Hello. It has been quite a while since my last entry. Well not exactly long, but still enough lag for Ben to start shouting in the shoutbox. haha... Many things have happened for the past weeks. Good things I should say, as the absence of blog entries proved. Most bad things would be published quite almost instantly when I start looking for a place to vent my frustrations. Good things usually get obmitted in my blog as I would be too happy and lazy to blog about it. Somehow, happiness and laziness have this funny relation when it comes to me blogging.

A couple of things worth mentioning happened in the short span of weeks after my last entry, which was the exam week. After the exams at SMU, I took my Driving test the following week after. And yes, I passed :D I got 14 points for my mistakes that includes not checking my blind spot correctly (2 pts). Strike Kerb (4 pts). And another long mistake that I couldn't remember the exact name, but still cost me 8 points. Its something like causing inconvenience to other road user or something of that sort. But nevertheless, I passed. :D The total cost came up to slightly under 2K. Which is alot compared to a private candidate who told me that he only spend half the amount I did to get his license. That half the amount is actually a hefty 1K that I could have spend it on some other things. But it doesn't really bother me that much. As long as I could get my license. There is this aunty who was taking her 3rd driving test on that day. And sadly she still didn't make it that day and had to book for her 4th. I guess she must have spend well over 2K, close to 3K in fact for her many attempts. I've not seen her drive before, so I couldn't really say if she was really so unlucky to always get the worst test routes, or she is just plain incompetent. Anyway, still have to wish her all the best.
Although I got the license, but no car for me to drive. Haiz...

Anyway, I've also gotten back my result and GPA for the first sem at SMU already. It was quite average with a GPA of 3.4. I know its already not bad. But still I believe that I could have done better if I had put in more effort. I got a B+ for my stats. If I could have put in more effort and not lag behind lessons. I could have done better. Another regret is my management comms. That one was a bad mistake on my part. I think I screwed up my final individual presentation. Due to the bad timing of the presentation. I didn't have any time to prepare for it. Considering that I am very bad at presentation, the lack of preparation really screwed it up. I got a B for that and this is one thing that I could really have done better. My other 2 subject were fine. Got a B+ for Biz law. This one I'm actually quite happy with it. Well, many not happy, but no regrets for it. Cos all along I didn't do very well for Blaw.

But... anyway... whats over is over. At least its not beyond salvation. I can work harder next sem. But thats another problem. I got like 5 mods next sem and they are quite heavy. So it will be hell when school starts. Compared to the 2 days week and 2 final papers last sem. Next sem everything will more than double with a 5 days week and 5 finals papers. :S

K lar... feeling abit sleepy already. Will blog more if I have the time and of cos, must also be in the mood too :) See ya~

How? How? Tomorrow is my Biz law exams le. I am very very unprepared. Think I am going to screw up my result this sem. -.- I have not felt so not confident about an exam for a long time. And I think this feeling is really bad :S When you are not confident about something, more likely that you are going to screw it up. Haiz...

I have already stopped studying about since yesterday morning liao. Its only a occasional flipping through. I think there is no point carrying on. I have already been stuck at this stage for a long time. So if there is somethiing to be done, I would have done it long ago. So now I just need to relax myself and rest for the exams. Getting too stress out is bad for the exams as well. So since I can't really do much now, I can at least get my mind to properly relax first.

I think I might also be giving myself too much stress. I am expecting myself to get an A. And nothing less than it is acceptable. In the competitive environment. I guess its hard not to feel this way. But then in the mist of all these competition. I might have forgotten that as long as I had tried my best, it is good enough.

Really, I think I had never given myself so much stress before. All along, I just do my best and hope for the best result. And even if I don't get it. I wouldn't feel bad. But then this time round. I have this mentality that I need to get an A. Yar... I think this is why I am so stressed now.

Now that I have realised this, I must stop it. I cannot let this kind of things affect my performance. It never had, and should never be the case. Haha... so yar... I guess I am feeling much better now. Writing down, or perhaps typing down my thoughts into words is a good way to reflect and identify problems. I have gotten too obsessed with getting an A that I end up giving myself too much stress.

But anyway. I think I have already screwed up one of my mods liao. Based on the result that I gotten back. I can at most manage a B. And then, if there were to be moderation. My B might not hold and may drop to a C. Although moving up the grade is also possible. But then I am not very hopeful about that as there are quite a number of strong players in the game. Haha... but oh well... B isn't too bad a grade. Considering that my english is not fantastic and my presentation skills suck to the core. To be able to get a B for management communications could already be a great achievement. Haha...

Its already 10.30pm. By right I should be sleeping already to prepare for exams tomorrow. But then, because I wake up late today and also took a small afternoon nap. I won't be able to fall asleep so early. So might as well spend the time doing some other things to relax my mind. Afterall, tomorrow's exam is in the afternoon. So I need to wake up early.

So, perhaps I shall take this opportunity to blog more. Haha...

I have already confirmed my timetable for next term le. Actually it was confirmed long ago, but I was just lazy to blog about it. Haha... I taking 5 mods next term, which is one more mod than what I am doing this term. I think that for this term I am rather slack. Perhaps its also because of the mods that I took which isn't too heavy. Take for example now. I only have 2 papers to prepare for the finals. But then next sem. Things will be different. Some of the mods are quite heavy and time consuming. Then for the final exams. I got 5 papers to prepare for. Which is like more than twice the number I had for this sem. So yar... think I going to die next sem.

But then, maybe the more busy environment is good for me. Cos I think my this term is too slack liao. So my engine hasn't gone running yet. My intention for this term is to first warm up my engine and gain momentum. It has been 2 years since I last studied. So yar, don't know still can cope or not. Also I need to first try out how heavy a module is. Otherwise, I might kill myself in the first term by taking more than what I could handle.

So yar, hope next term will be better ba. Anyway. Its only 3 more days and 2 papers before I clear everything for this term. So yar. Very fast one :D After that I can switch to holiday mood again :D It has really been a hectic journey. Must take a rest first. Haha... woho~ long time never see such a long entry liao right. :P Bye~

Muahaha... tmr is my exam and I am still here blogging :X

Sibeh sian... dun feel like studying. No mood liao. Can no longer study like how I did for A lvls. :S
Haha... but someone say its okay not to study like that. A lvls is 2 years once, this one is half a year once leh. If study like that will die. Haha...

:S Aiya, I finish my preparation for the exam already. All I can do now is keep practising and practising. But then. Not in the mood to practise lar. Heck care. Will see how the result turn out ba. This time round the feeling is kind of different. For A lvls I can say that I was really confident that I will do well. Cos there was a lot of preparation work involved. I did like countless past year paper before the exam. But this time round, I only did like 2 past year paper. The older ones are not very relevant. So... I'm like so under prepared :S

Argh... not matter wad I hope to get this over and done with soon. :D

Haiz... feeling rather demoralised now. Just went for my second driving session for today. Didn't perform very well. It was raining heavily and I was not accustomed to it. The rain made my visibility drop by half, and then its sound masked the sound of my engine. So my judgement of everything is off. I can't see the poles when doing parking, I can't change my gear appropriately. Everything is just screwed up. Somemore, I took a nap in the afternoon, so my mind wasn't in the correct state as well... Haiz...

The session in the morning went well. I was alert and could react effectively. The sun was bright and the weather was warm. So the whole session went on quite well. I thought I finally can have confidence to pass the test. But haiz... the afternoon session drowned all my hopes.

Oh well... I still have another session tomorrow morning. Hope I can do better then.

Anyway... it seems that I haven't been blogging for quite some time. The early few weeks was because I got too much school work to prepare. So yar, I didn't have time. But starting last week. Everything was cleared. But I was just lazy to blog. Haha... so yar.... drag until today.

I've cleared most of my work already. So now just need to prepare for the exams. But the thing is that I am not really in the exam mode yet. :S I study abit here and there, and then very soon be distracted to do other things. While it is still okay for this week. I'm not going to let it happen next week. Next week I'm really going into mugging mode liao. Have to catch up and grab back all my As. Although must of it is gone, but I still must try to grab as much as I can.

Why do I say much of it is gone? Because, I haven't been putting in my best for all my other assignments. So now, its very hard to catch up as the major part of my grade is already decided. Now what I can do it just to try as best as I could to grab as much as possible. I came to the realisation of how important my GPA for the first few sems are. So now... my term 1 is gone already. What I can do is to work harder for the next coming sems.

K lar, see if I got time then I blog again. See ya~

Hello... It has been quite a while since I last blogged. Life was hectic for the past weeks. Lots of projects and assignments due. Luckily it is all over now. Now, I only need to concentrate on 2 more assignments and then prepare for my final exams...

But haiz... I think I'll need a lot of effort for the preparation. I've been lagging behind both the subjects that are subjected to final exams. Which is.. biz law and stats. Biz law still okay, can still handle on my own.. But stats is the killer... I'm lagging very much behind and I have a hard time trying to catch up.... 2 more weeks left... I hope everything will turn out okay.

K lar... blog another time... haha... I know this entry also very short..
But I need to go have my dinner le... See ya~

Yay... mid terms finally over. But still have to worry about the result. :S I think my stats quite bad. Biz law is still okay. So yar... pray hard that it will be fine.

Having my mid term break now. Not really a break as everyday is still packed with activities. For the past 3 days I had been helping out at a old folks home as part of my LTB project. Then I've also tried to chiong for my driving test. I only realised today that I can no longer cancel and rebook a test date without forfeiting the payment. This new policy started just this month, October. So yar... that leave me with no choice to try to chiong for my current test date. Cos no matter whether I pass or fail, the money will be gone.

I'm having 2 lessons tomorrow. Quite sian... cos I have to space out the 2 lessons and inbetween I got nothing to do. Guess I'll bring some work and my laptop for Mcdonalds and camp there. :S

Oh well... must really enjoy this term break before school starts. I'm so lucky to have all my mid terms before the break. I see friends who have it after the break all still so worried about the exams. K lar... all the best to everyone. :) See ya~

Very worried about the Biz law test tomorrow. I really don't know how it will turn out. The format of the test is really different from what I have been doing for the past 10 years. In the past, all the exams have specific type of questions that you can prepare yourself for. Take for example, stats, which I'm also having test tomorrow. I'm not that worried about stats because I know what are the types of question that will have a chance of coming out and I can prepare for it by practicing. Or maybe if you want a closer comparison. For economic essays, you also kind of know what types of questions will come out and you can just structure your arguments to it. But Biz law is quite different. You are given a case, and you have to scrutinize the case for details that you can use to fight the case. I'm not used to this kind of exam format and I hope I don't screw it up.

Oh.. I just thought of a apt explanation for my feeling. For stats... I know what I don't know and can work on it. But for biz law, I don't know what I don't know... so how am I going to work on it? Furthermore, there hasn't been any class assignment that I can hand in for my prof to grade. So all these while, I'm just looking at other people's presentation and have no idea how many marks can my answers garner.

Oh... anyway... I just realise that my biz law test is only 15% -.- Which is kind of little considering that class participation mark has the same percentage. So yar... at this if I screw up this time, it won't be that bad. And I think my class part marks won't be that bad. Haha... considering that out of all my modules. I speak up most during biz law. So I just hope that my prof can remember my face and award the marks accordingly. Haha...

Argh... then still got the stupid comms assignment. A one page letter will cost me 20% of my module grade. Thats like woah!!! One letter only leh only a maximum one PAGE and it cost 20%!!! Thats a huge percentage on such a little assignment lar. Really worried.

K lar... all will be well after tomorrow :) Tomorrow night I going for MIC movie night :D So can chill out after one long day of 2 test :) K lar.. see ya~

Wah sian... I really have no time for my driving lessons. Looking at the current situation. I need to complete like 10 lessons during my recess week, then subsequently I need to do 2 lessons per week so that I can do the test before my membership with the school expires.

I'm seriously considering whether I should just renew my membership and spare myself the torture. Because having 10 lessons a week, while it is not very physically tiring. But I'm worried that I cannot learn as fast, and I'm not optimising the time spend in the lesson if I keep repeating the same mistakes. Other than that, the twice a week lesson during my school days is also another problem. I do not know if there will be projects that will need my attention. Somemore the final exams will be round the corner. And the worst of all... I might not pass at the first try, so in the end, I might still need to renew the membership afterall.

Argh... sian ar!!!!

My arms and legs are aching now. Haha... Yesterday went for my first recre badminton session :D It has been a long long time since I last played badminton. I think the last time I played was during my JC. Then until now its like more than 3 years le! Haha... But my skills still not very rusty yet :P Sill managed to play quite comfortably. :) I really like to play badminton, but too bad there arn't many opportunities for me to play. Although the recre badminton is held once a week, but there is just too many people around. Its seriously over crowded. So its quite hard to play properly. I can only like step one step away from the origin to return the ball, abit further and I risk getting wack by another player at the side. So I think I won't be going that often.

I've also joined the poems stock challenge! Haha... very sad leh... wadever stocks I buy all fall :| Guess I really cannot play the stock market.. Anway, there is a ranking for the Top losers... Hope my name dosen't show up there. Haha... I'm currently around 20 places to getting inside. LOL... which is really close lar.

Oh well... wondering why am I blogging at this time of the day? Well.. I've kind of finished my assignment :D Wee~ Haha... so can slack abit. Today is only thursday. Later going to do some biz law reading then I'm done for the week :D

I think friday is my favourite day. Haha... Morning got LTB meeting, but okay lar, its not that heavy and its actually quite fun. Cos don't really need to use alot of brain power to get things done. After that got MIC! Haha... its kind of like a karaoke club. Quite cool right. Like at the end of the week you just go there, chill out, talk to people, listen to them sing song. Somemore its not very expensive. $10 for a year membership. haha... Its a good way to end a week :) Then after that is the investment club lor. Go there listen to lecture, which is kind of sian lar.... haha... but its still okay, if sian just don't listen lor. No penalties. Haha... Just that I feel abit bad for the speaker lar when he is trying to teach and I just don't listen. :P

So yar, life is great :D But hor, I think its just for now lar. Cos I think I've been taking things very lightly these days. Perhaps after 2 years in the army ar, I think I'm god. Haha... cos there is no test that you can fail in the army. Like everything can just bullshit and pass. But now back to the school environment hor, I still can't get rid of the mentality. So I think I'm gonna get a shock during mid term. After that then I will start to feel the pain. :S Now I'm trying to minimise the possiblilty of that happening lar, so I'll still continue to read. But then, I sometimes I just cannot control the urge to slack. Haha...

K lar, thats all for now... See ya~

Starting tomorrow its already the 4th week of school and things are picking up pace. I can feel the increased workload coming from the various modules. Currently, I'm kind of behind time for my readings as I've been down with flu for the past days. That cost me a lot of valuable time. So yar,I guess this coming week will be quite busy as I need to chiong finish all the readings. I've also have another project coming up soon. So things are really getting busy. Luckily I did not take 5 modules this term, otherwise I will get a shock. Haha... I see my other friends who are taking 5 mods suffering now. I'm not prepared to take on that burden in the very first semester of my uni life. But starting next term, I'll try to take 5 mods.

Anyway, since the start of school. I've been doing all the school stuffs and my litbud.com and driving got neglected. I'm putting my litbud on hold for the time being until my term break. But my driving is the headache one. My membership expires this coming december and I've book my driving test date already. So I don't have much time to complete all my lessons. If I can't complete in time I would have to postpone the driving test and extend my membership. Thats gonna cost me another sum of money....

Oh... I've also been putting on a lot of weight. Haha... my waist line is increasing exponentially. I think I'm going back to my pre army enlistment size liao. All the fats that I lost in army are all coming back. I plan to start running from next week. Hope it can stop my waistline from increasing further or hopefully decrease abit. So yar, please don't rain in the morning next week. Wait till I finish my run and you can rain all you want. Haha...

Thats about all for now lar... See ya~

Hey hey, it has been a long time since I blogged properly. The previous few post are just rumbling about some stuffs.

Life has been good. Schoolwork is still manageable, in fact it is very manageable. I see my other friends like complaining and struggling with work but somehow my work load is quite light. Other than school work. Life in SMU is quite nice too :)

Oh no... I wanted to make this a proper blog entry but somehow I run out of things to write. So sorry.... I think I'll blog again next time ba... See ya...

All is not lost, I managed to get another slot for FTT on the 28th, which is next week. Have to constantly remind myself not to miss it again.

Oh well... first week of school is almost over. Actually its quite over since tuesday because I only have a 2 day week! It really feels good to not have any lessons after that. 2 days passes very fast, so it seems like the week ended just like that. Although I still have to go back to school for projects, the feeling is quite different. Its is very much more casual and relax.

First week of school, everything went on smoothly. It was better than expected. At first I was quite worried for some lessons like comms and biz law. But after the first lesson, it seems quite okay. Biz law is still quite comfusing but I think I can get over it soon.

All in all life is still going good :) Blog another time~

SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!! I missed my FTT date!!!!! WAh... HEARTACHE sia!!!! It wasn't easy to get today's date and I MISSED IT!!!!! ARGH!!!! NOW HAVE TO WAIT SO LONG FOR THE NEXT DATE!!!!!!!!!! SIAN!!!! MUST CAMP FOR THE DATES LIAO :| ARGH!!! SO WASTED!!!

Oh no! School is finally starting tomorrow! After more than 2 years of break, I'm going back to study again! Feeling quite worried now. Don't know what to expect on the first day of school. Its a totally new environment and system. Hope I can cope well. First day of school and its already going to be a long day. Last lesson ends at 6.45. By then it would have already passed my usual dinner time. Argh, just hope to get the first week of school over soon. There are so many things to do. Once this week is over, life will be more or less settled. So yar... really hope this week will pass by with any major problems :)

K lar... not really in the mood to blog now... argh... will try to sleep now. Hope tomorrow will be good :) See ya!

Oh no... school is starting next week and there is so much things still unprepared. I've not been able to secure all the textbooks needed for school. At this point of time I've only managed to secure 1 out of 4 textbook needed. And the most worrying thing is that one of the prof emailed us to read up on at least the first chapter before our first lesson. But I don't even have the textbook to start with! So how am I going to prepare for the first lesson? I'm kind of worried about the first lesson. Don't know how will it be like. :S

I went to watch Money No Enough 2, after getting good response from my family and Alan who had watched it. Well, I didn't really find it nice. The whole movie is very draggy. The storyline is very weak. Its almost like a channel 8 drama. There are alot of scenes that just wastes time, and some scenes are a outright advertisement for their sponsors. I know they needed sponsors to help with the budget, but they can at least do it more tactfully. Sometimes it almost seem like a commercial break in the middle of the movie.

They wasted almost half the time in the beginning talking about MLM, which is not much of a interesting topic or rather it is totally boring. Then the next half they try to act pity on the topic of ageing. They tried to make it a touching movie. But, I think they failed. What they did was to make the actor act pityful, but without a solid storyline, they didn't really touch me.

All in all, I think this may be the worst movie that Jack neo has made. Really dissappointing.

Yay! Finally got my laptop fixed. Okay, it wasn't much of a big problem. I just went to school, logged in to the school network and changed a few things. Less than 5 minutes everything was done. But I spend more than 1 hr travelling to school just for that. But okay lar, meet up with EJ and managed to get some help from him. ( for other matters, not the laptop) .

Starting school in less than a week time. I just went to see the course outline and some seminar questions for week 1. Totally tio stunned. I'm so not prepared for school. Anyway, 船到桥头自然直。 So hope everything will be alright after the first week :)

WAH LAU!!! SIBEH DULAN now... I wanted to set up my home connection so that my laptop can access internet through my home computer. End up I signed myself out of the school domain and now I can't set it up without going to school to do it. Argh... So troublesome. Now I have to specially go down to school to do it on monday. I don't want to wait till schools starts cos I already configured my profile on the account. I'm using the administrator account now by the way and everything is not customised for my use. Argh!!! ARGH!!!!! Totally spoil my mood.

Yay! Everything is almost finally over. I've finished my 2 camps and CSP. So now just have to prepare to start school. Just came back from my bondue camp yesterday. The activities are fun. Haha... The first day we already got very very dirty. We got mud+ ketchup+ soy sauce+ flour+ vineger+ toothpaste+ peanut butter+ tobasco+ egg+ banana+ watermelon all over ourselves. Then we also played captains ball with raw chicken. I think thats the most gross part. I didn't play in the chicken match, but I played with raw cuttlefish as the ball. There was really a conflict of feelings when I watch the chicken being tossed around as a ball. It was really hilarious but I kind of felt sad for the chicken. Like it died for us as a food source, and after he died we still play and toss it around. Its like we are still torturing it after its death.

Anyway, after that the activities are more tone down. We went geylang for supper, sentosa to play games and we had a drinking session the last night. Our team didn't drink too much, so we were more or less sober, but we heard alot of stories of those who drank over their limits.

It was quite a nice experience. But I think I should have been more enthu abit and talk more. Somehow I was very quiet. But overall, I still enjoyed the camp.

This would most probably complete my orientation experience. For the past weeks its really having fun all the way. I guess its part of the university experience and I'm glad that I didn't miss out the fun. Haha... And I'm like super tanned now lar. After spending so many days out in the sun.

K lar... will blog again when I'm free. Bye~

Hello. Just finished packing for the camp tmr. Its another 3 days camp. Hope that the activities are fun and the teammates are nice. But from the first looks of it, its kind of disappointing. The turn out for the pre camp dinner was bad. Don't know if they really cannot make it or just don't bother to come. I definately hope its not the latter. Afterall, we all signed up for the camp willingly, its not like FTB where it is compulsory, so I hope that everyone will be more enthu abit.

This time round I'm not feeling as sian as before FTB. Cos I know I'll be staying in school, at least the accomodation is much better. Haha... So now I just hope that the activities and the team members are fun.

Its the final big event for me before school starts . 2 weeks after this would be the start of school already. When school starts, I think the feeling will be quite different. I've been like in the orientation mood for the past weeks. Like just go school and play games. HAha...Its really a long long orientation. So since this is the last major event, I really hope it will turn out great. Haha.. I have high hopes and expectation for this camp,especially after my FTB. Haha... I hope it will be even better than it. So yar, must not dissappoint me okay.

Hmm... k lar.... its gonna be a long day tmr. Think I should get some rest. Bye~