After writing the previous entry complaining about my job.... I thought over it for a while and wondered, am I asking too much?

Yes, although a pay of $900 seems little. But I have to ask myself. Do I earn that much for the company? On the average, I only sell about 1.5 product each day. This means that I let the company earn a profit of about $30 per day... So considering there are 30 days in a month. My contribution to the company's profit would be $900. This is what they are paying me. That means on the days that I sell abit more... the company would only earn that little bit more only. And other than paying me, the company still has other expenses like the rental and the power fees. All in all... the company isn't making much money by employing me. So I'm also not in the position to ask for a higher pay. It may seem that I'm working very long hours, and the per hour wage rate is low..... but when we look at it from another perspective.... hey... I'm not underpaid....

Previously my thinking was... Since I'm paid so little. I'll just work as security guard and just make sure that nothing gets stolen. But come to think of it... if I don't contribute to the company. Then where is the company going to find the money to pay me, even as a security guard?

So now... I've changed my mindset. I'm still going to work, and contribute the amount that I'm supposed to. I won't be wanting a higher pay as I'm willing to accept that fact that I'm not contributing enough to ask for it.

But... I'm still going to quit... not because of the pay. But the environment there. I really feel uncomfortable... I don't fit in there. There is little common grounds that we share. The things that I do, they don't, and what they do, I don't. We live different lives.... Yes, I have no problem talking to them... but there always seems to be a gap between us. I never get close to being comfortable.

Other than the people there, the physical environment there is also very bad. You have no idea how much second hand smoke I inhale everyday. Everyone just take turns to come out and smoke. And other than the people from my shop. The people in the neighbouring shop also. Then the ventilation is also very bad, so the smoke lingers around my area for quite some time.... I really had enough of it.... I know its mean to say this but... Sometimes I really curse those smokers of dying of lung cancer, heart attack and all the other smoking related diseases soon. If they wanna die, so be it... I dun give a damn. But hey... please be considerate by smoking near non-smokers. You are actually also killing them with your second hand smoke. And I don't want to die from something that I've not done. THerefore, I strongly support the government decision to ban smoking at public places like bus interchanges, etc.... I'm looking forward for a smoke free society.

Anyway.. I kind of have a feeling that someone from my company knows about this blog... I picked up a clue during a conversation with my a colleague. And its not impossible because I gave a link of my gallery to another collegue, on my gallery, there's a link here.... perhaps thats how he found his way here.... Oh well... if you are really here... hi.... I don't mind people knowing what I really feel about the company... Although I still smile and come to work everyday, thats only a mask the I'm wearing.... If you all also want to talk about work.... do feel free to approach me... I'll take down my mask and give you free consultation :) But be sure to do it fast before I'm not around anymore... haha.... K lar... duno if its true that they really found their way to my blog... but... nvm.... just in case they do :P

Hmm... tmr off day le... finally can rest again before I embark on 10 non-stop working day... all thanks to the company that cheated us of a off day lar.... Its gonna be a real test of perserverance and endurance during the 10 days.... But.... don't worry... I'll emerge stronger than ever :) Bye~