very big blow to him..... haiz.... really is 'ren suan bu ru tian suan' things can change in a blink of an eye...

Anyway... I don't really wish for any of them to win lar... firstly.... weilian voice isn't really that good at all.... then junyang I guess got a little bit of arrogant.... so yar.... both shouldn't win anyway..... For the girls... I guess kelly shouldn't win... haha... don't find that she's pretty lar... her voice also not that good.... the xin hui looks sweeter and has a better voice.... So inconclusion... I think the winners are not really that good lar... just average only.... won't make it far in future....

K lar... thats about all for now.... going to 10 le.... gonna look tru my stats and go sleep early for tmr's test :) Bye~

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Argh!! So busy!!! So tired!!! So much school work to do... so much sleep to catch.... and so much entries to post for the school blog!!!

I'm really burning out liao.... haiz.... WEEKENDS!!!! FASTER COME!!!! lol...

K lar... end here for now... gtg do my work liao... bye.... talk more during weekends :)

Sunday, August 14, 2005

hmm.... had been another long while since I last blogged :) Haha..... well.. was rather busy with school work and the school blog :) We have advanced into the finals liao... this month is the last month and.... there is actually only one strong competitor that we have to beat. So I hope that within this one month we can try our best :) We spent so much time on it and I don't wish to see our efforts wasted.... But... don't worry... I won't spend too much time on it :) haha... at most I sacrifice my resting time lor.... Anyway.... its also a good chance for me to practise my 'ang moh' haha... cos yar... GP prelims coming this month... so if I can at least write something per day... then I can train the fluency in my writing :)

Anyway... had parent teacher meeting this sat.... Haha.... hmmm...... know I know what miss lim thinks of me... haha.... she say I am those 点到就好。 meaning... I'm the kind of person that just meet the target and stop... nvm try to move on further.... :P Then say.... 知足常乐... ( duno is this 足 or not =X ) is good thing... but I should try to strive for more.... Hmm..... I think... okay lar... they are right... but.... thats me lor... I will try to work harder... but.... duno why.... haiz... haha.... duno how to say.....

Hmm.... also about some current affairs.... mr SR nathan is the only one who got the eligibility cert right? That means he will be president for another few years right? Haha... I'm actually rather glad about it :) Haha.... duno why... I feel that he's a rather nice person... not like the other contestant.... the duno what former JTC guy.... (duno izzit JTC or not.... can't recall exactly ) anyway... the one that has been making a lot of news lar... he looks more like a swindler than a president... LOL....

K lar... thats all for now.... bye~ :)

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Hmnm... guess I'll take this time to blog :) Its the last day of the national day break... but... in another 2 days time... it will be weeked again :)

Okay... lets start with monday.... well... monday went school early in the morning to take attendence for prize giving... I got a distinction in CCA achievement award :) Haha... was nominated my mr leong :D So yar.... went there early in the morning... after that went up stage to get the award.... Was a bit dissappointed at first as I thought there would be prize money :P haha.... but then... well... its okay lar :) Just that I miss getting money from the government.... LOL... ever since I got into sec school... I stop getting money liao :P Haha... cos yar... I got a edusave bursary in pri 4... then edusave scholarship in pri 5&6... then after that nothing liao.... so haha... when I heard there will be money at first... I thought... wah.. finally... after 5 years... I still can receive some money from the govt :P But... its okay... :) Afterall I haven't been getting it for such a long time... and I know that it isn't easy to get.... Cos in primary school.... those weaker students are all around... so its easier to be the top.... but when you get into sec school... those weak ones will have been streammed.... leaving the smarter ones... so its hard to climb to the top... and now... haiz... dun need to say... the competition is even fiercer.... so... have no hope to getting anything liao lar :)
But there was still a little surprise... :D Got a little trophy...


It has been a loooooooonnnnnnnnnggggggggg long time since I last got a trophy liao.... The last time I got one was during the sports day in K1..... I didn't even get in K2 haha... the only 2 trophy I got in my whole life till now was one in nursery and the last in K1... :'( so pathetic right... lol.... So yar... I finally got another one after more than 10 years!!!! LOL....

Then after that had the sports day... then go home liao....

In the evening there was a family gathering bbq at my house.... all my relatives were here.... ate a lot... haha..... then also chatted about army stuffs wif my cousin... he was a sign on officer.... (duno wad rank.... I know nuts about the ranks in the army =x ) but should be quite high lar... cos he got the sword... ( duno the real name ) in his house.... Anyway... he was saying that I still got hope lar... haha... cos I failed my NAPFA... so I had to go in earlier... but... he said if I continue to train now.... then when I get in... 2 weeks later there will be a test... so if I pass the test... then I will be able to come out till the actual training begins... but he said the 2 weeks in there will be tough lar... then hmm... guess I will have to start controlling my diet now :D then also have to train up liao... Then yar... he also told us behind the scene work in the army.... also some stories about his training in taiwan... lol.. he said... the night in taiwan is very dark... so dark that you can't see your fingers when you stretch out in front of you... so that night they have to dig a hole and sleep inside mah.. so yar... he dug one in the dark and slept.... then when he woke up in the morning.... the first thing he saw was a old man looking at him... he dug into someone's grave!!! LOL....

Hmm... then... after that when they all go home... I helped in packing the stuffs and thats the end on one day :) Tuesday... stayed at home the whole day... did some maths... then watch the NDP in the evening... after that... went online for some games... and thats all for yesterday...

today... woke up... did maths... then went out to study at mac with sen min... well.. nothing much liao.....

Guess thats all for now lar :) bye~

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

~~~ I'm here~~

Well... duno why.... dun feel like blogging these few days... kind of lazy.... haiz... K lar... bye~ be back when I feel like blogging :)

Sunday, August 07, 2005

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Saturday, August 06, 2005

Wee~ went to take photos of fireworks again :) But this time.... we were at the wrong position!!! We went up the shears bridge to take the fireworks... wow... there were lots of people with HUGE cameras there... haha... mine like so insignificant compared to theirs... Anyway... when we reached there... we began to wonder where the fireworks will be... cos... there are cameras aiming at both sides of the bridge... duno which one to follow.... then yar... at first we were facing the skyline... with a few other photographers.... but then... when time draws near... more and more people began to switch to the otherside... -_- then we realised that we went to the wrong place liao... our view is being blocked by the traffic!!! LOL... so whenever a bus pass by.... everyone will go oi~ haha... very fun.... I pity those photographers whom went so early but aim at the wrong place... :S

Okay... here are the photos I took :) HAha... the more viewable one lar... the rest are too lousy...






Lastly... My fav :D


LOL... just happen to take a photo of this traffic police in the middle of the road with the fireworks :D haha...

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Oh.. I seem to have a lot of things that I want to share today... :D So lets just start with the morning.. :)

This morning was as usual... walking on the pavement on the way to the MRT station... I wasn't listening to my MP3 cos I was wearing PE attire then dun have the chest pocket for my to put my player in... So yar... was walking and walking.... then I heard fast paced footsteps behind me..... I thought it was just some regulaer jogger enjoying the morning freshness, so didn't bother much about it or turn my head to see who it was... Then when the person came beside me... he suddenly said Good morning... I had a shocked... I quickly turned my head to the right and saw a teenager.... first thing that came to my mind was 'Do I know him?' Then for that spilt second.... I answered no.... After which... when I regain from my shock... the guy had moved on already... he was walking pretty fast.... I didn't have time to reply to him... SO yar.... I observed him for a while... and find that he said Good morning to everyone he passes by...... Hmm.... then I began to wonder... why would someone go and say good morning to every stranger he sees on the road....

The first possibility I thought was.... Was the guy a nutcase? =X But from his appearence... he looks normal... typical sec 4 boy wearing school uniform, carrying a bag... and some books on his hand.... Hair style was also quite normal... I couldn't find anything to sustain the possibility that the guy has slight mental problem... So yar... I decided that this possibility is out... Well.. it isn't a right way to repay someone's goodwill by doubting that he is crazy right.....

This leads me to think of the second possibility... Perhaps he just came from abroad, and perhaps the people there are very friendly and saying good morning is a common sight... However.... that guy looks quite Singapore breed. haha.... maybe he was sent overseas or something... but well... it still don't seem quite possible lar...

Now off to the third possibility.... Perhaps he was doing some kindness movement initiated by the school? =X But.... it still don't seem quite right.... Which normal secondary school student will do that? If you are talking about those pre-school or primary school students... it still seems okay... but sec school students? -__-

Or perhaps he has attained enlightenment... lol...

Hmm.... its really puzzling me... why would someone do such a thing? Saying good morning to a total stranger on the road? If its like sitting next to each other in a train or sharing some common activity... its still acceptable... but -__- in the middle of the road you just say good morning and then speed off?

Maybe.... things arn't that complicated.... that guy may just be feeling very happy.... and wanted to share his joy with other people :) Or perhaps he just wants to make someone's day :)

So yar... to that guy in the morning... Good Morning! :D haha.... didn't get a chance to say it in the morning... so hope you can see this :)

Hmm... there are still some other things that happened in the course of the day lar... but... time's running out... its 7++ now.... stayed backed for maths extra lessons.. .so yar.... gonna go bathe now... take a rest and then off for work :) K lar... see ya... tmr is friday liao :) See if I have the time and mood to blog more :)

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Yet another day of my life... haha.... oh well... nothing much... abit tired now... gonna go and rest for a while.... bye~

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

okay... I'm actually stucked at how to start off this blog entry.... but hey... I've started... haha....

KK... well.. today nothing much... school was as usual... haha.... had a talk on mental health during the pc-ct period... Sounds abit weird hor.. mental health.... seems like we got some kind of mental problem.... The talk was about managing stress... taught us how to analyse ourselves and find out what makes us angry and how to deal with it... And guess how would I deal with my stress? SLEEP! LOL... for people belonging to the same category as me, sleeping is a key way of relieving stress! haha... so yar... after this gonna go and relief some stress before continuing to do my work again....

Talking about work.... haiz.... am having headache on how to deal with my maths.... Things are not going as I wish it would go... I seem to have forgotten a lot of things.... I felt so stupid when doing maths... ARGH!!!! haiz... hope next time won't have to take maths in the Uni... otherwise it won't be just talks on mental health next time... haha....

K lar... nothing much liao... gonna end here.. bye :)

Monday, August 01, 2005

Zzz... my monitor is back to normal again -.- lol... duno why it went crazy yesterday then now okay already.... Well... think my LCD monitor will have to wait... haha

Anyway... yar... its the first day of the week... its about 7 now.... after this entry I'm gonna start work again... Have to work extra hard during the weekdays if I want to relax on the ends.

I find that my memory is very bad these days... kept forgetting to bring and do things... Old liao... haha... or perhaps maybe I was too stressed -.- haha.... Anyway... luckily the things that I forget to bring arn't serious... otherwise I might face punishments....

Today went to play carrom (haha... finally checked out the correct spelling) at the student lounge again... it seems that there are 2 techniques of playing named after me and Andy... LOL... Haha... my technique was the high angle rebound tyco shot that ended my first game... then Andy's was his mistake shot that always add a piece to the board and sabo his teammates... Haha... so throughout the game we were shouting each other names out... Was really very fun :D In the end... I lost my 1v1 match with andy... haha... though he helped my scored 2 pieces unintentionally.... :P haha...

Today also had another physics mini test... topic is... GrAvaTIon!!!! The topic that I hate and can't do well most... haiz... in the end, still cannot do -.- Argh.. .this can't carry on.... got to do something about it... otherwise A lvl jialat... cos this topic also similar to E field... so got to master it otherwise I'll lose a lot of marks....

Hmm... think its about time already.. go to go off liao... bye~ :)