Haiz.... feeling abit lost now.... duno what to do.... so sian..... Felt like sleeping.... but I dun want to waste this week end away.....

Its the time of the day where I sit down in front of my com.... reflecting on the things that happen today and write my entry for my blog :)

Today was quite a nice day :) Had some tutorials and lecture.... then the slacking period.... So yar... was rather slack for today.... Then the day ended with a PE lesson..... So yar.... nothing much to talk about..... OKie..... lets talk about yesterday :)

Remember yesterday I was talking about someone who like to interupt people.... well.... I think I shall not continue to comment on it lar.... its quite a trival matter and it has already pass.... so I won't want to bring it up again.....

So yar... shall share something with you all :) Yesterday during IT club we were analysing some movies..... so yar.... then there is this movie titled ' Patch Adams' It find the movie very interesting.... Its roughly about a genius who enrolled himself into a mental hospital. And like to hold 4 fingers up and ask people how many fingers they see. Then this adams.... also enrolled himself into the mental hospital I guess is to find out the answer to the genius's question. Its rougly like that cos I didn't watch the full show. We only analyse a few scenes for its camera angle. So yar... lets continue.... everyone's reply to the genius's question is 4, which the genius says is the wrong answer. So this adams went up to him and asked for the correct answer. So after some talking, the genius asked the adams to hold up his 4 fingers and tell him how many he sees..... At first he also said 4.... but the genius asked him to look beyond the fingers.... and he finally got the answer which is 8. Cos when its out of focus, you see a double image.
So yar.... duno if you all can understand wad I type or not.... but well.... the moral of the story is. Too not focus too much on the problem. Look beyond the problem..... and you will find the answer.

Interesting hur :D haha..... felt that this is a great movie. So i fyou all haven't watch it, you can try renting it or borrowing it from someone who has it. :D

So after watching the movie. It inspires me to change my blog design again :D haha..... cos yar.... you know.... my blog is about viewing the world from my perspective. So..... I hope I can see beyond what other people sees and see the truth. After which I can share what I have seen with the rest of you here :D
HAha.... so yar.... am now working on the design. But this will take quite some time. Cos I am currently now also learning about action script. So yar. hope I can make my blog more interactive and professional :D Hmm.... meanwhile.... just stick to this pond design :D

Thats all for today :D Tmr is friday le :D The end of a week's school day. :D So yar.... tmr night can play games again le :D And stay up late as well :D Looking forward to it :) OKay.... bye~ And hope that you will have a fruitful day tmr :) Dun waste your last school day of the week away :)

:D yay!!! haha..... was about to do my maths tutorial when I realised that...... My tutorial book is not with me :D:D:D haha..... cos in the afternoon soo fen wanted to do maths but didn't bring the book so I lend her. But.... I received a call and went off..... and forgotten all about the book until now :S Hehe.... so yar.... no book = no need to do :P Haha..... think its fate that I wun have to do anything tonight :D So yar... here I am slacking :)

Okay.... today went for animation club again..... almost bored to death there..... but I notice something...... Some people like to interupt someone who is presenting..... Which I find it very annoying. The presenter wasn't me...... but I can feel that kind of irritation.....

Actually not really in the mood to type now.... feeling a bit tired..... will type more tmr ba...... had a long day.... so yar... shall stop here now.... bye~

OMG :D haha.... just came across this flash site. Very CUTE !!!!! haha.... you all watch the intro to the site. The power plug very cute :D haha.....

http://www.powerbright.com/v3/powerbright_intro.html

Hope you enjoy :D

Haiz..... monday is going to be over soon in a few more hours..... time really flies.... today was just like any other normal day.... nothing special to share.....
Feeling very tired the whole day..... had a mild cold. So yar...... End off here today liao :) Bye~

Its the end of another weekend again..... kind of sian.... although had friday as an extention to the break as it was a public holiday.... Still not enough leh......

Yesterday went up to my cousin house to fix him com.... then spent half the day there. Before going to my grandma's house for dinner..... Then yar..... a day gone liao..... But okay lar.... watch Shrek 2 at his house :) Haha.... witness why it was such a hit. The movie is really very funny :) Then when I got home after dinner. Started studying integration liao.... haiz.... monday got test. But.... still didn't 'ill treat' myself :P haha.... also had some dose of game that night :D Then studied about 1/2 of it then left the rest till today.

Today spent the whole day studying + watching TV...... I like do 3-4 question then break and watch movie.... after that do 3-4 question before watching TV again.... haha..... repeated this for the whole afternoon.

Haiz.... tmr will be the start of a new week liao. Time really flies..... before I know it..... I will be typing my entry for the last study day of the week (friday)...... So yar..... wish all of you a nice week ahead. Make good use of your given time. And do something meaningful :) Bye~

Hello :D Its 11.07 now :)

Eh.... haha.... think I should stop starting my entry like this :S Cos I had a hard time trying to track my previous post. Cos.... they only show the first sentence from each entry. So when I was trying to find my previous entry.... I had to open each entry one by one to look at the next few sentence :S

Anyway... went shopping for new year clothes today :) Heard quite some good comments about queensway shopping center so decided to check it out :) So yar.... took the MRT to queenstown. Alighted then went to the bus stop. But.... I duno which bus to take!!! lol.... then I look around... and saw a group of young people dressed up like they are going shopping like that. Then I guess... they should be going to the place I'm heading for ba.... cos I think there arn't any other place around that area. Then yar.... the some bus arrived and I see not many people boarding. Then waited and waited... finally a bus came... and everyone stood up and crowd around the entrance. Then I thought to myself.... that must be the one I need to take. :P So yar... took the gamble and boarded the bus..... and I was right :D haha.... after a few stops... everyone starts to alight..... then I also follow suit :P Haha.... and then I reached my destination. Went into the shopping center..... wow.... IT WAS SO DAMN CROWDED!!! haha..... walk around for a while.... then went out..... cos its impossible to get anything with that kind of crowd :S .... I decided to walk elsewhere first until about 5 or 6 pm when everyone was going for lunch before I go back in there.
so yar.... left the place and went to IKEA :) which was nearby...... IKEA was also very crowded..... Then walk around.... then saw an interesting thing. There was this TV that caught my attention.... cos you know.... the TV there on display are mostly fake. But this one was real.... and guess what really caught my attention..... The video they were playing was.... " How to watch television " LOL..... haha..... so yar.... I stop and watch the video..... there was quite some tips for making your television viewing more confortable. Like the distance between you and the TV.... how do you guage. Then video suggest that..... you hold up your fist toward the TV.... your fist should cover the screen of the TV..... I thought that was quite interesting cos what I knew was that we must stay away from the screen from duno how much distance.... haha..... then.... yar.... stayed there quite a while......

After that.... went to anchor point to walk around.... was looking for a music store to look at some CDs..... but they only have a Poh Kim there which sells VCDs .... felt abit thirsty so went to 7-11 to get some drinks. Then I got 'Bu Shuang' drink.... first time drinking it although it was introduced quite some time ago..... It is like milky soda water..... Not too bad.... better then plain soda water cos the milk smoothen the taste :)
So yar.... after walking around enjoying the air con..... its about 5 already.... so I went back into the shopping center. This time round it was better..... but still very crowded.... but heck..... I'll just join in the crowd :D .... Bought 3 T-shirts 1 shirt and 1 cargo pants..... Haha.... the price there was rather low compared to those bought in town.

Haha.... Then went into this shop. 'Gen apparel' The service there quite nice.... the person there very good at sales. haha..... I went into the shop. at first was looking at a t shirt only..... then after I decided on the T shirt..... the person there ask me to get a long pants as well.... then I said okay...... so he choose one for me.... I tried it on and found it rather nice.... so I took it..... then after that hor..... the person ask me to look for a matching shirt :S.... haha.... then he took one out.... I see also not bad... tried it on.... then also bought it :S LOL.... haha..... Well... maybe some people will say that I am a 'victim' of sales. But.... I'm happy to be a victim :D Haha.... cos the person is really nice :) You know.... sometime people such as me... whom dun have fashion sense..... walk into a shop.... and duno what to buy..... but that person explains things to me..... he told me what type of clothes are fashionable. Whats the fashion trend in color. What occasion can I wear the clothes..... he really fill me with lots of information..... and thats very important for people whom dun have even a single idea on fashion. Most importantly..... I can see the effort he tried to melt this ice-berg (me) .... You know I sometimes can really freeze up and become very cold to people. I dun smile and I dun speak..... but this person tried to make me talk.... you know.... just now actually I dun really feel like smiling.... but I kind of feel bad if I don't smile. cos I appreciate the effort. So in the end.... I smiled :D And that smile stayed on my face for the rest of the day.... When I go into other shops.... I dun feel such friendliness.... I guess the service industry really need such people around :)

So yar... before I left the shop. The person asked me to help promote his shop and gave me a name card. If you are those people like me... whom needs someone to guide you on fashion, like friendly service, dun mind having to buy 3 pieces instead of a intended 1 . Heres the shop for you :)
" Gen apparel 1 queensway shopping center #02-40A "

After I bought my things... I left to meet up with the rest of my family at bugis for dinner..... but we didn't eat there in the end cos it was too crowded!!!! It seems that the whole singapore is out shopping :S .....

Guess thats all for today :) Bye~ and have a nice day tmr :)

RE: The topic on life and death.

Thanks to all whom have reply :) Well.... guess my perspective about this matter has changed. So yar.... I shall close off this topic with this post. Otherwise if this carries on, I will start crapping and make no sense :S

I understand that people will be sad if I choose to die. But read the following.

" What do you say to friends who say " I'm sure you will get well soon"? Whats the basis of their faith that I'm actually not dying, but merely undergoing a phase that will be temporary before life starts kicking in again? Do they know someting I don't?The enthusiasm to believe that I will get better is based on the reluctance to think about the concept of death.You don't comfort me with your assurance that I won't die, because escaping death is not what I'm longing for. What I'm longing for is for you to understand what death is. Look it in the eye and see it for what it is. And then you'll see that understanding death is the only one and true liberation... "
This is from a cancer patient's blog. Which won a duno wad blogging award of the year. I've also posted a comment on this in my past entry. Now I shall bring it up again.

I know its kind of different but.... its the same when its come to understanding death. Like what the last sentence said. " And then you'll see that understanding death is the only one and true liberation. "
So actually.... I'm choosing to accept death, and not choosing to die. Because we don't have a choice.... we all have to die anyway. So lets just accept it.

And if I were to be trapped in the open sea for 10 days..... Wad would I do..... Hmmm...... I guess I will try to survive on anything that I have. Then when there is nothing else.... I will just close my eyes...... pray for my family and friends...... and when I feel that my body cannot make it anymore...... I will just leave this world peacefully.....

And talking about the people whom survived. Is it really Love that kept them strong? Or izzit greed? or is love = greed? You have spent so many years with your loved ones already.... so why do you want more? Issit because you love them? Or izzit greed that says.... hey.... thats not enough.... I want more! ?

Aiya.... actually.... this thing is kind of complicated lar..... I haven't have much life experience.... so I can't really comment on this matter and make my stand. But well.... I just want to write down some of my thoughts on this matter :)

And... I guess... I won't be commenting much in future. Cos you know.... I start to feel that I'm crapping too much :S and things dosen't make sense : So yar.... Although I won't be commenting much. If you all still got anything you want to share with me or with everyone else you all still can post in the shoutbox :) I dun mind even if you flood like minzhong :P haha.... just dun flood crap can liao :)

OKay.... once again.... thanks to all whom have commented :)
And have a nice weekend ahead :D Bye~

Hello!!!!! Its 7.44am in the MORNING now :D Haha.... Woke up quite early today cos yesterday night I slept a 8 pm..... so I slept for a total of 11+ hours!!!! haha.... finally cleared the sleep debt I owed :P Cos yar.... the the past few days.... really very deprived of sleep. Actually, didn't intent to sleep this long. Cos yesterday my eyes were rather tired. So after watching TV till 8. I wanted to just lie on the bed and rest my eye..... but then..... I fell asleep and the next thing I know..... Its already 7 in the morning liao!!!! LOL..... Missed a whole night of games and surfing the net :P haha.... so yar..... came online now cos there isn't any thing on TV at this time of the day..... haha....

Hmm.... lets talk about yesterday.... yesterday was erm..... quite fine. As usual, thursday was a rather slacking day because there is only 2 tutorials and the rest of the time are either lectures, PC/CT period or Student dialoge. Then yesterday skipped the dialoge session cos they held it in the hall again, then Its a torture to sit in the hall for 1 whole hr. Then also we won't be easily caught cos we can blend in with the J1s :P there is also one other reason that I feel its not very convienient to say it here lar :P
So yar... we skipped the dialoge and slacked in the library for 1 hr reading comics.
Then yesterday... everyone started calling sen min a 'pang say kia' ( one who always leaves the crowd and join the other ) duno iZzit the correct meaning or not. But something like that lar :P haha..... I think very bad lor. He got very good friends elsewhere lor, then we all keep saying he 'pang say' us. He will feel bad one lor. Such strong friendship are not easy to build up. So he should cherish it.

OKay... thats all for now :) Bye~

Reply to Kerling :

"life is not solely abt oneself. cos everyone meant something to others. we shld feel depressed but nv to give up"

Hmm.... I agree with you. Life is not only about yourself. Everyone means something to others.

But... I have this idea of the differences between giving up and letting go.

Giving up is like. you are dissappointed with life. You feel that life is no longer meaningful. That you have no value in this world anymore....

But letting go is like..... you underestand that it is your time to go already. The one cycle of life has already ended for you. You are not dissappointed with life, but just understanding what it is. E.g. you can be very happy with your life, but when its time for you to go, you would leave. You would let go. Its more positive and peaceful compared to giving up.

Therefore, hmm..... that brings me to another question. When you are terminally ill, or have disablilties. ANd you decided to end your life. Are you giving up? or letting go?

Do you think that you no longer have any future therefore you give up.

Or. do you think that this cycle of life has ended for you. And you let go?

Well.... after some thoughts..... I think yup... my previous view point ( previous entry) has been changed. I will not try to end my life when I find that I am disabled. Cos that is not counted as giving up. Your life cycle hasn't ended yet. There can still be a future if you try hard enough.

But if I am terminally ill. Or going to die soon. I would choose to let myself die. I won't continue taking the medcine or using machines to prolong my life because there is really no more future for me. I guess that is letting go. When I am ill and can have almost zero chance of recovering. WHy would I cling on to life? I will let go.... I will not take any medication or plug myself to some machines and cling on to life. I would spend the remaining time usefully and leave this world when my time is up...... I think this is called letting go.....

Whahaha..... well I'm starting to crap alot again :S Hope it makes sense. Cos its 10.41 now... I am really really very tired and sleepy. I only saw his msg at around 10.15 when I finish my earlier entry.... but I will feel uneasy if I don't reply now :S haha.... so yar... hope I make sense. :) If not... i will try to improve on it the next time I come online :)
OKay... bye~

Hmm.... time really passes by very fast... only did a few maths question and its already 9.50 now.

Well.... today had the first IT club session. Then.... hmm... I tried to be friendly lar, mix around with people. But hor.... I scared I overdid it. Cos yar.... I was usually the shy shy type. Then cos today got new comers I tried to talk more. But you know.... when I start to talk more and more..... I get more and more carried away...... then I will speak louder and louder. And things start to go beyond control..... Argh.... I intented to leave a good impression, but I scared I didn't..... Sometimes I really would like to have a video camera recording down whatever I do..... then when there is a need to, I can rewind the tape and look at myself. you know.... cos normally you can't really see youself. So what ever action you do. You won't be able to know how it look like. Maybe you know. when doing that action you feel quite normal and natural. But when others look at it, it may be disgusting. Or no need for other to look at it. When you yourself look at it. You may find it disgusting as well. So yar...... hope that I can have a chance to look at myself and evaluate myself. You know..... to observe and comment on other people is so easy. but when you want to look at yourself, it isn't. Cos you can't see yourself clearly.... You look up straight. You can see everything in front of you, if its unblocked, you can see miles and miles away. But.... can you see your own feet? can you see the shoe you are wearing. Can you see the mud you have on your shoe. You can see so far ahead. But yet. you can't see the thing nearer to you. So yar..... hope that I will have a chance to bend down my head. To look at the things right under myself.

Hmm... another thing..... I finally knew how little I know about flash action scripting already..... Cos yar... me and another friend decided to revamp the school website. So yar.... the teacher showed us the .fla file for the website...... and OMG.... I see one whole page of action script that I dun understand!!!! LOL.... then the teacher slowly break down the parts of the script and explain.... Haha..... I finally realise how powerful flash is. No wonder this software is so successful. With scripting right.... you can actually 'talk' to the computer..... and anything would be possible if you can communicate. So yar..... I want to learn the action script. and come up with a little Singlish to action script dictionary for myself. SO next time when I need to do anything. I can just 'talk' to the computer with the help of this dictionary :P

Haha..... well thats all for today. Had a tiring day... spent like almost the whole day in school. So yar.... gonna go and sleep now :D Bye~ And.... tmr is the last day of this week liao :D:D:D So yup.... people..... bear with it for anther day and we will have 3 days of break :D:D:D:D:D BYe~

Note: I know this entry is long. But if you got time you can try reading it. The later part of this entry has my views of life and death. So if you all are interested to know how I feel about it. Please read on :)

Hello :D ITs 5.30 now :D yay.... haha didn;t have to stay for econs remedial today cos our class wasn't down for it :D So yar.... came home not so late today :P can't say its early cos its still late :

So yup... today there are some addition to our class. A few of the china PSC or izzit PRC? NVM.... just some scholars from china will be joining us for school this term. They already spent a year studying english at the NTU.... then duno why, they were sent here for 3 months before continuing their studies at the NTU :
So yar.... among them there is this girl named jiang lan. Haha.... quite pretty :D :P Hope my future wife will look like this :P haha.... she got those ancient chinese beauty look. Not those modern chinese looks which is either too nerdy or too bitchy :P Haha.....

Hmm... then on the way some something happened. When I got into the train on the way home. I was sitting beside this aged dumb ( meaning disablilties in speech) man sitting beside me..... so yar..... then there is this indian man sitting in the opposite row. ( he the only man of other races in the cabin ) So yar..... after a few stations the person sitting beside the indian man got off the train. Then the dumb man sitting beside me moved over to sit beside the indian man. Well... at first I was wondering why he moved over to the other side. Then I thought that I smell cos I just had PE. Then didn't bother about it. But a few stations later. the dumb man suddely stood us and accused the indian man for elbowing him. ( I think is an accuse, or it might just be an accident. Cos I think it wasn't on purpose. ) So yar.... cos the old man was dumb he could only make noises and he pointed his finger at the indian man, then to the floor in front of him. A typical action for " you! come out here and fight) then the old man went into fighting position with his arms held up and feet apart. Then he kept repeating this action. At first the indian man didn't bother. But after being provoked for some time. The indian man got angry and pointed his umbrella at him. Then a passenger sitting beside sense a fight is going to break out soon. SO he tried to stop the two of them, but futile. Then luckily there is this MRT staff on board whom is able to stop the old man. So yar.... things went peaceful again as the two person were sitted apart from each other. But another few stops later. the MRT staff alighted. THen when the old man saw it. He came over to the indian man and started doing the actions again. But this time the indian man didn't retaliate. Then when the indian man reached his destination stop. He alighted. then the old man followed him out!!!! OMG..... then the train left and I dun know what happens after that. I guess..... if nothing was done to stop the old man. He could have followed the indian man home. Or a fight might break out.

hmm.... I guess right, judging from what happened. I think the old man isn't really mad lar. Guess he can't take the fact that he is dumb. I guess he lost his speech at a later part of his life. Thats why he cannot take the blow. Cos you imagine, life is normal and fine then one day you lost your speech. And not only that. you also would lose your job. you lose your status in the society..... you get looked down, despised by people..... You lost everything is such a short time..... can you take it. And because he is quite old. you know.... his temperament may not be good. He seeks people whom he could push the blame to. To let off his stress. Or even, he look for people to bully. To show that he is not a useless person without his speech. He wants to show that he is not weak! .... And...
So I guess.... the old man already found his target while sitting beside me. Cos old people have more prejudice against people with different skin color. So... suay suay.... that indian man is the only male person with a darker skin color. That made him a very prominent target. He was also dress in a shit and pants, those normal office look. That made look more weak. As you know... old people may think that educated people are weaker in terms of physical strength. So yar.... that unlucky indian man was targeted this time.
So when the chance arises to pick up a fight, the old man took it. He used a traditional method of provoking people. You know like those Ah bengs who purposely knock into someone's shoulder but in turn accused the person of knocking into him. And use this reason for the basis for a fight.

Haiz.... pity the dumb old man and the indian man. The old man cos.... he is really pitiful. Can you imagine that like tonight you sleep. THen tmr you wake up and fins that you can't speak. How would you feel? Just overnight, your entire life changed you know. You will lose all you friends and teacher you have know and be sent to a special school. You will have problems communicating your needs. Your dream job will be impossible. You can't date the girl you like. Maybe you even stay single all your life. YOUR FUTURE practically ENDED just overnight.... CAN YOU TAKE THE BLOW? you know. its easy to say Eee... this man siao one. Crazy lunatic. But... do you understand the pain he went through? If you were him. Would you be able to take it?

Hmm.... for me right. I guess I also cannot take it lor. You know. I would end my life. There is really no point clinging on to life. You may say that there are people whom loves you and wish you would live. But.... everyone would have to die in the end. I will still have to part with my love ones one day. So it dosen't make a difference whether I die now or later.
We must try to understand life and death. Like the chinese saying " sheng lao bing shi " Birth, Aged, Sickness, Death..... this is a cycle of life every human being have to go through. When our time is up. We will leave. Just make sure that you have gone through this cycle without regrets. You know you somehow contributed to this world. Then that I think, is enough..... So yar... this applies to the death of other people as well. You dun need to cry like siao when your loved one leave. Yes. you can feel sad. But also appreciate that no one can escape life and death. When you know that person dies without regret. You have once spend time with them, share their knowledge, give and accepted their love. Then that I think will be enough. They will always live in our hearts......

Wahahaha..... haha.... okay.... lets have a change of mood here :D haha.... typed a lot today. Cos yar. wanted to share my point of view of life and death. You know :D haha.... like what my blog title is " View it from my perspective " I would like to share my perspective to life :) to the things I see... to the things I feel.
So yar.... the above is how I view death at this moment in time. Cos I haven't really lost any of my loved ones before. SO yar.... this view is only valid for this period of time. If really someone whom I love die. It might change my view of death totally. My views changes.... just like people do. Maybe someday I might gain more enlightenment and have more mature and enlightened views. Meanwhile, this is what I feel and it is open for discussion :) I am open to other people's opinion. And my view may be influenced by it.

Okie.... guess this is really getting long.... Shall end it here liao :D Bye~ And have a nice day tmr :)

Hello :D Haha... I'm back again.... well.... haiz... was doing my hw just now. Then cos tmr dun have some lessons so I dun feel like doing the work for that subject :P haha.... guess I am getting really lazy here..... Haiz... duno leh.... my brain just resist the thought of doing my work...... Haiz.... hope this will get by soon. Cos I see that the people around me are really studying liao.... and me.... still slacking..... so yar.... hope I can find my motivation to study..... Hmm.... actually I'm really afraid lor. The standard I am at now really cannot make it for A lvls. Then I see all around me. People are already starting to study. Starting my revision.... but me? I'm still slacking and doing the minimal. That is really bad. Well.... guess for the next few days I have to work out my revision plan liao. Hope it can keep me on task and won't cramp everything till the last minute. Haiz......... STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!! Must start to psyco myself liao..... NO MORE SLACKING!!!! Well actually I plan to study from 8 till 10 everynight. No more, no less either. Cos I beileve that we must balance our studies and relaxing time. So after 2 hrs of study. I will have about 1/2 hr of using computer and after that sleep. I guess 2 hrs is the maximum I can go. otherwise i will be so tired that nothing will go into my brain. Then I also dun want to go less than 2 hrs cos I want to prevent me from slacking. So yar..... Have been keeping this plan till a few days before when I start to slack again.... like now.... its only 9.30 and I am using my com liao!!!! This is bad... real bad.... Hmm..... think I really have to get serious and keep to my plan. Hope after today I will be able to do it ;) Wish me luck :D

Oh yar.... today went to popular and as usual. I will go to the horoscope section. I read a book on the chinese zodiac for the year of rooster. It says that this year, the rabbit offened the tai sui. So there will be trouble this year. My lucky item would be a quarz crystal. Hmm..... haha..... maybe when I have a chance I would get one for myself to keep me safe for the year. cos yar.... I really dun want anything to happen. This year will be taking my A levels. I really wanted to do well for it cos I am not satisfied with my O lvl result. So yar.... hope these little things will give me the motivation and power to work hard for it :)

Okay.... thats all for today :) Gonna go sleep now.... tmr will be a long day.... still have econs remedial : HAiz.... See ya :)

Hihi :D its only 4.30 now :D haha... my only early day of the week :'( Cos for the coming days I will have to stay back in school for either remedials or CCA.....
Hmm.... today was so so.... normal day at school. Haha.... in the morning tricked sen min that we have a maths test and he missed it :P haha... Well.... nothing much to say lar..... so shall end it here liao :) bye bye~

:D time for another entry :) Haha..... had been quite busy for the past days so didn't say much in my entries.... Okay... so heres wad happened over the weekends in one single post :)

Friday :)

Friday was erm... quite a nice day..... not too much tutorials mostly lectures and breaks. Hmm... oh... then there is the chinese lesson.... the lesson was rather boring..... keeps talking about the history of translation.... dosen't interest me at all..... So yar.... think it was a total waste of time. Well... guess this is the first lesson so the lecturer wanted to give us an introduction to translation. So yar. Hope we can get to learn the skills of translation from the next lesson onwards and not waste time on such unnessary stuffs again.
So yar.... after the lesson.. Something happened. Cos everyone had something on and had to stay back in school, the only people left were me and sen min. So yar... on the way back. Met some classmates + schoolmates. But duno why, my bad habit starts to come again. Immediately, I frost up and there is this thick ice barrier between me and those people.

I can see them,

but I can't reach them,

I touch the barrier that seperates us....

it was cold.

I tried to warm up....

to melt the wall.....

but.....

the cold was too intense....

So yar..... I started to walk further and further from them. And soon..... I was alone...... I duno why this happen..... but..... I just can't control myself......

On the way back.... I kept thinking to myself. Why is this happening??? But.... I didn't get the answer.....

So yar.... the day ends with sadness.......

But nvm.... I still played games and enjoy using the computer :D haha...... Craved for it for a week... and I finally get to use it for long hours liao :D

Okay..... then there is Saturday....

saturday was erm... not too bad. Was about to go shopping for new year clothes when I received a call from kerling to watch movie. Went to watch Meet the Fockers..... not bad :) Had lots of laughs. but that day kerling wasn't himself. Well... dun want to talk too much about this..... so yar....

Lets go on :D

Today is Sunday!!!! Time really pass very fast. the weekend is going to be over in a few more hours. And I will have to endure another 5 more grueling ( duno correct word :S ) week ahead..... Haiz.... so sian..... but well..... must always look on the bright side :) This week's studying day is only 4 days :D as friday is a public holiday :D haha...... so yar.... got something to fuel me through this 4 days liao :)

Okay lastly..... My new design :D Haha.... I personally felt that this is a pretty nice design. cos everytime I visit my blog to write my entry. I am not greeted by something dark and cold..... this gives me a relax feeling. Hmm.... got plans to include a background music and a tinge of red. I find that there is one color that is lacking. SO yar.... some red dragonflies will do the trick :D So yar... be sure to come back often to see the new changes :D

Thats all for today :D Have a enjoyable week ahead :D Bye~

Yay!!! haha..... my new dseign is up :D haha.... this is still in testing stage. Cos I haven't add in some things yet. But :D Hope ya like it :)

I wanted to get rid of the cold mechanical feel of my previous design. Cos I think a blog should give a viewer a nice and warm feeling. SO yar :D came up with this design :D haha....

But that is not all yet. Cos I just started to do this 3-4 hrs ago. I haven't had time to add in details. So yar.... hope next week will have time to add it in. So you can look forward to more things like my personal details, and dragonflies too :D

So got any comments feel free to leave a note in the shoutbox :D Criticism are also welcomed :D

Okay.... will write the entry on my life tmr. Now quite late and tired liao. Though it looks simple.... the work is very tedious.....
So yar. Hope ya like it, and goodnight :)

Yay!!!! Its finally friday night :) Haha.... was looking forward to this for the entire week. I can finally get some rest le :D haha.... so now going to sleep le. Will post about today's events tmr :D BYE~ Have a nice weekend ahead too :D

Yay!!! Its thurday night already :D haha.... in a while I will be going to sleep.... then the next moment I open up my eyes it will be friday!!!! haha.... the last day of the week :D Lessons tmr are basically quite relax, with tutorials only for GP maths and econs. GP= slacking time.... so left only 2 hrs of lessons. Then lecture want to listen listen, dun want to listen stone.... dun need to scared the teacher calling upon you cos there are so many people in the lecture :) And for the last few period we will have chinese enrichment :) They went to sign us up for a course on translation of common words used during business dealings. Though I know it si fun but I think it won't be of much use to us. Cos, I think there wil be no need to learn translation from chinese to english for businessmen from china. Cos by the time we grow up, the new batch of people of china would already have learned english themselves. So there is no need for us. I that I rather do the business course in chinese which the previous batch of students took. Well.... at least the knowledge of how to do business would be of more use than to learn how to translate.
Hmm.... then after that go home dun do work le :D haha.... will be playing the comp at night :D Haha.... had been a week since I do anything else other than blogging and surfing for a tiny little while :)
SO yar.... lets talk about today :D Today was erm... quite okay :) During PC/CT period we elected our class chairman who is Andy :D haha.... quite unexpected cos he is a super slacker!!! :P But well... I voted for him cos I think that we need someone different to lead. When we get a slacker to lead. Then we would all have a easy life slacking :) haha.... cos I guess sometimes the best leader is one who slacks :P Ehh... duno how to explain. For example. like the student council ( hope I am not offending anyone here :S) . when the leader tries to much to be a leader. Many unhappy things will happen. Well... can't really explain what I feel here.... but... I just want to make a point that I voted for him not because I think it funny. But I do really hope to have a leader who is not 'law by law' :D
Haha.... yar.... then today also went for PE and we did running again.... now my leg are aching like mad...... due to the run on tuesday..... argh..... but well.... guess I have to bear with it :) I really dun want to get into the army so early, so I am trying to perservere and get a silver for my NAPFA.
So after this we went for physics remedial. Woo.... the school is starting to prepare for A lvls so soon. We are already starting to revise last year's work right from chapter one again. And this is only the second week of school reopening and the FIRST week of lessons. But well... I do not hate it. rather I find it very good :) Cos time is really running out so we really need to work harder :)
Okay.... think that will be all for today :) Hope you all enjoy the last school day of the week and have a wonderfull weekend enjoying :)

BYE~ :D

:) Today was erm... quite a nice day... but it could have been better. Rather slack today.... had lecture.... then maths tutorial teacher nv come, so slacked a bit. Physics was showing us some experiments. So just dit back relax and listen. So the day ended at 2. Then waited an hour for an school feat ( duno how to spell it... first time I hear this word :S ) So yar... we were all tied up in one whole chain together with two other JC 1 classes, blindfolded and made to walk around the school, going throught obstacles. It should have been fun, if there weren't some communication and manaagement problem. We were made to wait and wait. Cos there are traffic jam all over the place and the person who is supposed to lead us went missing. So that really spoils the fun. We were also made to stand in the field forming the word yishun. and we took a very long time. Cos there were no one person giving out the commands. Every faciliator were trying to make their own letters. And everything was in a mess. I think there should be someone standing at higher ground who would give out instructions cos the facilitors are at ground level so they can't really see the formation. So yar..... all these stuffs made something that is supposed to be fun an chore.
I also heard that the planning commitee was also in chaos. I guess..... you know.... like the law of diminishing returns in economics. When too many people try to lead. It often make matters worst.

Well.... this has been a tiring day for me..... cos even early in the morning, I'm feeling very deprived of sleep. Then this long day of waiting and waiting made me more tired. So yar... gonna sleep soon :)
Just a point to note....... TOday is the end of wednesday le :D Which means 2 more days to go before weekends :D:D:D Haha.... looking forward to having a good night sleep on friday :D
Okay... see ya.... and hope this gives you motivation to endure another 2 more days :D

Hello :) Well.... its the second day of lessons le :) .... Hmm.... quite okay lar today.... went for the first PE lesson for the year :) Did some running..... Then basically..... everything is still the same. Nothing special happened.... Juz another day in school...........
Oh btw..... since I just did something for GP I shall share abit here :) During GP we came across a word paradox lar.... so the teacher asked us to go home look for some paradox.... So yar... I did a quick google search and found this thing on wikipedia.

I am lying now.

Do you find this sentence a bit weird? haha.... so you are lying that you are lying? That means you are saying the truth. but then why did you say you are lying?

Haha..... so yar.... this is one of the simplier ones i found lar. there are other more cheem and interesting paradoxes :) So yar... if you all got nothing better to do. Can try looking for it :)

Okay... shall end it off here :) Bye~ haha.... 3 more days to go before the weekends :D haha.... am looking forward to it cos then I will have time to catch up with some sleep ( very sleep deprived now ) and also continue to do my anime :) Bye~

Hello :D.... today was erm.... think the official start of lesson ba.... haha.... had some surprises.... firstly... we no longer have a home classroom liao.... so we will wander around the school after every lessons... while the teachers just stay in class.... I think this is rather stupid... why make the whole class move around when you can have just a few teachers going around... they want us to be punctual for lessons. But when a whole group of people move... the speed will be very slow mah.... so will actually eat into the lessons... Well... they wanted a system to be more like a Uni, but.... I think this is not very feasible at JC level lar....
So yar... haiz... first day of school already quite some things to do..... cos during the holiday haven't been keeping up with work. SO now have to rush everything out..... So yar... just did a nre GP hw just now.... and tried to do some long over due maths tutorial. As for econs... perhaps tmr ba... today really very tired already. So well... lessons today were quite relax, maybe cos its the first lesson of the year and the teachers and us duno each other yet.
Oh... and about the chinese test by MOE..... its a new format of paper that will be given to the coming batches of students. So we are there to test it out. Well... the first part of the paper which is compo is unchanged, still 1 and a half hour, write something out with the help of the dictionary. But this time round, the questions given are rather different. Well... you still get the continue the story type of question, but it was somehow different. I nv do that type of question for a long time liao so I not sure the specific changes. But for the discussive questions. They now no longer give you a few sentences and ask you to comment on it. It is more like social studies style where they give you a source and ask you to comment on it. The questions given are really more cheem as in, you have to read widely to have sufficient content to answer the question. So yar... heng I not gonna have this kind of paper :)
But on the other hand, the second part of the paper is quite easy. THe whole format of paper two is changed. We no longer have tian xie han zhi, and li jie wen da. Well.... there is still something that is similar to li jie wen da. but, they no longer give like 5, one sentence question to ask you to answer. They will have some phrases missing in the passage then they ask you fill it in given a multiple choice. Then they also ask you to explain some things that happened in the passage. I found it rather interesting. Cos it is no longer like last time where you just copy and re write everything from the passage. This requires you to be able to think and understand the passage and not just blind copying, cos there is nothing you can copy from the passage. So overall for paper two. I feel that is a a very good attempt by the MOE and this sure got rid of those things that I hate about chinese. :D But there are some minor marks allocation problem. Cos... haha.... it either they give too much marks or too little lines to write on, some question seemed abit unbalanced.
Oh yar.... while going home. I got another surprise...... when walking down the pathway to the gate. I saw a crowd near the gate. Then I realised that we have to scan our ez-link card everytime we enter and leave the school. And dunno why, since they school want to use such system, they should invest a little bit mroe to get those reader like those at the MRT station. They are now using a scanner to scan the bar code on the ez-link card. This is extremely troublesome cos now I have to take our my ezlink card from my wallet everyday and increase the chance of losing it. And becaue this action of taking it in and out and the scanner not so sensitive. It caused a huge jam at the gate..... I think in such an old school like YJ, there isn;t a need to go hi-tech cos there arn't the proper infrastructure there.
Oh yar.... haha.... something rather interesting happened in GP class today :P Haha... cos I have a classmate named jean. So yar, we were playing a ice breaking game. So this guy from my class chou chun was chosen to asnwer a question. ' if you can change your name, what would it be? ' And you know wad..... haha..... he said he wanted to change it to levis...... haha...... LOL..... can guess the meaning liao? (levis jean) haha.... Wah.... lol.... love is in the air :P haha... so daring sia... 'biao bai' in class :P

Haha.... so yar... think thats all for today :) Bye~

Hello.... Bye... Lol...
haha.... very sian now... dun feel like writing... SO shall write tmr :) Bye~ Have a nice week ahead too :D

yay!!! haha... remember in the previous entry I said something about a new anime drawing :)
Hahaa... I Finally finished the head of the person :D haha..... so give you all a sneak preview :D
Cos the final one will not be up anytime soon. THere is still a female character not done yet.... then the beakground :)
So yar... just a teaser :)



heres the full view ;)
http://www.deviantart.com/view/13915692/

Hope ya like it :D

Hmm.... I'm back again :) Its saturday now..... the first week of school is over :) Also gone with it is the first round of test for the year.... Well..... actually not over yet..... our class suay suay got chosen for an chinese anchor test by the MOE.... Sian... so still have to take another tet on monday..... haiz..... Anyway..... I think I will do very very badly for the test.... cos I really didn't prepare...... Not in the mood lar.... duno why..... feeling kind of weird now..... there is some part of myself telling me to start doing work liao.... there is not much time yet..... but there is the other part of myself which keeps resisting these thoughts.....
I think the holiday mode haven't off yet because the lessons haven't officially start lar.... so I hope by the end of next week I can get back into studying mode... otherwise I will be in deep shit....
These few days in school was well okay lar..... on friday.... was asked to help with the CCA exhibition..... haha... I know nothing about whats going to happen... I only received a SMS about the day before to gather people to set up the booth. But.... think its also good that I'm not organising lar... still remembered that time when I did it for the school open house..... was a total failure man.... lol.... I always think everything is so easy... so I have big ideas... but impractical ones... :S .... haha.... just like a few days ago when I tried to make chocolate covered papaya.... haha.... cos that time had a 2 day break before physics test..... so well... study sian liao hands become itchy so wanted to do something..... So I went to the fridge to see wad can I play with.... so I saw this bar of chocolate and a papaya.... so yar..... I thought it was easy... but when I did it.... it was hell...... and the final product was like shit..... lol..... the appearance was a total turn off :S ..... haha... so I ate all the papayas that I played with.... and I my stomach feels weird for the whole day..... cos I did it in the morning after I ate a bun for my breakfast.....
haha..... anyway..... I've been starting on a new anime drawing :) Well... think it was a improvement from the previous works I did.... cos I finally got to know how to use the pencil tool in photoshop le :) So the lines are smoother and coloured. And not like last time when I scanned in the outline which was rough and only in black and white. My drawing skills also improved quite a bit. now I try to do more details. Cos I find that the good works are often very detailed.
So yar.... hope this would be a new leap in my drawing of anime :)
Oh yar.... just remembered..... I did something very impolite and hmm.... hope I get a chance to say sorry.... but haiz.... if I don't get that chance..... well.... at least heaven knows I didn't mean to..... SORRY......

Okay... thats all for today :) Bye~

Hello.... hmm..... my blog seems kind of crappy now.... had been a long time since I have a decent entry.... wad typing all crap for the past few times.... and also.... I think people no longer visit my blog liao.... Kind of quiet here.... partly because I got no content ba....
BUt really.... life these days really very boring.... so I also have nothing much to type about.....

But for today... shall share with you people about something I saw on the first day to school. I was aboard the train.... then there is this 2 indian man who walk in and stood in front of me.... I noticed that one of the guy was extremely skinny. the other had a nondescript face ( duno use correct word or not :S ) ..... so yar.... didn't bother about them.... then after a while.... I notice something weird about the skinny guy.... he kept swaying and swaying....... cos I was sitting down.... my direct view was at his hip... well... I didn't bother much.... until I start to notice that his hand were also very 'ah gua' .... then I felt that something is wrong with the guy liao..... So I looked up..... and almost puked..... the two guys were talking..... then the skinny guy use his hand to tease the other's chin..... Sick man!!!! so okay.... I know they are likely to be a gay couple liao.....
I have nothing against gays.... but I dun like 'Ah gua' !!!!! Its very disgusting!!!!!

so yar.... first day of school morning already met with such incident liao.... wonder how would the rest of the year be....

I think this year will be a tabulent one.... ( is that a correct word again... :S ) cos.... so many things happened at the start of the year.... the tsunami and stuffs..... At first I thought 'da nan bu shi bi you hou fu' but now.... dun think so.... we haven't get over the 'nan' yet... so the 'fu' won't come anytime soon.....
But still Hope for the best this year :)

Lalalala..... time for another entry :) But actually nothing much also.... so ya...bye~ Maybe tmr ba :P NOt in the mood to blog now :S

Hello.... today is the first day of school.... well... nothing much lar.... in the morning see all the new students waiting for their friends....

Then well.... proceeded to have our GP test... sian lar.... first thing that happen in school is the test liao....

Anyway...... there are quite a lot of changes for our class..... we have some how merged with the class next door..... so we have a total of 24 people again.... that means there are 9 new classmates...... Haiz.... then our CT is our GP teacher Zzz... and mdm lee won't be teaching us econs anymore...... wonder who will it be...... And the canteen also changed vendors liao..... those people whom I am familiar with are all gone..... so.... it feels like going into a new canteen again..... then the economic rice stall whom I frequent the auntie change liao.... now she speaks English!!!! That kind of 'qing qie' feeling is gone.... I like to speak chinese...... so yar.... may be going there less often liao..... Well.... I guess the thing that remain the same would be our classroom. We got back our old classroom.... which was.... well.... got advantage and disadvantage lar.... cos that classroom very dark.... so when it gets a little dirty.... the whole class look like shit.... but the advantage is that it is just beside the canteen. SO we can stayed longer in the canteen or rush to the canteen to grab something between lessons.....
Thats all for today liao..... bye~

Oh... I think I got out of my depression liao :)

Okay.... its 7 now.... and I think this is the last time I will be coming online tonight. Can't stay up late anymore liao.... Haiz... school will be starting tmr.... then have to wake up at 6 again..... So sian... why can't school start at 10.... So yar....

But now still not in the mood for school leh... feeling kind of weird..... I want to study..... but my body just won;t move :S .... my brain just not absorbing anything..... so hmm.... think I am going to do very badly for the test..... Haiz.....

Haiz... now I'm just worried that I can't get to sleep tonight..... cos I slept until about 12 then wake up... then 'nua' in my bed in the afternoon..... SO I'm very scared that I can't sleep tonight... Never study already very bad liao.... but now... if I go for the test with a sleepy mind.... then confirm die liao :S .....

..... thats all for today.....
Wish all of you people a nice school term ahead :)

Oh No!!!! Haha.... think I'm really dead now.... was trying to study econs.... but everything is in a mess and I not in the mood to study!!!! Die liao.... think tmr will be crapping tru the econs paper :S......

Am feeling very bad now...... very very sad...... why does this have to happen to me..... it really broke my heart..... am very dissappointed at some people and some things that happened....

nvm......

I live for myself and will get on with life

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I gave in to fate......

:S feel so dead now... tmr is the last day before school reopens..... and I still haven't prepare for the exams!!!! .... haha... hope I can finish either econs or maths tonight.... :S
Anyway.... haiz.... I think I shouldn't complain so much about me being alone yesterday..... Well. at least I got some online people to spend it with me...
But just now when I watch the news... I almost cried.... but I held it back cos :S Dun wan my grandma to see me crying..... It was so sad..... there was this report that showing the situation of yesterday's countdown in other countries.... The images was so touching..... haiz.... so that made me think of those whom loved ones died in the tsunami.... how would they feel yesterday? I only dun have friends with me.... but they lost their loved ones FOREVER..... So yar..... I should feel blessed and not complain so much....
K lar... thats all for now.... bye~