Haiz.... its sunday night. Lucky I dun need to book in yet for now. But in the future, things might change.

But although I should be glad that I'm given such privileges. I am not really happy about booking in. In the course of my army life, I've been to 3 places, Tekong, Nee Soon and my current one Sungei Gedong. The experience and feelings of booking in is quite different between them.

Booking in to my first place in Tekong is the worst. Before even booking in, I'm already starting to think about booking out. The feeling is terrible. But then, there is still something to look forward to... the day of POP where I don't have to book in again to the place again. And yes, the day had came and I'm freed from that place.

Booking in to my second place is the best of all. It doesn't even feel like booking in. I feel like I'm just returning to my second home. Its a relax and 'painless' process. I don't countdown to my next book out, because I didn't even feel that I've booked in. Sometimes, I even feel happy about booking in. I really miss that place.

My current camp is actually in the middle of the two. I dun hate it as much as tekong, but there is still some pain felt. I find no reason for me to be happy about booking in. Something is just missing...

I guess its about the people there. K lar... I get along fine with the people there. But then the relationship is just normal acquaintance. Perhaps we haven't gone tru much together, thats why our bonding is not there yet. But then... I feel that thats not entirely the problem. Another thing is that I have a very small pool of people to select a group or a person to cling onto.

I've been thinking about the way I interact with people.

It seems that when I'm being introduced to a new environment. I would look around and find a group where I can fit it. Once in there, I would mix around with people within the group, and seldom with people from outside the group. It is almost such that I stop taking initiative to know people from outside the group. My contacts will only expand when the people in my group bring in other friends to my group. And then from within the group. I would find specifically someone that I will cling onto. So even when the group disperse to do their own things, I will still have someone to cling onto.

It seems abit weird but then, I see this pattern being repeated again and again whenever I get to new places. Sometimes I feel like I'm a parasite. I need a host to cling onto in order to survive.

And right now. Because the pool of people is very small. I am unable to find a group that I can fit into completely. Thus I am not able to find a person that I can cling onto. For now... there is this temporary group that I am in and this temporary person that I cling onto. But then... because I don't really fit inside. I am only loosely hooked on. I'm still searching for my new group and until then may I truly find a good reason for me to book in to camp.

hmm... sian...

went out for wei ping's son 1st month today. Haiz... my first time attending such event by a friend. I'm getting old.... Met up with a few from the combat medic course. All seems to be doing quite well. Slack :P

After that went to play lan... got pwned... haha...

then went down to suntec lor. THe place really very deserted. The restraunts are all empty... But can't blame us lar. U know how hard is it to get to suntec or not? We can't go straight tru citylink. You have to get out of citylink, go tru marina, tru millenia walk then u reach suntec. Its one very big round lor. No wonder the crowd is all stuck at marina square, all to lazy to continue walking tru millenia then suntec.

Something is really missing in my life...

duno what...

duno how....

but I hope to find the missing piece soon...

Hohoho~ Yet another week.

Life has been good... but filled with a lot of uncertainty. Until now there is still no confirmation of where we will be posted to and what will we be doing. It was said that a letter was sent up to the top for us to be put under CCO's control during office hours. That means that we might not have to go become platoon medic, instead we will hold position in the medical center and only go out when they need cover. But then the approval might take a long while to come, at least 1 or two months, so until then, we will still be under AEC.... But then.... new instructions were given that we will stay at HQ before our sergeant come back from his spec 2 course, which will take another month... So now... everything is in a big mess.... We just live by the day.

It would be best if things dosen;t change. Cos I really love the life I'm leading now. Although its not a 8-5 job where I can book out everyday... the work is 8-5.... We start work in the morning at 8, then end work sometimes before 5... As for the rest of the day, we are free to do our own stuffs. So after eating dinner we would go back to the medical center to watch TV until 10, then walk back to bunk and sleep. The medical center is like a mess for us... lol... we can also sneak into the canteen which is just next door to buy food. Its really heaven in there.. haha..

I wonder what changes there might be in the future, but nvm... let me enjoy as long as this lasts :)

see ya~

Yet another week has passed. It has been quite a nice week. The medical center got a little bit busier with platoons of people coming for FFI and a whole platoon of people reporting sick after a route march... There arn't any big cases except for a asthma case, which is a good thing lar... haha... firstly no one gets hurt, and we also can slack :P

I've begin to settle down in there. I dun mind passing the remaining 1/5 years of my ns life just like that lar... but then, things are going to change a little. I'm going to move over to company line in another week's time. There I might have to live a platoon life again. Right now, I'm so free.... Me, together with another 2 medics come and go as we wish. We no need to march, just walk here and there. OTOT go eat... Everything we decide for ourselves. Freedom is one rare thing that you would have in the army. But then... this freedom may not be lasting. I just hope that not too much of it would be taken away after I go to company line.

ANyway... nothing much lar... been rotting for the weekend. Think I really no life sia.... kept wanting to find something to do. But just couldn't find any...

K lar...thats all for now... bye~

Its monday night, and why am I here? haha... got a day off due to the army half marathon. It wasn't really a day off lar... since it ate one of my weekend, so its perfectly right to return one to me.

Anyway... I didn't take part in the running. I was doing the sai kang ( shit work) for them. We had to move the safety barriers to close a lane for the runners... And you know how much barriers we had to move or not? We take like around 4 hours to move them in place tru the night. And then take also as much time to pack them all up after the event... Now I got this phobia seeing those safety barriers... I kept imagning and wishing that I got the mutant power of Jean Grey... lol... I can just concentrate and move all the barriers in place.

Some of my platoon mates are also being dragged there to do other forms of sai kang, like medical cover and water point marshal. Its a pretty funny feeling to think that after we all got seperated after POP. we are all together and still working under the same night sky at singapore's southern area.
Althought they got the slacker job lar... can sleep at night... I have to move all the barriers throughout the night lor... sian....

Spending 1 night together with a section... well... they all seems to be quite nice people lar... hope I will be able to fit in well after I got posted to the company :)

Went to the library to borrow some books. Needed something to kill time in camp, Had been considering to get myself a PSP or nitendo DS... I think its a pretty good investment for the rest of my 1.5 years in camp. But I'll still wait a while lar... wait till I settle down in the company first :)

K lar... nothing much for now... bye :) This week shouldm'y be too hard to pass, afterall monday is already gone, 4 more days to my book out night :) Actually now considered not bad already. Cos is monday book in for the next 2 weeks, so now I have 3 night to spend at home :)

POP loh! Haiz... I was sent right to my new camp after pop... so sian... got a shock when I reach my new camp. My building is so run down. The bunk is even worst. It looks like some construction site worker's squatters. The first night there was unbearable. The fan has broken down so its so hot there... Somemore I can't imagine myself living in such conditions for the rest of my NS life. Its like within a 3km radius of the camp there isn't a single civilisation. Its almost like living in tekong, except its worst. I was posted to a engineer company situated in a armour camp. Thats why it seems like we are being outcasted. All the armour building have been upgraded. Only our little area at the very end of the camp is so run down.

First day there was also quite sad... I miss SMTI life even more. I miss all the familiar faces, voices and places of SMTI. I miss my bunk mates who are always so noisy talking cock. But haiz... got to bear with it for another 2 weeks lar. After that I'm moving over to the company line to be attached to a platoon. I hope by then things will get better lar... getting to know new people. And the living condition there is also slightly better, at least the bed is those spring mattress and not foams.

By the way, I just realised that I got a friend there in the company.. haha.. Elgin! I went for a briefing for AHM then saw him there. Hmm... that kinds of make me feel better lar... at least that place is not so alien to me anymore.

The second day there was the start of our on job training. First thing in the morning, even before the lesson starts, we were called into the treatment room. "the three of you, one of you go and do IV" .... lol... there was a high fever patient there... we were all stunned lor... lol... then I was sabo to do it. Heng I one shot kill ar... otherwise so xia suay... haha.... My first time shooting IV for a real casualty. It feels abit different. In school we shoot friends that we know, anyhow shoot also can. but there, its a real casualty that needs the IV... so there's a little weight of responsibility there.

After that we continue lesson lor... but half way a heat exhaustion casualty came in... Suddenly all the senior medics there became very serious lor. They did the 4 man drill on the causalty, MO was also being called in. The whole situation is very tense lor. They strip him of everything, planted 2 IV on him... inserted a rectal probe....

I see the casualty like suffering so much, I almost cried you know... Everyone is going through NS, but why does he have to suffer so much? Later then get to know that we was a trainee for Specs undergoing ASLC here. He was doing SOC when that happened.

Haiz... but whether I like it or not... this is life in the army lar... SUCK thumb.... I'm gonna be stuck there for 1.5 years. After that I'm gonna F**K off from there and hope never to return... so yar.... K lar... 1.5 years shouldn't take too long lar... right now I'm only looking forward to going to the company line in 2 weeks time. Look at the time in small blocks and it should pass by quite fast. Can't imagine I've already passed 9 weeks in SMTI... It seems too short... I wanna go back for a recourse!!!! haha...

My weekend this week is screwed up cos of the AHM... its like I have to report at 1745 tonight, then go back at around noon tmr, then have a off on monday and book in tues morning.

Thats all for now ba... bye~

Haiz... feeling very terrible... fell sick.... haiz... caught a bad flu... I'm like walking around my house with a roll of toilet paper in my hand for the whole of today... kept sneezing non stop... Hope to get well by monday, otherwise things are going to get worst... Going to have outfield activities this coming week, so if I dun get well by then, I duno whether my flu will worsen or not under the hot sun.

My watch also passed away this week... So sad... it has been with me for almost 10 years. Went through alot with it. It kept time for all my majoy exams. PSLE, O lvls, A lvls... It endured through though trainings during my BMT and field camp.... It also has travelled with me overseas....

I bought this watch when I was in pri 4... That year one of my cheapo watch was spoilt, then its near chinese new year. So my dad brought me to get a new watch. So we went shopping at Lot 1... That was my first watch that cost over a hundred dollars... haha... But its worth every cent lor... to be able to last so long.

It got injured during BMT, somehow one of the buttons for setting time is spoilt. That means that once the battery finished, there is no point changing battery again cos the time cannot be set anymore. So it began... the countdown till the very last minute when its battery goes flat.....

Oh well... time to get a new watch :D haha....

Anyway.... the countdown to the end of combat medic training has also began... The coming week can be considered is the last week I'll be undergoing training at MTI.... My posting will probably be also out this week. HAiz... duno where I'll be posted to... New places, new friends.

k lar.. nothing much... bye~ Gonna rest early :) Wish me speedy recovery!

Yet another weekend... so boring... haiz... got test tmr but dun feel like studying...

Been feeling unwell for the past weeks... had this persistent flu the comes and go all the time... feels terrible... In another 2 weeks time... my course will end... wonder where I'll get posted to...

haiz.. duno wad to write about... very sian ar!!!

bye~

Haiz... am supposed to be studying for my test tmr... but heck... dun feel like doing it... lol... Really not in the mood lor... very sian leh... its like going back to school life lor... going for lectures, sitting for exams. But this is the first time after many years that I can afford to not study for the exam... lol... For the past 2 years in JC I chiong all the way... studying for every exams... putting in effort in every single one of them. For now... I slack too long le.... dun want to chiong anymore. Just as long as I can get a pass then I happy liao :) Anyway... another reason is I dun like to study on weekends. The feeling is never there. The afternoon seems hotter then usual. Its just not condusive for studies. So now... I try to keep work and my private life seperated lar. I dun want to bring work home to do. I only have the weekends to myself. I dun want my work to take up all the time.

I shall share some thoughts about smoking. Recently, new regulations has been passed down to divide the smoking areas in public areas like coffee shops and hawker centers. I greatly support this regulation as I really dislike the smell of smoke. I think they should ban smoking totally... haha... but I guess its not possible to do it so fast. But I hope gradually and eventually it can be done.

But sometimes I understand that some smokers like those old people who spend their whole day in the coffee shops got nothing to do so they need some smoke to get high. Well I understand their situation. Being old and lonely... a cigarette is their best friend. So I have a suggestion that instead of seperating the locations between the smokers and non-smokers, we seperate the time. The old people usually hang out in the coffee shops in the afternoon at the off peak hours. So during that time, we allow smoking. but at the peak hours smoking should be banned. This way, we are protecting to second hand smoke from getting to our childern whom are usually in school or somewhere else except the coffee shops. As for the old people... they dun need to be protected from the health hazards lar. The are already so old, and do not have any much longer to live. Just let them enjoy the last few moments of their lives, no point asking them to go through the trouble of kicking the habit. Somemore, they die faster also good wad... solves the aging population of singapore... LOL... K lar.. I shall not be so mean.

Anyway... let me continue about somking in the SAF. I think we should ban smoking totally lor... Those people are like drug addicts. They smuggle in cigarettes, hide and smoke in toilet when permission is not given. Can anyone safetly tell me that the smokers in their platoon or company hasen't caused any trouble? Surely there are some people who are stupid enough to smoke in the toilet and get caught. Haiz... those are young people, and they are already so addicted to smoking.

K lar... nothing much liao... bye~

Yo! Long time no blogged... Just formatted my com... as always it was super sian... had to reinstall everything again... and the installations took so long... Blamed it on my little laziness. I was updating my firewall so I had to shut it down while the it is being upgraded. But then because I was lazy... I didn't bother to cut off my internet connection. So within that few seconds before the new firewall was up... I was hit by tons of virus. One of them is super irritating... When you type right... it purposly backspace some letters.... so you have to type letters by letters ensuring that it comes out on screen. So now everything is fine already... but I wasted so much time... I wanted to do something for litbud.com but all my time had been spent on this.

Anyway... I'm a little bit worried... I've forgotten my hotmail password :S Which means I might lose all my contacts on MSN!!!! I can't use the forgotten password feature cos that time I fake to be in the US so that I can have 250MB of space... but then I forgot which state of the country I put... Somemore I wrote crap for the secret question... so die ar... duno if I can recall or not...

I kind of feel lost without MSN... I didn't know I was so dependent on it... Its just like people losing their handphone. They are not worried about the handphone, but the contacts in the handphone. Although most of the time my MSN is just left idle... but then I still feel uneasy without it. So yar... this is a warning to you people ar... Better go back up your contacts.

Another 3 weeks have passed since I got into Medical Training Institute (MTI)... Relatively, I could wish for nothing more regarding the life in there. The training is not physically demanding. The commanders are nice. ( well at least for my platoon) My bunkmates are friendly. Location is not too far. Training ends on friday night. Compared to the life during BMT and perhaps what some of my other riflemen friends are doing.... This is already heaven. Some people are still going through SOC and route march... on the same day somemore... For me... I've almost forgotten the pain of going through it.

Anyway... I've been thinking about something... The army system is like a communist system in such a sense that we do not have a choice in where we go. Some people whom are less physical get the more 'xiong' vocations and vice versa. Our abilities are not matched with our jobs.

We have seen the nations around the world transiting from past communist countries to democratic ones. It seems as though democracy is the way to be. Even singapore has benefited from the system. But then why the change hasn't come to the army?

Well. One of the reason I can think of is that we need to maintain a standard proportion of people in every vocation. If it were left to choice and ablilties, the proportion may be uneven and that impedes our battle capabilities.

And perhaps this may be one of the reasons that some countries still remains as a communist till today. but in place of battle capabilities, it may be there economy.

Anyway... I'm just gonna stop here. I'm got going to write an essay out of it... haha... its just some passing thought which I thought may be interesting to share :)

We humans are hard to satisfy... so I too have some complains about the "oh so beautiful" life in MTI... haha...

One minor one is that there is no hot water supply for bathing!!! LOL... Its really cold in there especially that it has been raining almost everyday for the past week.

One major complain about a f*ck-up commmander... purposely blow up a small matter... or perhaps I should say a few small matter... for no good reason... Luckily I'm not in his platoon... so I just have to suffer is nonsense when in company level. I pity those under him. They still live a life as a recruit.

K lar... thats all for today :) Bye~

Saturday night :) A rather nice week had passed. My first week as a combat medic trainee.

That monday morning... I woke up.... Very sian... after 2 weeks of waking up late.... It feels terrible.... Anyway.... washed up and made my way to nee soon camp. I'll be spending the next 9 weeks there...

K lar... I duno how to prganise them into proper paragraphs, so I'll just list the points lar.

The food at the cookhouse there is better then tekong. The place also quite empty.... Queue is short, and there's no lack of seats.

Its a challenge not to fall asleep during lectures. The seat is cushioned and comfortable. The audi is air conditioned. The lecture content dosen't appeal to me.... and the lecturer is boring.... All these composed the most persuading lullaby.... Haha....

PHysical training is almost non existence. Except for the 5B-EX in the morning and some tekan session. The tekan session is only on some days where we are really very slack... so the instructor let us do some 20-40 push-ups to warm up our bodies.... The most xiong thing is during stand by area before book out. Even that is also slack because at most we just do 20 push up, 20 crunches and 20 jumping jacks... That is nothing compared to the 160 push ups at one short during a standby area at Ulysses...

Lessons are fun... but at a super fast pace. Its like attending a bio crash course for me. In such a short time, I'm supposed to familiarise myself with the anatomy of the body. Then there are also a lot of memory work which I suck at.

Some interesting things...

-You are not allowed to sleep during office hours on the bed... but you can sleep on the floor.
-There is no stand by area... only stand by bed.
-And standby bed. only 1 set of no.4 and 1 set of admin tee to be displayed. All other clothes including underwear keep in duffel bag or personal shelf.
-Toothpaste must be at least 3/4 full :S

Anyway... I think I'm fortunate enough to land myself in such a place lar. Army life really dosen't suit me... So yar... I just hope that after 9 weeks I'll get posted to somewhere as nice, then I'll just finish my 2 years and carry on with my civilian life.

K lar... nothing much already. Bye~

woho~ I'm back :D Haha... one week has passed....

Combat medic training is slack... very slack... but I'll talk about this later....

I just wanna share something that got me very excited! Haha... John just msged my on MSN... lol... he went back to CSS and guess what he saw... he saw a poster of the top student from YJ and I was on it! LOL... Yj really went to send the poster back to my secondary school.. lol... Hmm.... I wonder if any teacher will recognise me... haha... I very low profile then...

:D Oh well... nothing much lar... am just glad that I've got some achievement :)

K lar... I'll blog about my slack life there the next time :) Bye~

Arlow.... nv expect myself to write an entry so soon after what I said during my last entry... haha... but... well.. just wanna share something :)

Got my posting today liao... Combat medic... Haiz... like quite xiong leh... still have to continue to chiong sua. Somemore have to do the medic stuffs... Actually... I quite scared of blood one leh... den I think we still have to learn injection... and how to we learn it? Poke yourself and your buddy lor, then let your buddy poke you too... So scary sia...

but haiz... okay lar.. at least I get to learn something useful. Something that can be applied in future. But I think also not much chance lar... unless really see some accident where doctors and paramedics are inaccessible. Even then I think I might have forgotten almost everything.. haha...

But okay lar... I shouldn't complain too much... afterall there are some people who are worst off then me... some tio rifleman... some combat engineers....

Still there are some who got quite a slack one... Some got RP.... haha... so in 2 yrs time we will see them grow fat.... :P Some leh... got to SAF band.... this guy is quite pro sia.... Then one got to lifeguard.... another super slack job.... And finally duno why this guy pes A/B but end up in service sector! Become transport supervisor....

Actually now to think of it... like quite a number of people get slack jobs hor? WHY AM I NOT ONE OF THEM!!!! LOL.... Oh well... As the usual army saying goes... suck thumb.... so yar.... just have to do it for 2 years :)

But now hor... after a week being civilian.... My mode switch to civilian mode liao leh... monday have to go back to camp so sian!!! Have to go back to army life... I DUN WAN!!! :'( ..... sian ar!!!! I really wish for 2 years to be over soon and I get back to my normal civilian life.... No matter wad... army life sux compared to civilian life....

okay lar.. change topic....

Watched the 7pm show on channel 8. Then there is this comment about how times have changed. " Nowadays children gather at playground is not to play with the facilities. But to gather around and play electronic games. "

I wonder how true is it as I haven't been around playground for a long time... But this comment just evoke some sentiments that yar... times really have changed. Not only around us... but we also have grown too.... Sometimes I feel so old... I was at a chalet with my platoon mates. Then I observed the things they do... and we arn't kids anymore. It seems that my surrounding has changed... but I still lack behind. I'm still the kid I am a few years back. I haven't changed much.... And I guess... its about time I make my change.....

Next year... I'll be 20.... Thats perhaps 1/4 of my life gone.... In the same blink of an eye.... 2/4.... 3/4.... and then I'll be waiting to leave this world...

This would be the end of a life cycle... Its pretty amazing when you think of us being developed from a single cell organism... went through so much... and then thats the end of our life cycle as a homo sapien....

Pardon me for being so "biological" today.... haha.... had been reading much.... Cos after POP was too bored so went to the library to pick up some books.... One of which is "frogs flies & dandelions" by Menno Schilthuizen.

This is a description about the book. "The origin of new species-speciation-is a central theme in evolution. How do species split? Why? How long does it take for a new species to be born? And what is a species anyway? Such is the mportance of the problem that Charles Darwin himself dubbed it 'the mystery of mysteries' "

Its quite an interesting book to read.... but that is if you are really interested in the evolution of things... cos its pretty long... and there are a lot of case studies... it can be very boring at times.... I also almost gave up on reading a few times...

There is another book which I borrowed titled " What scientists think" by Jeremy Stagroom
This book also has an chapter devoted to "Darwinism and Genes" yet another read about evolution....

SO yar... that explains it....

Anyway... I also got 2 book which I didn't have time to read.... ONe is "Holding on to reality" by Albert Borgmann

Its a pity I didn't have a chance to read it cos there are a lot of interesting things inside. This is the description "Holding on to Reality is a brillant history of information, from its inception in the natural worls to its role in the transformation of cultre to the current internet mania and its attendant assets and its liability. Drawing on the history of ideas, the details of information technology and the boundaries of the human condition, Borgmann illuminates the relationship between reality and information. "

In the book you will find geometry, trigonometry, architectual, gates( those NOT,AND NOR gates from physics) diagrams in it... I duno what is it for cos I haven't read the book... but I guess it would be pretty much interesting.

Another book is "World of risk" by Mark Haynes Daniell

"this book takes a fresh and critical look at the leading sources of global risk- terrorism, diseases, crime, poverty, environmental damage and others- and sets out a practical way to respond far better than we have to each risk area. ... Without a more informed set of strageties and better global leadership, the catastrophe of 9/11 will only be a forerunner of many more disasters in future. We can do much better. This important book shows us how"

Well... I haven't got a chance to see how important the book is... but I think it will be quite nice to read.

So yar... with that... I think its time for me to end this entry :) Bye~ And wish all my army friends good luck and all the best in their new vocation :)

Yo! really long long time never blog already.... Haven't been really busy... but just dun feel like blogging...

OKay... some major events has passed since the last time I blogged.... actually its only 1 lar... POP!!! Yay!!!! Haha.... GOODBYE TEKONG! It has been a long long journey.... 3 months in there.... Went through alot... all the tekan sessions that we had... but we still made it... :D

Well... okay lar... some points about my stay there lar...

1) Ulysses is a very shiong company... lol... dun think that u don't hear about us we are slack.... SO to future recruits dun be too happy that u ended up in Ulysses... haha...

2) :D I got a chance to taste the no.1 food in tekong! Haha... or at least in school 2... Haha... that is the roti jon with cheese! It is so good that it rumored caused a conflict between my OC and one of the sergeant because the sergeant bought a roti jon without cheese when the OC said he wanted cheese... lol...

okay lar... there nothing much liao... now waiting for my posting... haiz... duno where I will go to.... Hope its a slack one....

Hmm... I guess I won't be posting that often anymore... Perhaps only during some major events lar.... so yar... Until then... bye~

hello~ long time no blogged... been busy for the past few weeks. Time at home is short... so not in the mood to write... Actually I'm still not in the mood to write now lar... haha... feeling sleepy already. But soon... everything will be over :D Haha... 1 more week to POP! So yar... maybe then I'll write more ba... :)

So until then... see ya~

It has been 3 weeks since I last blogged... I wanted to blog last week, but due to time constrains, I didn't have the chance to do so. So now... with the long weekend, I can finally find time :)

Haiz... life have been hard for the past weeks. Before the field camp... we were already heavily tekan... field camp... haiz... its hell.... Its as if they must have a tekan session everyday.... Cos everyday for the 1-2 hours... we would be treated like shit... then after that... all was bright and merry. So.. it seems to be a requirement for us to get a few hours of tekan everyday... -.-
Another problem is the food. The combat rations is really distasteful. I only force myself to at least eat half the packet and I'll throw it away.... I can't totally dun eat it cos I need the energy.... haiz....

but anyway... I've survived it :D

After field camp was sit test... well... its nothing much lar... I didn't want to go command school... so I just go tru the motion lor... it was quite slack... the only thing is we have to eat the combat rations again...

After all these... I've lost alot of weight! lol... I'm so skinny!!! My hip bones and rib cages are alll starting to bulge out already!!! Then my bum is getting flatter... LOL... THe one place that didn't change much.... my tummy -.- Its still as bulgy and flabby as before... sian.... I only want my tummy to be flat lar.... all the other places I am happy with it liao.... haha.... but anyway... I wonder how long will it last :S haha... later a few months down the road I'll gain back all my weight and my tummy will grow even bigger :P

K lar... nothing much to blog about.... dun feel like working my mind now... oh... here's how I look after 2 months in tekong slimming center :P haha... 3 more weeks to POP!

:D Muahaha~ lol... Just came back today... feeling very sian because of some army stuffs which I will whine about later... then I saw 2 letters on my table... The first one I pick up was from SMU.... And on the front of the letter was printed Congratulations.. LOL... I quickly tore open the envelope and read the letter :D I've secured a place in SMU :D Yay! Haha... Then I saw the other letter was from NTU... and :D I got admitted there too :) Then I looked around... hmm... no NUS letter yet....

Anyway... I'm glad that I got into SMU... Haha... I was still worring about getting a place there because the competition this year is very intense. Its 8 people vying for only 1 place. And cos I had high fever on that day of the interview, I was worried that I didn't do as well... But then.... I still made it :D Haha... I pass the interview even though my body is burning with a temperature of 39.4 degree lol...

Hmm.... didn't expect the letter to come so fast. Cos I thought results will only come out in may... somemore I got 1 friend who was called for interview next week for the same course... but duno why I was admitted before he even got interviewed.... weird...

Life for the past week in camp is sucky... I've been deprived of a lot of sleep... haiz... we had range till 3am on thursday night. Then after everything is settled we slept at 4.... Then the next day we had to wake up at 7.... Then at night I kena guard duty... so friday night also can't get a good rest... Haiz....

But still there were some interesting thing lar... at range I was firing in the rain... lol... so fun... u are soaked and have to take aim with water dripping all over ur rifle... Then the rear sight aperture also always get bubbles then u have to blow to burst the bubble before u can take aim... Then when u fire the recoil makes the water splash around... haha... so fun...

Haiz... this will be my last bookout for some time.... next week cannot book out already... cos its field camp.... sian ar... I heard that ulysses field camp is one of the xiong-est.... Think I'm gonna die down there... 7 days of hell.... but haiz... no matter what I still have to go tru it... so yar... the faster its done the better.... after field camp I think life would be a little bit better liao... cos its almost back to ptp phase where we do all the physical training.....

K lar... so the next time I'll blog would be about 2 weeks time... or maybe 3 weeks cos I think I would be so tired after the field camp that I wun feel like blogging....

See ya~

haiz... so sian ar!!! Really hate army life.... The only thing that kept me going on is that I keep telling myself. No matter what happens, no matter how hard or how sian it is... time still passes by.... and soon it will all be over. Even if you get tekan... get punished.... time will not stop.... with every breath you take, it takes you seconds closer to the day everything ends. And this is how I pass everyday... clinging on to the thought that time will never pause.

This may be the last weekend that I can relax myself. After this.... everything will be very packed.... when I go back, I'll be having range for the week, then I book out for a short weekend then have to go back again... but that stay would be long cos it will be the confinement week before the field camp. So I wun be able to book out until 2 weeks later.... but that book out won't be enjoyable as well, cos once I go back. I'll have my sit test.... and its another 3 days of torture.... then.... haiz.... 1 month will pass just like that... and its just another month to go before my POP....

Haiz... oh well... I can't escape it... so.... just have to tell myself... time never stops. The 6th of june is my POP date. It will not change....

K lar... dun talk about army things liao...

Anyway... went for a little family gathering last week and saw my cousin. She told me that mdm lee know about my results :D HAha.... hmm... I think if I have a chance to go back to yj I'll go pay her a visit... haha... but duno when will it be... maybe 2 years later :S haha....

Nothing much liao.... very sian now... haiz... tonight is the last night I'll be sleeping at home before another week later.... I really miss sleeping at home... the kind of feeling is very different. When you wake up in the morning. The monent you open your eyes. You don't see the coldness of the bunk. You feel warm... you know this is your home, your room....

Haiz... I really hate army life...........

I'm really getting very sick of army life.... I feel like I'm just a walking flesh and bone.... a body without a soul.... a zombie....

The past week in there is horrible....

I hope it would be better this week...

thats all for now... bye... going back there in a few hours time...

another week has passed.... now just 10 more weeks left :D Yay! Life was still managable... did countless of push-ups.... nothing much happened this week... did the usual things.... time passed by easily this week.... perhaps cos its only like 4 days in camp.... compared to the initial 14 days of the confinement week....

As time passes by... people make friends... and some make enemies... People start to realise the true character of others.... There was few incident that really make me feel disgusted at the character of some people.... Its very obvious that the person is being very 'wayang' (likes to act very enthu in front of the commander) In front of the commanders they like act very helpful... sometime people slower abit they would help... but back in the bunk they dun even help their own section mates, their section mates have to come over to my section to seek help....

But luckily my section is still fine :) We don't have such people around. Although there is this 1 guy in my bunk that my whole section don't really like. But still, its considered a small problem compared to those people mentioned above. Its just that he's too reliant on others to help him do things and he gives up easily. Take for example... the tying of the rope to the tent pins. I showed him how to tie one already... then without even trying. He pushed all the rest to me and asked me to tie for him.... Another incident was the tying of shoe laces. He asked my friend to tie for him time after time and dosen't make an effort to learn.

Anyway... we still have 10 more weeks to go... so we shall see..... haha...

I haven't been really enjoying this bookout... cos I was down with fever... The peak temperature was 39.5 .... I booked out on friday morning... spent the afternoon sleeping... wake up for dinner and TV then go back to sleep again... the next morning went for interview... after that spent the whole afternoon sleeping again.... Then at night watched some TV and went back to sleep again... Then it sunday already... and I have to go back to tekong soon.... I'm feeling better now... the fever has subsided.... now I have a running nose and a cough....

Lets talk about the interview. I woke up the morning with my fever at the peak of 39.5 .... but still I went for the interview.... I felt like I was almost dying during the MRT ride.... There was one point of time when there is this sudden outburst of sweat.... My whole body suddenly started to sweat alot.... I was feeling very terrible then.... I almost felt like alighting and taking a cab home.... but then after a while... the sweat started to dry up and my fever went down. I felt cool... I guess its my body trying to emergency cooldown my body... After that all was well.. I was feeling more alert already. But then I'm still not in the top condition to go for an interview.

The interview was so so lar.... I dun think I did well... but also not bad either. The interview was a 8 interviewee to 2 professors discussion style. So... I realised that some people are really smoking their way tru... haha... they actually know nothing but act like they know :P There is this discussion about GM and Ford vs the other japanese car companies. Then this girl was like keep saying how good GM and Ford is, how is it uncomparable to the japanese companies... but the professor say that they are facing bankruptcy.... The girl was stunned... lol... Its hilarious to see the expression on her face... haha... then she started to talk cock again to weave another story to get herself out of the shit... lol....

Then there is this other one... The prof was like saying that in business u also need knowledge of some other things as well... Business is not a standalone thing... you could be doing business dealing with engineering stuffs, medical stuffs or many others... Then somehow it leads to the question of the choice of university. Then there is this girl that answered without thinking... yar she agree with the prof.... so she say NUS is a better choice as we get to mingle with students from other faculty.... Then I asked her a question.... Then why are we all here for the interview? Why don't we all go NUS? lol.... She was also stunned... and the prof also started laughing... haha... Some people really nv take time to think before they talk....

After that was essay writing... Wrote a crappy piece of essay.... The question given was... "Tell a friend about your favourite film" ..... After 4 months of not writing any essay.... and given such a question... Its already a great feat to be able to produce something... haha....

So yar.... lets just pray that I can make it ba.... :) Thats all for this week... see ya in another weeks time :) Bye~