Hello everyone :D haha.... has been quite some time since my last entry :) Glad to see people posting in the shoutbox :D I'm feeling better now Thanks for your concern :) Haha... learnt to take things easy. See... now I even have the time to update my blog :D Haha.... was very touch to see 2 friends leaving messages in my shoutbox. Haha.... you all put a smile on my face :D Thanks :)
Okie.... was really very busy these few days so didn't have a chance to update my blog or even some computer stuffs. I don't even have the time to change the songs in my MP3 player!!!... I've been listening to the same few songs every morning for almost 3 weeks!!!! haha.... gonna change it later :)
Wow.... its already 10.01pm..... gonna sleep liao. Though I didn't type much, I'm feeling very happy right now. Cos you know, sometime these small little things can make your life more colorful. They can give you comfort, that you are not alone in this world. That someone still cares about you. Someone still bother to even leave a msg for you. So I'm really thankful to the 2 who left messages. You gave me the power, the energy to endure through the hardships of life. Thanks.
haha... a bit exaggerating hor :P But :)

Haiz... has been quite some time since my last entry.
Life really sux these few days..... things are all going wrong..... I'm having headaches now and then.... so much things to do. So little time..... I am really very very tired now.
My head is aching now as I type. What has happen to me? Have I reach my limits? This pain in my mind..... what should I do? or rather, what can I not do? I really hate this kind of life I'm leading now. I want to be like what I was in my secondary and primary school. Live each day without worries. I must learn to take things easy.
I wanted to try out a different life..... but it seems that I'm not suitable for it and I reach my limits. I no longer have energy to strive for more. I've exhausted all my will power... my energy.... Life like this terrible. I've learned my lesson. Enough is enough. You know, I haven't been really happy for a long long time. Everyday in school, yar, I laugh, but.... this kind of laugher dosen't come from with-in. its just other people laugh, you laugh with them. Wad has happen to my cheerfulness? My optimism to life? Have I chose the wrong path to take? I really miss the life I used to lead before.
A normal life can be meaningful, why bother to take part in so much things to make life difficult for yourself? Argh... this pain.... its back again..... I really need a break, otherwise at this rate..... I may damage my brain.....
You know, I tried to take breaks whenever I can.... but it dosen't seem to be effective. Sometimes like, when there are not too much homework. I will rest for that night, don't do any homework. Then get some sleep. But.... haiz.... it is not effective!!!! I'm really in need of some help here........
Just thinking..... when was the last time I did something which I liked? When was the last time I truly laughed? When was the last time I slept without worries? From what I can remember, it was during the OBS camp, the china trip. Where I had nothing to worry about, no deadlines to rush. Why can't life be that simple. Or is life already simple, just that I made it difficult for myself? Yes, it was I who made life difficult......
Okay, heres what I shall try to do..... I shall live each day without worries. Do what I can each day, don't over stress myself. Try to be happy. Put happiness as the top piority. I SHALL NOT WORRY TOO MUCH ANYMORE!!!!
lets just see if someone can really live a life without worries. Haiz... hope my next entry would contain good memories :)

Ok lar, since I'm here shall take this time to update my blog. Haha... had been very very busy the past few days doing PW so didn't have time to blog. Haha... okie so heres wad had been happening the past few days.
PW!! Haha... was really slogging my guts out (is there such a phrase?) for pw :P Haha.... managed to complete some things, but there are still a lot of things undone!!! So yar, predict that I will continue to be very busy for the next few days, so you might not see me blog as often liao.
Chinese A lvl oral!!! haha... just had chinese oral yesterday.... Haiz... think I just pass lor cos the conversation topic I didn't talk much. Then the reading part, first part was okay, but when I stumble upon a cheem word in the middle part, then after that became very nervous and started making mistakes.... Haiz....
Lastly, I've been voted a the president of IT club :D Haha... my 3rd leadership role in YJ :) Haha... thanks for those who voted for me. I guess most of my votes came from the seniors cos the J1 don't really know me enough to vote for me. The seniors... hehe... cos was with them for first 3 months and won sliver award at their own internal web design competition, so got an impression of me. Then now I dunno why, suddenly very 'on' lor, joined all the 3 competitons.... so yar, maybe thats why I got voted. At first I was just thinking of getting the secetary post can liao. Cos dun think I got enough energy left to hold a higher post. I already start to have trouble catching up with school work liao. And there is the PW and 3 more competitions. So yar... it came as a surprise for me.
Other than being mentally tired, I'm also physically push to the limits as well. I ran 8 rounds which is 3.2km no stop. Haha.... the longest distance I've ran non-stop. Haha... to you may be a bit easy, but to me, its a great achievement.
Ok lar... haiz.... hope that all this 'busy-ness' will end at the end of this year, so I can focus on my A lvls next year. Cos the 3 competitions and PW will end this year. So I guess I've gain enough CCA points and experience. So next year, I can return to my normal 'slacking state' with the only aim to get good results in the A lvl.
Shall end this post here :) Bye~ Hope to post soon :P

Yo! Haha.. feeling better today. But still no mood to do homework :D Haha... 10++++ liao... need to sleep now :D
HAha... just came online to reassure you that I'm alright liao :D Yesterday maybe too bored until brain go a bit haywire. Haha... Thanks for those who care :D Bye~

Yo! Haha.. feeling better today. But still no mood to do homework :D Haha... 10++++ liao... need to sleep now :D
HAha... just came online to reassure you that I'm alright liao :D Yesterday maybe too bored until brain go a bit haywire. Haha... Thanks for those who care :D Bye~

HAiz... today hasn't been a good day for me... Loniness found me again... kind of wasted this long weekend.

Haiz... shall use this time to reflect on myself. Haiz... I need someone whom I can look for when I'm bored. When I'm feeling down.... haiz... too bad in my circle of friends... theres no one I can look for. This picture best describe my feeling now.

Who can be the one who can find myself for me? Who will always be there whenever I need him/her? Who can share my joys and sorrows? NO ONE yet at the moment. i feel like I'm all alone in this world. While I'm typing this, theres this pain in my heart. If friend, you are reading this entry. pls send me a msg that you will be there for me.

Haiz... the feeling of loniness is unbearable. If friend, when you are lonely as well, or need someone to share your joys and sorrows, I'll be more than happy to be by your side.

Haiz... thats why hor. I also hope to start relationship. To be able to find someone whom I can talk to when I'm lonely... someone who will always be there for me. Cos you know, you can't like sms to another guy talking about those things right. Later people think you are a gay. Unless you are very good buddies lar. But hor, to find someone isn't easy at all. I'm now like 'duno wad to do'.... haiz... so I think shall leave this thing to fate lor....

Haiz... friend ar friend.... don't let me continue dwelling in loniness... show me that you all care. I need you now~

*heartbreak*

Haiz.... its sunday again.... Quite boring lar.... Haiz... have to do many econs and physics HW... so sian.... Still got PW survey to rush.... haiz....

This week hasen't been a really good week for me... lots of unpleasent things happened to me. Firstly I was late for school 2 times this week liao :| Its not I wake up late or anything lor. The first time is I walk half-way to the MRT station liao then suddenly realise that I didn't bring my PE attire!!! Then have to run back home, get it and run all the way to the MRT station.... Then second time is beacuse its raining and I had to wait so long before that stupid bus came and I almost could'nt board the bus.... haiz.......

Then still got that stupid maths test yesterday.... Haiz... roughly counted my marks.... Fail liao lar -__- Duno why that stupid school set such a difficult paper lor.... A lot of questions we never see before one leh.....

Actually hor... also nothing much to write about. K lar... just talk about my feeling right now. I kind of feel very sleepy lor. Have the kind of feeling that there are so many things to do but hor 'li bu chong xin' lor. Haiz... kind of feeling so sad now. These few days like also no mood to post leh... maybe because of these unhappy events happening lor. Haiz guess shall end here lar.
Hope that my next post would be a happy one :)

Haiz.... today is a friday but I can't afford to stay up late tonight. I got a maths test tmr :'( !!! Haiz... life sux. It could have been a long weekend for me with the youth day holiday. But my saturday will be taken up by this stupid test. Worst still I have IT club tmr afternoon!!!!! Haiz... studpi school, always eat up our wednesday CCA day, then now we have to do CCA on saturday :|

Haiz... I'm felling very tired now. Sacrificed my 7.00pm TV serial for studies :| Haiz... tmr better get good result otherwise this sacrifice will not be worth it :(.

JC life really sux, no wonder my friend just suddenly cannot take it and went poly. It was really a surprise for the whole class. All along his result was quite ok and he even went to OCS with us on tuesday and never mention a thing about going poly, then the next day he nv come school liao. Gave a call to teacher and we nv got to see him again. Haiz... so sad. Our class has one less hardworking people liao... haiz... but I think hor, people like him go poly is kind of a waste. He really have good attitude towards study.

Haiz... duno why hor, these few days like nothing to talk about leh. Or actually its a lot of things to talk about, but I don't have the 'feeling' to write it down leh.... Feeling kind of weird these days.... Ok lar, got maths test tmr. Got to sleep early. So bye~

Haiz... kind of sian now. Had quite a long day today. Haiz.... very tired now. Was very happy today. Brought my will power to the test during PE today. Haha... and I managed to get quite good results :D
Hmm... tonight also nothing much lar. Dun want to waste time posting so much crap. So shall end here now.
Bye~

yay!!! after physics test tmr... finally got a little afternoon to relax myself :D Cos tmr after physics test, there will be no more lessons as MINDEF is coming to give us a talk. Then after that we will be visiting the officer cadet school. Haha.... So yar~ Can stop doing work for that afternoon. Then~ Next monday holiday again!!! Haha.... finally got another full day break. :D it will be a long weekend for me :) Can do work more slowly liao. Cos today had headache in school.... argh....
Actually nothing much to talk about~ Just wanna share this thing from my GP compre. Its about our brain power.

This paragraph is talking about how powerful a baby's mind can be. Here's some quotes:

'For some time after birth, his mother remains the extention of his own body she was during the months within her womb. The discovery that he has a unique identity, although seems obvious to us, is actually an intellectual concept in its own way as brilliant as anything we subsequently achieve.'
Yar~ So after reading this, I was like hmmm.... yar hor, how do we discover that we have our own unique identity?

'We are born only with the potential to attain such understanding, not with any ready-made mental image of the way our surroundings look, sound, feel. All must be painstakingly learned as the brain constructs, from literally billions of nerve signals, a world of images and noises, touch and tastes. From babble of information, the infant's brain rapidly discovers how to construct a world of shapes and color that is both consistent and meaningful'
So you can see how much brainpower a child needs....

Haha... so I shall end here for today. Let us marvel at the complexity of life.

Haiz... having a headache now.... Lots of work to do.... got physics test on wednesday followed by maths test on saturday... haiz... tmr still need to go for PW meeting.... Argh!!! Then still got maths tutorial to rush, physics tutorial to complete all by thursday wednesday!!!! Argh.... my headache getting worst.... Haiz... first day of school already like that liao.... Then somemore my maths teacher said, this is the decision you made 3 months ago... its too late to turn back, so you will just have to bear with it :| And she said that maths is going to be very tough with 2 major topics coming up. TRIGO!!! AND DIFFERENTIATION!!! thats wad made my a-maths grade drop and now they are back to haunt me..... Haiz... yar, just like she said, this is the path that I chose to take, BUT do I really have a choice? Going to a jc is the shortest way to the Uni... So wad choice do I have left? Haiz.... Life is so meaningless, they got this quote saying life is all about choices... yar right... thats bullshit. Yes, you can make choices, but you will have to bear the consequences. Life isn't that fair afterall...
Ok lar... should stop grumbling liao.... haha later scare away all my visitors.
Came across this quote today during GP. 'Even a stopped clock is right twice a day'
Hmm... wad do you all think of this quote? My interpretation of it is that even if you are as useless as a stopped clock... there are times where you are useful.
Hmm... does the society now tolerate any mistakes? If you are useless, would the society give you chance to make yourself useful? I believe not... So in order to survive in this society today... you can't be a stopped clock. Even if you really stopped, you still have to push yourself and manually turn the hands of the clock every now and then to keep up with the time. Otherwise, you would just be thrown into the rubbish bin~
Haha... I think I kind of not feeling very good today.... typed so much things. but I hope that these things do make some sense, and you readers will take some time to ponder over the points I made. Theres a shoutbox beside for you to post your views too :D
Think its enough for today. Hope tmr will be a better day. Goodnight~ :)

Its the second day since I came back from china. think I won't be posting anything more about the trip. Nothing much to talk anyway....
Haiz.... its the second day liao.... started to feel abit bored....
Kind of miss dining with the people in the trip. You know, for the past few weeks... those people are like my family, we ate every meal together. You know.... then we will comment on the food, chat about whats going on.... we are just like a little family... I really love that feeling. But now.... haiz.... don't get the chance liao.... the atmosphere during meals is so different..... I wonder when can we get together to have another meal........
You know, now I have this feeling that cant be described with words.... It is almost the same as losing someone, loniness. We had so much fun during the 2 weeks.... why can't life continue like that?
Sad~

Special Edition: China CIP Trip

Yo! Finally settled down in china. Haha... had a quite boring day. Am very tired now. Zzzz... But haha, the earlier part of the day was very lonely and boring. But now finally settled down and met my roommate, things started getting better, haha, at least got people to talk to. Saw many interesting things today but I think I won't be writing down. Just write down my thoughts enough. Very sleepy now. Hope tmr will be a better day. Bye~
Tanbk@10-6-04

Yo! Its the second day of my stay at the hostal liao. Its now only about 5pm, but they having break so here I am, writing my entry. haha.. Things start to become better liao. Finally went out to the classes to make friends. The people here are very very friendly. Haha... got to sit beside someone who resembles rong zuo!!! Haha... not only size lookalike his personality also very similar. Then also met the class monitor of the class. Haha... then follow them to have lesson lor. First lesson they had is maths. haha... their maths is the same topic we are studying now!!! I was like Uh oh... die... I didn't revise my work so I don't know how to do almost everything :P Haha... haiz... who ask my so lazy :P So yar~ then half-way tru the lesson, a bell sounded and music played. Haha... they had this practise here that 2 times a day, they will stop to massage their eyes. I was like -____- !. They already had morning exercise and now this....After that lesson carried on. Then finally lesson over the guys went to play basketball, so I tagged along lor. Midway 2 girls approached us to talk about singapore. The people here are very inquisitive, haha, can't imagine singaporeans doing that :P OOoo... just realised that I've written quite a number of pages :P Got quite a lot of things to say. And btw, the food here is fansistic!!! We are treated even better than the principal here.... You know, when we dine we are given a special room which look 100% like a chinese restaurant, while the teachers and principal eat at the canteen!! And while we are dining, there will be one person standing by to serve us leh!!! Woah... we are really treated like VIPs. The service here is also very good. The hostal was intended to be 6 person share 1 room, but because of us they change it to 3 per room. And every morning still got ROOM SERVICE!!! one leh.... I was really -__- !!! Wahahaha... I talk so much today... about the living enviroment, you have to take a look at the photo or you will never believe how nice we are treated.... got to go now. Bye~
Tanbk@11-6-04

Arlow!!! Has been quite some time since my last entry... was very tired for the past few days so didn't write any entry. Lots of very interesting things happen. During the weekend, we went to shao xing. Then went to their places of interest :) Those places are quite boring lar. See those exibits about those people like lu xun... I was like bored to geath... but we finally got a chane to stay in a hotel!! Finally had a very very nice and long bath and a think comfy bed and blanket through the night. Still got TV somemore!!!. Then watched the jacky wu show, guess guess guess. They found a 'urine man' That sicko made his family drink urine!!! They even have a urine lollipop, and a whole bath tub of urine for bathing!!! I really wonder how they go out on the streets after washing themselves with urine.... Then hor they even have a 10 yr urine used for treating wounds!!! Me and my roommate are screaming and 'eeing' while the show is one... It is so disgusting!!!! Then whie we are there finally got a chance to do shopping. Bought lots of potato chips!!! Haha, the flavours are so special. Then have the chilli crab flavour, five spice fish flavour and peking duck flavour!!! But I wonder how am I going to bring it back to singapore. Actually now hor nothing to write liao... cos just now got interrupted as I need to go for lesson... OS yar~ now brain blank blank liao. So I'll just end here for today
Tanbk@16-6-04

16-6-04 cont...
Yo! Backed here writing. Just went to have a bath and have some spare time before going for debrief.... Haha... So lets talk about something. Recently a girl caught my attention. She is the kind of girl that I always wanted lor. You know ... have courtesy, quite average looks and got this feeling that she is also motherly as well. You know, on the point of courtesy. I find that she is some sort of like me lor, always put other people piority above self. And one indicator that she has very good background is that she pushed in her chair after meals lor. OF cos I also do that lar. But you know, the whole table only me and her pushed in the chair lor. So that gave me a very good impression of her. About her looks, yar though she is not those very pretty kind, but I think its pretty enough for me lor. Cos I also not very suave either :P. So yar~ then the motherly part, this morning saw her hanging out her clothes to dry after washing lor, so this gave me a impression that she will make a perfect wife in future... And one more point, from how she dress. I can some sort of infer that she is not those kind of people who to town like from everynow and then or go clubbing and all those sort of not very 'decent' things. So yar~ I think I finally found what I'm looking for lor, but hor... I think its still early to go in depth into relationship lor. Must observe her a bit more first. So okie shall end here.
Tanbk@16-6-04

Yo!!! Got free time again so here I am writing my entry :D. Haha... today almost the same thing happen lor, but in the morning we gave the class a english lesson... Haha, things didn't go s smoothly as we thought. Our english also not very good either, so we taught a few mistakes... but overall managed to finish the lesson... today, I finally realised how VIP we are.... They even let us plant a tree in the school~~~~ I was like -__- Wah..., we so tua bai ar!!!! haha... then thats about all for today... And about the girl I like... haha, duno if I have mistaken or not, I think , got some indications from her liao.... duno is it real or not. :P Ok yar~ there is also this other guy who like want to try to woo here, kind of always stick to her... Guess I'll try to pay more attention to her to let the guy have minimal contact with her. But I believe that I am better than him, if I really lose to him, I'll just wish the girl good luck for the rest of her life. Cos thee few days living with him (he's my roommate) Hm.... can tell that he will not make a good husband, though he can be a good boyfriend... So haha, wish me good luck and maybe you all will get to attend my wedding dinner in 4 yrs time :P Then have babies after another 2 yrs, cos need to get a job first :P Then I can be a father at the age of 24!!!! Then I can retire at the age of 55, when my child will be already 31, then I will have grand children too!!! Then I can enjoy the rest of my life after 55 ont he money given by my children and maybe grandchild and maybe from some investments and savings :) Then I can like go abroad once a year. A 4 room HDB is good enough for me... and I will choose a location near to thje community center and take part in all sorts of activities and make friends and even organise some activities and get to mix around with young people :D Whahaha.... talk cock sia... but I really hope I can live this kind of life in future... :D
Think thats enough for today. Bye~
Tanbk@17-6-04

Yo!!! has been some time since my last entry, was busy making presends to give my class, so was quite busy. Haha.. now lying on my bed writing this entry... kind of sleepy now... received quit a number of presents from the student here :) Haiz... Okie~ shall share some gossip about myself :D. Haha... just learned that news started spreading... but now feeling confused, should I go for it? Do I really like her?
Tanbk@21-6-04

More entry in the next post. Very tired now :P Happy reading :)

Yo! Holiday has finally arrived for the rest of my schoolmates, and they we all glad that they can finally enjoy their holiday. But for me... I will be going off to china tmr morning!!!! Haha.... and when I come back, it will be the last second day of the school holiday!!!! So yar.... my hoildays are gone~
But not to worry, this is also a very nice time to escape from the singapore lifestyle. Haha... I have put everything on hold and will enjoy myself to the fullest for the last 2 weeks of holiday. Cos I think that I've already done enough and I 'wen xin wu qui'. Cos I attended every single lesson for the past 2 weeks which is a holiday for people in other schools. I have done my part and I deserve this rest. Haha... but I have to prepare for tons of work piled up for the holidays :P.
Okie~ Now... hmmm..... tmr will be flying to china liao. But the feeling now is a bit 'weird' I don't really feel excited about it. Hmmm... really hope I can enjoy and learn things from the trip. Haha... really can't describe the feeling now.
For the regular 'customers' to my blog. Haha... you all gonna miss my post for 2 weeks :P But here's something worth waiting for. I will be carrying a notebook with me, and I will try to write down my blog every night. Then when I come back, I will publish a special edition entry for you all to read until siao :) And perhaps I may upload pictures online for all to see :D Haha... so yar~ good things are worth waiting for :)
Okie think I shall end my entry here. But just a reminder. Hey if you all miss me hor :P Feel free to leave a message in the shoutbox :D you know, it will be very touching to see people leaving message when you are not around :D Or if you really miss me until got lots of things to say to me. You all can e-mail me :D
Okie~ Goodbye everyone. See ya again in 2 weeks time :D BYE~ Aww... can bear to leave you people :'(
Haha... ok lar... really bye liao :P Wish me bon voyage :D

Arlow everybody :D Haha... was very tired yesterday so didn't blog. Haha... yesterday was quite a nice day :D Finally went out to 'see the world' rather than be a 'jing di zhi wa'. So yesterday morning went school till 2pm, after tat went home to rest a while before going out again. Haha... saw joan ong on the way home. Haha... she is in JJC now. I almost couldn't recognise her, she is very very slim now. Haha... then talk a while then continue walking home liao. After resting, went out to suntec. Was intended to visit elgin who went for the singapore idol audition. But sms him nv reply. So decided to meet my cousins who are also shopping there. After meeting talk talk a while then went for dinner. Then after dinner my cousin and I went to expo for the PC show. But this year the PC show seemed very 'quiet' like got no atmosphere one. After walking like less than a minute, the announcement came that they are closing in 15 minutes time, I was like Hur? 8pm only leh. So we faster walk walk then go to Palmone booth to hide hide :P haha... then went to visit james and minzhong who are working there. Haha... heard from them that business not very good. After that go home lor.

Then today also very sian, rot the whole afternoon at home. Then at night went to buy things for my china trip. Haiz... boring day. Somehow, I don't feel excited about going china. Think is beacuse of the people whom I'm going with lar. Cos you know most of them are the chinese A students, then all the nerd nerd kind of face, then also no common topic to talk about. But luckily there is a more 'normal' gal from my class going. So yar...

Haiz... actually a lot of thoughts these few days, but somehow don't have to feeling to post it in my blog. I just feel like just wanna pour out all my fustration? or wad ever here. So haha... hope you people reading my blog can give a listening 'eye'. lol.

Okie~ Thats all for today Bye~

Aww.... haiz... had chinese oral today. Think I fail already. Duno why am I so nervous. I kind of have the same feeling as that time when I took my staff sergeant test. Haiz... I keep forgeting a lot of things and my brain cannot process information and think. It was like completely blank. Maybe because I was in an unfamiliar enviroment cos normally we have oral like there is a table in between then can rest my hand or somewhat play with my hand so as to make me calm down. but this time round there isn't any table, then my hands keep trembling. Somemore, this time round it in an enclosed area, I took the oral in the control room. Haiz.... luckily this is not the actual A-lvl oral exam or I sure die. Hope I won't be so nervous during the actual A lvls.
Okie enough for today. Haiz... nowadays my hands getting itchy liao. I want to buy new 'toys'!!!! Haha... feels like I haven't quite spent any money to buy 'toys' for myself. Haha... So I prepared some money, not too much, to spent on the PC show :D Haha... I'll be going tmr, see if there is any fun and cute little things that are not too expensive to pamper myself :P Haha... think I'm still like a kid hur :P only that my 'toys' are now more expensive :P
Haiz... nowadays also quite busy. After blogging I'll have to go back to do my PW, was at it the whole afternoon. Hope to finish it during the weekends :D Think thats enough for today :) BYE~

Sian AR!!!!!!!! Deadline for the stage 1 of PW is due this weekend!!!! And there is still so much things to do....
Then there is also a lot of things to be done. Haiz... kind of have this 'zhi tao ku chi' feeling. Cos I brought all this upon myself. Who ask me go and be so enthu, sign up for so many things.
Haiz... let me see what are the things I have not done.
1)My PW deadline!!!
2)I'll be flying off to china next thursday and I have not packed a single thing yet!!!
3)I have now officially signed up for the flash movie competition due in november!!!
4)I also sign up for video production....

Argh!!! Really have to stop liao. Otherwise later fail my promos, everything wasted sia..... Now I finally feel the stress of JC life!!! Haiz... but I keep telling myself. Just bear with it for 1 more year. 1 more year and everything will be over. 1 year is a very very short time. Like this I've already endured for 6 months. So 1 year is nothing to me :P Haha.... haiz... life is so meaningless. Hmm.. I guess after my A lvl, and after my NS, I will go NIE to train to be a teacher :D Haha... then I will teach my students well so that they will have a more meaningful time in school :D

Okie lar~ I think thats all for tonight :D ByE~

Life is so meaningless. Haiz... was thinking of why I exist in this world. Saw this picture yesterday



Makes me recall the days during OBS. You know, during that time, life was back to the basics. There are no TVs, no computers, no handphone, no school,no homework, no exams. It is just plain survival. I think I enjoyed the camp alot. During that time, my mind is free of stress. I do not have to worry about what homework have I not done, what exams are coming, or even, whether my computer is going to crash again. Everything was so relax.

The title of that picture is [Better than TV]. Yar~ A simple flower could be much better than a complex TV. Can you imagine yourself as that character in the picture. Under the stars and squating down on the field. Looking at the flower. In your mind, you think of nothing, you feel light~ A gentle breeze.

How I wish my life would be like that of the character in the picture. But will it ever be possible?

OH no... I got this feeling that my com is going to crash again. Cos my programs are starting to crash one by one. Firstly, my dreamweaver crashed. Then my sis complain that gunbound also got problem. Then now, my bittorent also crashed. Argh!!!! I thought I finally can enjoy a stable system. Then now... haiz... I don't wish to reformat everthing again. But I can't seem to find the problem. So now, have to play safe. Need to back-up all my files first, in case suddenly one day really crash I still got my files. Haiz... now no mood to talk about wad happened today liao. Bye~ go and back-up files now.

HAiz... another day has passed. Haiz... now in a holiday mood liao. No mood to do tutorials leh.... Haiz... I just want to slack. But I have no time to do that. My PW schedule is so damn packed, I can hardly find time to relax myself. Then still have that flash movie competition. Haiz... need to get my registration form submitted soon. The flash movie is half-way in production liao, left a few scenes and adding sound effect nia. But I have really no time to do that. Then I'll be flying off to china end of next week and I haven't prepare a single thing yet. Haiz... then today also had a test. Argh.... worked my brain to its full poetntial during the test. Now I'm feeling very very weak. I guess I shall get myself a good night sleep and leave everything till tmr. As the saying goes ' chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi ' Let nature take its course.

And something I realise recently. I've been erm how to say it. My jaws are like you know when you bite, your jaws close in hard on each other. Yar... it has been like that lately. I wonder if I'm really suffering from such serious mental stress that I've been doing this thing. Life is really very very busy and stressful right now. Wonder if I have the strength to pull through this 1 more year of mental suffering.

Wish me good luck, or I might end up in mental hospital.

Haiz... early in the morning already so sian liao... Later still have to go school sia.... 4hrs of maths in a row. Will go crazy sia. Haha

Yay... went to css carnival yesterday with my old classmates :D Haha... css 40yrs old liao :D Then went to see mrs tan :D our 4/6 form teacher. Haiz... but didn't get to see mrs yeo. So sad leh.... she always go home so early. Long time no see her liao. :D Haha.. still remembe the time when she say that I'm a potential A1 student for chem :P Haha... sorry for dissapointing her :P I only got a B. After that then go out play bowling lor :) haha... I so long nv bowl liao... :D After that wehn IMM for dinner then slack there for about 2 hrs before going off. After that went to catch a movie lor. Haha... last minute decide one. The show start at 7.10 at westmall, then we rush there from jurong east at 6.55. Haha... once we reach bukit batok. we started running towards the cinema. Haha... very cute. Later people thought police catching us ar :P Then haha just managed to catch the movie. Btw the movie is 'The day after Tomorrow'

Argh... stomachache [OMG my spelling sux ] liao. Bye~

haiz... was trying to touch up on the new design for my blog. But haiz... the dreamweaver duno why, keeps hanging. I guess I'll have to wait till some other time :D So just bear with it :P if there is any problem. I guess I made the header too big. Cos I used the size of the header I made last time and forgot that my design is only 2/3 of the whole size... so this header now looks a bit large. But I'll try to correct it as soon as possible. The color of my site also looks a bit boring. Will try to improve on it :D
Okie~ Lets talk about today!!!! Yay!!! ITs Friday!!! But I don't really feel very happy cos next week, while other people are enjoying their life at home, I still have to go school everyday!!! Then today also quite tired cos spend 2 hours in school doing PW's proposal. I really hope that this proposal can be approved as I really spend a lot of time and efford in it and hope we can catch up with other groups :D So since I've some spare time now~ I guess I'll be designing the emoticons for this site :D Haha... I guess it will inject more life into my blog :D
Okie~ Off to do work now. Bye~ Happy weekends~

Victory!!!!!!! Haha... am very happy to day. Haha... fought a beautiful battle today. Was glad that my sacrifice didn't go to waste :D In celebration of today's victory. I will not be doing too much tutorials tonight :D Haha... on the way home, an inspiration struck me. I got the design for my blog already. So hope to be able to finish designing it tonight :D Okie... gtg now cos although the battle had been won, the war has just started so I shall have to prepare for the impending [trying to act cheem here :P ] battles :)

bye~

Okie... I'm feeling very bad today. WAs very fed up with my project work group members. So I have decided to do the project MYSELF. I have learned not to rely on other people if I want to achieve what I want. Therefore, TONIGHT will be the start of the war and TONIGHT will be the first battle. I have decide to SACRIFICE tonight's time which is meant for doing my maths tutorial to do my PW proposal. We are already behind other groups and I will and must ensure that the proposal is ready by tmr and WILL be approved. I'm prepared to give a full and detailed proposal to ensure approval. But tonight's sacrifice will not go unrewarded. I've said this in my previous post and will say it again, I BELIEVE that you reap what you sow and there is equilibrium in this world. I'm sure that I'll get my reward, and those who nv contribute will get their retribution. They will bring disaster to their desendents or their future generation as I BELIEVE that this kind of people won't go far in life. Not only they will suffer in provety themselves, their children will also suffer with them as this is a vicious cycle. Only through education and hardwork will you be able to break free from this cycle. So lets see... there are a few potential retainee in this class already. Their retribution may not come soon, but I am SURE that it will come eventually. And I don't mind waiting. There is a chinese saying that 'For a man who want revenge, 10 years wait is not long' So lets see 10 or 20 or even 30 years later, how will your life be like?
So let me say it again. I'm not trying to curse anyone. I'm just stating what I believe.

I've revealed the DARK side of me. As people say 'still water runs deep' I may seem to be a very nice person outside, but deep down, you can't imagine how EVIL and DARK I am. I wear a mask in life everyday so what you see is not the real ME. Actually it is not really a mask. I'm a taurus. And if you have read my post on the horoscope, there is this part that talk about a taurus man does not lose his temper easily but when he does after being provoked too much, Haha... BRACE YOURSELF.

Okie... bye~ Going off to devise my BATTLE plan. Victory shall me mine and mine ALONE !!!!!!

Hmm... its yet another day... So sian ar.... my PW... today was very pissed off.... my group members didn't want to cooperate and do work, instead keep talking crap. Want to talk crap nvm, but at least do some work. Last week already distribute the work out liao. In the end none of them did, only me did my part. I duno why I'm so unlucky to be in the same group as them. I really really wish to change group, but I know its impossible, the aim of this PW is also to see how well you work with people. But haiz... when you meet this kind of people what can you do? You can't like scold them or punish them? I really want to do well in project work. But I guess I'll have to do everything on my own. But somehow it seems a bit unfair to me leh. 1 person's strength is not enough so I might get quite low marks, and somemore other people whom nv contribute as much might get the same marks as me. Haiz... I know life is unfair, there are people who are there to 'hitch a free ride' but I believe that you reap wad you sow. So you people better watch out, though I may not have the power to punish you, heaven will do it, there will be RETRIBUTION. It doesn't matter to me if I do all the work or let you all copy my work [Homework]. Because I did my part and I will get my reward, for you, prepare for the worst. I'm not trying to be mean and start cursing people. I'm just trying to make you all realise your mistakes before its too late.

So as you can see, I'm a thinker, someone who believes that in this world all things exist in equilibrium. I don't know when did I start to believe in such things but now I do and will always be. So if you all have any problems and need some counseling, I'll always be there for you.

Haha... think its enough for now. Just revealed part of the 'real' ME. So to understand me better, please continue to read my blog and 'View it from MY perspective' :D HAha crap :P

Yo! Haha... yesterday was trying to store up some sleep for the coming week so nv post much :) Then now I shall post some of yesterday's things :D

Haha... yesterday was sunday and once again, I read my horoscope :D Haha... it was tough last week wondering around without any horoscope to guide and don't know wad to expect :P So haha... I read my horoscope yesterday liao :D So at least know wad to expect this week :D Okie my horoscope for this week is that I will receive suggestions and comment from my friends about me, and though it may seem unsuitable for me, its good to have a try, result my be surprising :D

Hmm... today is monday... didn't get any comments from friends leh. Haha... I think the only feedback I get is for my hair :D Haha... received some quite nice feedback for my hair :D So happy Haha... maybe I will cut it this short once in a while :) Other than that nothing much lor. School nowadays still managable. But it seems that monday is always the busiest day of the week. Cos got 2 major assignment to hand-in. 1 is our maths tutorial the our econs essay. So every monday, will be rushing to touch up on these two things before handing in.

LIfe also very sian. Nothing much happen. Also no more school activities liao. Haiz...

K lar... shall talk until here for now. Very sian liao. After this still need to search for words for GP... Haiz... Bye~

Yo! Hi everyone :D Haha quite late liao then I going to sleep soon. Just come here to say hi :D haha... saw mrs yip our css vice principal at lot 1 just now haha... okie gtg bye~

Argh.... don't feel like doing any work now. Even though that I have lots of things to do and I won't be free tmr. Hmm... just let me be naughty once in a while and jam everything for tmr lar :P Really sick and tired of doing schoolwork. Haiz... have to endure this kind of mental stress for the next 1 1/2 years... You know poly is starting school soon. So I have classmates who are changing to poly education. Haiz.... K lar... not feeling very good tonight. Duno wads bothering me. So I'll just end here. Goodnight :)

Hmm... was just looking through my folder of notes. They are notes that I find it very meaningful and beautiful. So when I was searching for the poem above. Just came across this one which really describe me. So for anyone who want to know me truly, you can try reading it. I assure you that this is very very accurate. And all the points made is really true. So dun just think that its just some idiot who typed out nonsense. This thing is super accurate.

TAURUS MAN


A quiet simple man who can do something unexpected to shock you. Taurus man
mostly medium tall, strong with good health, good strong body. When he
talks, he likes to turn his head to one side on one direction. His body will
be quite straight, facial structure tend to be square shape more than other
shape. His eyes sparkle with liveliness.

Even when he is in love, he is still a free wild bird. He is a sand in your
palm, the more you want to hold it, it will slip out. If you stand and hold
it still, it will stay that way. Don't set the rules and draw a line for
him, he will not stay.

When you are with him, he will think only of you. But an hour later he could
change his mind. He is very patient with other people, but very impatient
with himself. His world always turning and it will not stop just because he
loves you. If he up sets, he will show it right away. If something has gone
wrong, he will blame his own carelessness instead of blaming other people.

He sincere to his friends even to some friends he does not like. He likes to
do odd things and surprise other people. He could be fully dress in a nice
suit and jump in the pool. He could slap your back so hard just to make you
turn around to see he has flowers in his hand. He never want to get too
close with anyone for he thinks living in reality is living by yourself.

He does not care what people think when he behave weird. He could be walking
bare feet and laughing at people who laugh at him and think they are so
narrow minded. He does not likes to follow conformity, but always want to
search for new ventures, new mystery. He will interest in a life of a
millionaire as much as a life of an old man selling newspaper on a sidewalk
vendor.

He like to search and analyze people and things. He will analyze his friends
or his girl friend, and once the mystery is gone, he will search for new
puzzle to solve. He can not easily understand thing, so he will gradually
learning about you till he fills up all his questions.

He knows so many people ,but he has a few friends. He looks for quality
friends than quantity friends. He will be close with some friends shortly
and move on. He always feel lonely even surround by many people. He could
create his own little world, and sometimes no one would understand him. He
looks only for future and he thinks he lives for the future. He may wonder
how many people think like he does, but he does not want to be like the
others.

A man with a conflict personality. He is a cool, understanding, able to work
well, and very artistic. Taurus man could be an artist. He could shock you
as much as he is able to clam you down when you up set. He is a free spirit
who likes venture, but when he wants to be alone, do not touch him but to
let him be. He won't disappear from the crowds too long, he will be back.

He will give you straight forward opinion or comments, but will never advice
what he thinks you should do. He does not like people to tell him what he
should do too. He thinks each individual dreams and thoughts should be very
private. He will use his brain not his body strength, so he will let other
guys compete. He has a certain satisfactory in life and hate to force
himself in competition. He may seems careless, but actually he is a thinker
and a stubborn one.

He sees anythings in details and not easily trusted people till he thinks he
knows them well. You can just smile and he will think why and what are you
smiling about, and if you are pretending. Once he trust you and accept you
as a friend, no one can says other wise to change that for he will not
listen to gossip. He will be honest and sincere to his friends.

He hates lies, so he will not tell you lies. If he finds it is necessary to
lie, he will find other ways not to tell you or avoid telling you anything.
If he really has to lie, you will never be able to tell that he is lying. He
can really keep secrets, so you will hardly know that he is a lonely soul.

If you want this kind of guy, you have to be an interesting person. He has
to be curious about you. Hell for him is "No Freedom", so if he marry you
then you should know it is the biggest decision in his life. Always be
interesting, then you could have him beside you.

Have a nice time reading :) I know its a long post. But its worth reading :) Okie Bye~

YAy!!! 20th of may :D MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!! Haha so happy :)
:) Very glad that got people still remember my birthday!!!! HAha.. 2 big surprise people who remembered my birthday. In class only 1 person remembered, which is serene!!! Haha... duno how she know it is my birthday :) Hmm... one possibility is that she visits my blog :) So if you see this msg please leave a note in my shoutbox so that I know you are here :)Then yar lor... 1 person know, then spread out liao :) Haha... was very touch when they [the group of people I always hang out with in school ] sang a birthday song for me, jing wen also gave me a BATTERY as a birthday present. Haha... its the thought that counts :). Then haha... had lots of fun today :) Workload also lessen liao. Thats why I'm able to celebrate my birthday tonight without having to rush tutorials :D
Another surprise is from Tanner !!!! Haha... he still remember thats its my birthday today!!!! Haha... that was really unexpected :)
Thanks everyone for everything you've done :)

Okie... now shall write my reflections liao :) HAha... 17 years old liao le!!!! Just now when I was poking the candles into my cake then realise that there are so many of them, a total of 8 candles including the big 1. Haha... So old le!!! Time really flies. In a blink of eye, I'm now 17. So much things have happened in my life. haha... they are all part of my memories forever. Been through quite a lot for the past year. I've also changed a lot. The way I view the world is much different now. I'm able to 'feel' more about everything. I've some sort of 'enlighten' liao. Especially now with my blog, I can express the way I view things to everyone. Cos I'm different, the way I view things is very different. Thats why, little people understands me but I don't blame them. Few have seen the true ME yet. So for the coming year, I hope to find someone, who truly understands me. HAha.. shall bring up this poem again

Drink The Tears From My Eyes..
Taste The Blood From My Pains..
Only Than You Might Know..
What Runs Deep Through My vains..

Feel The Depts Of My Soul..
Smell The Scent Of My Fears..
For To Know Me By Heart..
Will Take More Than Just years

feel that this poem really express my feelings :D

Okie. HAHa... today has been a really great day :D Thanks everyone :)

Woo... just finished writing my blog then I saw this poem on deviantart.com

The Truth - Complete Piece
To automatically assume or rush to judgment
without gathering the facts or at least attempting
to find out the truth is ignorance at the highest level.

The truth is an unmovable, unbreakable pillar that will hold you standing and supporting you no matter what occurs in ones life. That pillar stands for and only abides by one thing and that is simply nothing more, nothing less than the truth.

Sometimes the truth can be right there staring you right in the eye and you cannot notice it because your ignorance consumes you, therefore you become blind and you refuse to accept it. If someone does truly care about you and you know this inside your heart then why are you willing to accept a lie?

Never just accept the words of others for what it is, especially if you have a gut feeling inside you that there is a possibility that its a lie. Find out for yourself if its really true. I would rather die if I did not seek out the truth rather then to live on knowing I believed in a lie.

Source:http://www.deviantart.com/view/7372147/

I love the last sentence. THe phrase 'rather then to live on knowing I believed in a lie.' In this world we are living in, we face lies almost in everyday life. And long term exposure to these lies can make us believe that a lie is truth. This is something very scary. Its like people say, ' Study hard so you can live a better life in future.' Do we really live a good life after we study hard? Or is it just a lie by parents to make us study? How many of us actually believed in it?

Whahaha.... another day of my life :) Haha.. today was a fine day... The pace of work going a bit slower now cos just finished to CAs the past few days and rush a lot of tutorials too. Then now finally can relax a bit :) Tonight slacked a lot :P Just finish 1 question from tutorial nia. But got part abcd one lar... Then haha... finally TIME TO CUT MY HAIR!!! I've been waiting for this day since last week. But I was too busy. Everynight have to rush tutorials and study for test. Haha... then I cut until my hair very short :P Its the shortest length I've ever cut :P But it feels so good :D My head a bit lighter liao :)
HAiz... Then today also had sports day. Very sian one. Now they are running on a house system. Not like last time is individual class one. Then Haiz.... I dun get a chance to design class t-shirt liao... haiz... design for 2 yrs then last 2 yrs other people snatch my ricebowl. Then now no more chance liao.. :'( But nvm I can still use my brain power to design other things like my flash movie and blog :D
Then today received a msg from james... haha expo got job to do :) But too bad I got school so cannot go. Haiz... haha they still want to employ me despite my average sales record last 2 times :P HAha... too bad I got school otherwise I may consider working for them again. Its like just sacrifice 4 days in return for a new digi cam or printer :D haha, these are the top 2 things in my wish list :P
So :D just end off here lor :) Happy Happy Happy :)
The eve of my birthday :)

Hmm... just realise that my blog is super boring!!! ... haha cos I went around reading other people's blog and wow... their blog is so interesting. One had many pictures, not ordinary pictures hor. Its like everyday you go online then see some very nice picture then put it up on the blog. Then its like the whole entry full of pictures. So nice. Then another one... haha though he don't update his blog as often. but his blog entry are very nice :D He life is always packed with fun things. And reading it filled me with envy :P
So hmm... I think I will try to change the way I write my blog liao. :D So after I finish all my stuffs, I will revamp my blog [this design like quite long liao right? I promised to change it like once every few weeks. ] So Hmm... maybe after like 1 or 2 more weeks when I settle everything, I will do the designing of the site and once it is finished, I will change the style of my post :D
So get ready for a brand new look coming soon :)

Haha... So let me once again *HINT* *HINT* again ar... 18th of MAY liao ar :P

Yo!! Haha.. just realise that I talk a lot of cock yesterday :P Perhaps I wasn't really feeling that well lar :) Haha... today was quite a fine day... Haha... my energy is backed :D Today a lot of things to do... one after another. Dun even have time to slowly eat my lunch. Just now nearly choke sia... But, hmm... the feeling is quite nice :) Its a blessing to keep your life occupied :D Haha... but today very sadly, I didn't finish my GP homework, then teachr very sad then scolded us. Haiz... so sorry, didn't mean to not do it. But somehow I didn't feel like doing, so didn't do. Sorry... Okie.. then the rest of the day was fine. Rushing rushing and rushing. But hor, haiz...today that chinese compo test sure gone liao. The topics given are so 'DUH' How am I going to answer it? So I kept beating around the bush about a single point and filled up 600 words... Die liao ar.... Hmm... Then now have to go study for test liao, this week is gonna be very very busy. There is maths test tmr, physics the day after, then got sports day on wednesday as well. Then hmm... thursday got blood donation, but haiz... my grandma objected to it so I can't donate blood :P My dad got a little bit of scolding from her for signing the consent form to let me go :P Sorry :)Then friday... hmm... also got something on lar. I think I can predict what the horoscope says liao... haha... throughout the day, keep having this urge to flip open yesterday's newspaper to look at the horoscope. :P I think I obsessed with it liao :P But I will try to control myself until the end of this week :D Okie gtg, Bye~

ARGH!!!! Forgot to check out my horoscope for this week... now its locked inside my parent's room and my parents are sleeping.... Hmmm... then I shall live this week without my horoscope to guide me. :D Hope that there will be more surprises.. cos these few days is really very bored. With my flu cough and tons of homework... that was a terrible week. But I dun think my workload will be getting less for the coming weeks but just glad that my flu+cough is finally GOING TO BE over. So I will be able to cope with work quite nicely. Hmm... 16th of may... Thats really fast. I've been in yj for alomst 5++ months already!!! Haha kind of like the school very much cos its really a very vibrant and 'happening' place. Quite glad that I didn't choose to go to pj :P Haha.. cos they missed out so many things!!! And you know, the feeling of being able to start a fresh is really very nice too. [haha... recently thought through a lot of things while I'm sick ] To be given a chance to live a life from start again. Nobody knows about my past. Nobody knows who I'm, how I behave. Nobody can tell me how I should behave based on my past because they know nothing about it. Thats why, I'm trying to change myself, I've started to try to take part in many things, to do and try out the things I've not done before. This feeling is great. BUT, I think I've done enough, I do not have the energy to carry on anymore. While I was sick, I thought through a lot, is it time for me to cool down and be focused back on my studies? You know, I feel so tired. Perhaps its time for me to take a rest. But I know, if I stop now, I won't have a chance to do it again, as you know, all the activities stops at J1, next year, it'll all be study study and study. But I guess hmmm..... I've already done enough... its time to stop. So maybe after completing my work for competition, I'll just end everything. UNLESS something really interesting or my workload is greatly lessen, I may consider being active again :D

Oh haha... its already the 16TH of MAY already *hint* *hint*
Haha.... Hope that someone can remember wads coming very very soon :D It dosen't have to be something big, I'll be just as happy when someone remembers :D haha BIG *HINT* Liao ar haha :)

Okie.. think its enough... type out quite a lot of things :P Hope you won't fall asleep while reading it. Bye~

Yay.. Feeling much better now :D Hope that I can fully recover tmr :D

HAHA.. just did something very beautiful. Saw it on computer times. I wanted to do that long ago already but didn't have the power to do that. And now they have this program to render everything for me!!!! HAHA so happy. This pic contains all my memories in commonwealth secondary. But so sad this program only trial for 30 days. Duno what should I do when the trial ends. Really hope that photoshop have this kind of plug-in :D
Okie after talking so much heres the URL
http://us.f2.yahoofs.com/bc/40a63377_592a/bc/My+Documents/cwss.jpg?bfYgjpABs8QElpmh
If anyone got problem viewing it pls inform me asap, thanks :)

Okie now lets talk about other things. Hmm... today went out for dinner to celebrate my grandpa's birthday. Then I heard something very interesting. Someone sitting on the table next to us said in chinese to a kid : "IF you want to order drinks, say it in chinese like your brother. " Btw, I'm at a chinese restaurant. HAha... find that its very interesting because you know, nowadays the commotion about the chinese education policy. Haha... I'm just glad that there are still people around who still value chinese and are teaching the younger generation to use chinese. Chinese should be taught from young, and by exposing the child to more chinese conversations, they may slowly be able to appreciate the beauty and importance of chinese. So to everyone out there, there is no need to make such a big fuss out of the change. Because its your own responsibility as a parent to teach the child chinese. The government did not cancel out chinese. They are still providing chinese lessons for those who WANT to study. So the government is just shifting the respnsibility of choosing whether to study or not to parents. So as to make parents know the importance of chinese as well.
Haha.. dun want to write anymore liao :P LAter become GP essay :P

Okie, this post is a bit long but nvm :D Got so much things to say :) Bye bye

:)Start to feel a bit better now :) Hope that I will be fully recovered by tmr :D

Haiz.. feeling very terrible now. Just caught a flu yesterday. Then today worsen. Just now after I woke up from my afternoon nap. My left ear blocked until now. Then nose also have a burning sensation. My whole body temperature also very high. Brain also not functioning. HAiz... then these few days also alot of work to do. Haiz... yesterday sick then went to sleep earlier. Then today have to resort to copying homework and missing my lunch. Then tmr still have to hand-in work which can't be copied. So after typing this I still have to go back to doing homework. Haiz... but I still want to spend some time here cos I hope to mark an end to all these things. HAiz... Life is really in a mess this 2 days. Hope that I will be better tomorrow after a nice long night sleep. Then today also very suay... the shoulder strap of my bag suddenly broke in the morning. Causing me to have to carry my bag on my hand around the school today. Haiz... morning already got such bad omen liao. Haiz haiz haiz... words can't describe my feeling right now. You know... the pain and the stress of everything. HAiz... have already been facing quite some problems for the past few weeks. Then now problem haven't finish solving then got sick liao. I wonder when will I be able to settle everything. Ok lar, have to go do my homework liao. Hope that this is really a last day posting such a sad post. May tomorrow be a better day :)

Hello :D Yay its sunday again!!! :D Once again I'll start of todays post with my horoscope for the week :D Very happy cos the prediction very nice :D It says that I will get along quite well with friends this week. Then in work will get sense of achivement. This week will be a generally nice week for me :D
Wah... after reading this very happy cos for the past few prediction not very good... especially last weeks prediction about money :D Wah... finally can take a breathe [ Is there such a word :P ] from my hectic [ another one...] life... Yay hope that the coming week is really a happy one :D
Hmm... today was rushing through my work lor... seems like a lot of things to do. But although I was rushing, I was also slacking lor... cos I did most of my work on my bed :P I think I spent almost half of the day lying on my bed doing everything.... HAha... Nothing much to talk about... Bye :D

HAha... just got the headless photos yesterday :) Haha... I shall put it here for all to see. Haha... it was taken by a group of lamerz in my class :D haha... so cute :P

I will delete it after 1 week, so as not to occupy too much of my friend's webspace :)

Haha... then today also heard a very interesting phrase. [ Too much is not enough ] I think its from some duno wad designer. Hmm... too much is not enough, very greedy sia... haha

Yo! Another day of my life recorded here :) Haha.. yesterday very tired so nv post, went to sleep at 8.15 but in the end also muz wait until 10 then really sleep. Cos during that approx 2 hr I've been thinking and thinking. I was thinking about the design for our class notice board. Haha... I usually think before I sleep because thats when my brain start functioning with creativity at full potential. Almost everything big that I do, the idea always form when I was about to sleep. So haha... thats also one of the reason why I always sleep at 10 everyday. So that I can have some time to think and also not affecting my sleeping hours. When I sleep at 10, I will take at least another 45 minutes before I completely shut down. Therefore my actual sleeping time is from about 11 to next day about 6.30. So I only sleep 7 1/2 hrs!!!!! An average human need 8 and for me I need 10!!! So now you know why am I always so blur and sleepy....

Haha this post like a bit long liao. But nvm haha... I got lots of things to say :D Haha... today start to feel a bit better :) Life also a bit more peaceful now. Haha, I think my financial problem also not much liao lar. Cos haiz.... I've given up the thought of going to the movies and for now I adpot a bit of heck care attitude to school admin stuffs. Only temporary lar, cos I dun want to over stress myself. So haha when the school admin really got come and collect money from me then give lor... And for the data cable haha... still hope to get it soon lar :) Then today also saw mr lim HAha... duno he still remember me or not. Long time nv go his IT resource room to do digital art liao :P Cos recently too busy lar.... Next time when I'm free I'll just pop by to visit him :)

Wooo... this post is really getting very long. Okie just one last comment... HAha recently then realise that sen min also an IT geek :D:D HAha... that time hear him talk with chou chun [also another IT freak] about computer stuffs, my jaws almost drop off.... Haha... didn't know he knows so much about computer hardwares... Cos everytime see him like those more sporty kind always play basketball. Haha really is 'ren bu ke mao xiang' lol.

ok lar. I'll just end here. Later scare away all my readers :P
To all who visits my blog, THANKS FOR VISITING :D

Haiz.... these few days very sian ar!!!! Got a lot of financial problem.... Haiz... the horoscope very accurate leh.... Cos recently just realise the the school haven't deduct the money from my edusave account yet, then I think I got not enough money!!! Cos that time I thought deduct liao mah so didn't care. Later they check then not enough money then I will have to pay cash!!!! $200++ dollars leh.... heartache sia..... Then also spent quite some money these few days... just also top-up my farecard... $10 fly away liao...Then tmr still need to pay $4 for class funds... then also recently like eat a lot :P then again money fly away. And also I want to buy a data cable for my phone, that will cost me money as well, but I think that one can postpone till a later time when I got enough money to spare... Then recently also want to go watch movie, but then NO MONEY again... Haiz... money money money.... wah... really hope that this week will be over soon, and also hope that my horoscope prediction for next week is better.....

Ok lar enough about money. School these few days very slack... but hor that kind of slack very scary... keep having a feeling that I haven't complete something. Then still have to do project work lor... sian sian sian.... This is a very stressful week.... :'(

Hmm... today is just another boring day in school, back to the days where the time table is all in a mess... Tmr go school only 1 lesson nia... :| Nothing much lar... so sian. But today start to feel much better about my phone. Cos went around visiting forums then found out that there is actually a cable for me to transfer all my things :D So haha... but hor still a bit heartache lar cos, the organizer and phonebook is not as powerful as it was before. Cos I mainly use it for organising things... haiz... but still ok lar. But I still feel that it was a mistake buying it. And I will remember this lesson.

Let me once again start off this weeks first post with yet another horoscope. I find this horoscope from the chinese newspaper very accurate :D So here it goes. My horoscope for this week warn me about my money. IT says that I will spend more than what I receive. So ask me to be careful. And once again it came true. TODAY....

Haiz... today bought a painful lesson for $288... It taught me not to be greedy and make hasty [is there such a word?] decisions. Haiz... heartache sia.... You know actually not my money lar, but I feel the pain. Maybe thats the reason that I feel the pain. Cos you know... when I spend my own hard earn money on useless stuffs like MP3 player and the most useless thing, my prodikeys... I dun feel the pain. But now, somehow the pain keeps bothering me. And about the greed. I always wanted something more, so today I finally got what I want, but in return I lost more.... so haiz... what has been done cannot be undone... So that thing that I bought today will always be by my side, reminding me about the expensive lesson.

YAY!!!!!!!!! Finally home yesterday from OBS... So tired... So just came online a while then go sleep liao... Haha... didn't realise I was that tired that I slept until I dun feel like taking dinner. HAha... So nice to feel the softness of my bed, for the past 5 days I've been sleeping on stones and concrete floor. Sleep until back pain ar... Then now now finally got bed and blanket liao :D The last 2 night very cold sia.... cos got rain.... HAha... So happy that I'm finally home!!!!!
OKay, now I shall write a day to day account of my camp :D

Day 1.
Woke up early in the morning then go to school at the same time lor, then after that went to pungol jetty. At first thought was the one we go for NPCC camp, but later realise that it was not. That place very ulu one. After that also took boat to camp site. Then at camp site we met up with our instructor. Haha... we got the oldest and most experienced and also the most slackest instructor around :P . Then about noon, we went to play some games.. like falling backwards and your friends catching you from behind... it was very fun. Then after that about evening, we went to pitch our tents... Haha... then thats when the NPCCs & NCCs fight against the scouts :P Haha... we started competing against each other in pitching tents. Haha.. Then in the end rain come then flood our tents :|. Then we also cook dinner after that lor, then duno why we got such a lousy place. Our place no lights one lor, then see other people got lights... we like so :|. Then after that night time liao go sleep liao lor. but hor, cannot sleep mah, so started telling jokes, then we were laughing and laughing, super lame lor :P Then until some time, we went back to our store to slack :P Then later on, we came back to camp. Then got instructor patrolling one mah, so when we were in the tent, my friend saw the instructor coming then he said very softly, " instructor coming" . Then the instructor replied, " If you can see that I'm coming, it means that you are not asleep. " Then everyone start laughing again lor.... Hmnm... then after laming enough we start to sleep liao. BUt I still cannot sleep cos I can't stop thinking of things. So I just close my eyes and rest lor. Then like that 1 day over liao.

Day 2
Also same lor, woke up quite early in the morning about 6 like that. Then went to wash up and prepare our backpacks lor. Cos we will be leaving the campsite for the next 3 days then we hae to pack our foodstuffs and tents. Then after that , we went for a briefing lor, then something very 'heng' happened. At first they tell us the route to our next destination is the super long one. Then we all like 'aiya dun bluff us lar' Then they told us another route which was very short, but we have to bring our kayaks through a swamp. Then we also give that dun bluff us face. Then finally they ask us where we want to walk, so someone went up there and choose a shorter route which don't require us to go through the swamp. Then they agreed lor. Then very 'heng' thing is all the route the instructors tell us are really true. The other groups really either paddle the super long way or the through the swamp way. So we were like... WAH!!! So heng sia. After that we set of in our kayaks lor. Then we paddle 6 hrs before reaching our destination. Then I was tanned until very black lor... :| Then after reaching there we pitched our tents there and stayed over night. But hor we lost our tents that 2 sticks that support up the tents, so we bo bian use the camping stickes lor. Then in the end our tent very low, then difficult to sleep. Then at about night time hor, a swamp of I think that call it mayflies attacked our campsite. Then everyone was like taking towels and clothes and start swinging around to keep off the flies. Then insect repellent also no use. But you know wad, the instructors actually hide in some place where there were no flies... So bad sia... nv tell us :|. Then haiz... after a while the flies are gone lar, so we start to cook dinner then sleep lor. OH yah... before pitching our tents, we also went for a dip in the quarry. The water was so cooling :) And also... there was no toilets at the camp site lor. Then the guys all pee at the bushes along the road :P . but i wonder how the girls do it... Then thats about all for the day lor.

Day 3
Woke up in moring, then went to wash up... but no toilet wad.. so woke up a bit earlier when the sky is still dark then brush teeth brought our water bottle then spit everything along the road side, then faster pee and headed back to campsite :P Haha. Then around the afternoon, we trek to our next destination, one of their base camp. Then we trek on our own lor, the instructor only follow us behind, we go wrong way they also won't tell one, but luckily we didn't so we reach there very soon lor. That place is also a base camp mah... so it was like so beautiful!!!!. That place I think is better than a chalet ar... the toilet is like so nice :D We all had a nice bath and cleared all the shit inside us :P. Teh after that we played games. Then we also built a raft :D It was so fun haha... cos there was also another team our partner watch also doing the same thing mah. But hor their raft didn't survive :P but we manage to row to our target :D. After that we had dinner, oh yah, that place also got HOT water :D:D Wah... so nice sia... Then soon we see a lot of people comming in. Then thats the time when we realise that we were very lucky to take the shorter route, Cos the long route is really very tiring. They had to paddle more than 8 hrs and without resting trek in the dark for another 3 hrs before coming to basecamp. Haha... then saw loy han there, he also sway say tio the long route one :P We felt sad for them so we decided to cook dinner for them while they were washing up lor. Haha... cos our instructor also very good and lend us a stove mah. So cooking is so easy. Then after that we went back to our tents and realise that a lot of tents all collapse from the rain. So we went back to ask our instructor to let us sleep in the building :P Then our instructor found a place for us. And let us sleep there, then tell us not to tell anyone else cos the rest still have to rebuild their tents and sleep there. So Haha... went to sleep liao then another day is over :D

Day 4
Again woke up in the morning. went to wash up. Haha... the toilet was really nice sia :) then we went to play high rope elemtents and climb rock walls. Haha Very fun sia. Then afternoon we start packing again and went back to our original basecamp. Then we started unpacking and preparing to go home liao :D:D Yay Finally everything is gonna be over soon.

Day 5
Finally, time to go home!!!!!!!! We woke up and wash up our tents and everything, did a store check and we actually lost 2 water bottles, but we went around and kope other people one :P Cos if lost need to pay mah :P Then after that our instructor have to go off earlier cos he got something else on. Then we have to clean up the boys toilet lor, So dirty sia... duno how they use the toilet one.... Haiz... then clean up liao went to assemble for a debrief. Haiz... then played a few games, then they give out our cert lor, then every team have their instructor with them but we dun have :'( Then I like almost want to cry liao... I feel so unwanted lor..... Haiz... that kind of feeling, very hard to describe. You know, every team around was standing up and cheering for their instructor, while we sit there, very sad. Nobody talking.... That feeling Haiz... :'(. Then finally go home liao lor.

HAha... Haiz... OBS was really fun. Manage to understand more about my friends, really saw their true colors lor. but haiz... now recalling about it, hmm... still kind of wish it had been much longer lar, cos although it was tiring, it is not something you get to do everyday lor. Like now come back liao... need to rush for tutorials. The 5 days over day was really stress free lor, you just do what ever is needed for survival for that moment. No need to worry like what will happen next week or what ever. And also it is also a time to make mistakes and learn from them lor. Haiz... this kind of feeling very hard to describe one lar. but it was a really fun experience. :) This will always stay in my memories just like those of the past camps :D

Yo! Let me start of this post again with this week's horoscope. My horoscope says that, I will daydream a lot this week. Then ask me to drown myself with work so that I won't have time to daydream, so I won't be wasting time. Lucky object: Lighter.
Whahaha..... Haiz... daydreaming ar... hmm.... dun think so lar, should be quite occupied during obs.... Haha... if really start to daydream, then must try to control myself lor. And about the lucky object :) I will have to bring a lighter to obs so dun need to worry :D
Haiz.... tonight is the last time I will be posting here liao, tmr will be my obs. I will have to wait till friday to post again..... Haiz.... the night before OBS.... haiz.... the feeling a bit weird weird one. I know that obs is fun, but hor, you imagine. Everyweek monday when you go school you will like be thinking, haiz.... Firday faster come!!!! then you know, you wait and wait, day after day, then finally your weekends. But now you imagine I have to pass each day in some ulu ulu place doing some so primative things, living a life without technology, without my computer, handphone and air-con. Duno how am I going to survive till friday... Haiz... I have already packed all my things, thats why I am here to settle all my net things before going... clearing my mail box... otherwise friday my mailbox sure flooded one. Now feeling a bit sleepy, tired. Can't imagine what I will be doing for the next few nights. Cos everynight, I will usually come online to update my blog and stuffs. Now for 4 nights, I will be in ubin, duno doing what. Haiz.... 5 days is not very long, but I dosen't seem short either. Lets hope for the best. :) Haha.. this post very long cos I won't be posting for the next 5 days. So haha... must have something for people to read, and also beacuse the kind of feeling is really different lar :)
Okie So goodbye everyone. See you again on friday :)...............
Must miss me hor :P

Hmm.... life a bit going haywire these few days... Seems like everything is going wrong. Haiz... Brain also not functioning properly. Haiz... hope everything will be alright after my OBS....

Yay... the busiest part of the week is finally over!!!!! Yay... yesterday rush through all my work now today left only a few :D:D Haha... but hor, yesterday then realise that OBS is next week!!! HAha... so when you are here reading my blog next week, I will be at pulau ubin counting stars... haha.... So nothing much to talk about for now. Bye :D

I shall start off today's post with my horoscope for the week. I says that I will have a busy week, but I will have the energy to deal with it and my friends will help me too. It also warn me that I will make mistakes.

Hmm.... today is only monday and everything except for the energetic part came true. The energetic part is wrong as I caught a mild flu and is feeling very very tired now. Then about the busy week, haiz... it is really busy. Just rush through so many tutorials during the weekends and more to come. There is also a test this week.... Haiz.. busy busy busy. Then about the mistakes, haiz... first day of the week make mistake liao.
Cos we got econs lecture on sat mah... then because we receive no official announcement. We thought dun have mah. Then on the way home got people say got, then we went lor. Then I as a chairman have to inform the class about it mah. But hor I duno what got into my mind, I didn't inform one of my classmate. In the end he never turn up... Haiz... feel so guilty.... Haiz... but I told myself people make mistakes and we learn from them, so I realise my mistake and I will not do it again. Just hope that everyone will forgve me and give me another chance. You know, I'm still at a learning stage. This is my very first leadership role throughout my entire life. So I want to say sorry to my class if I ever make any mistakes. Please forgive me, I will do my best to serve you all better :)

Hmm... nothing much happen these few days...

But haiz... that day teacher give maths quiz [but its a test lar ] ... Then I did very badly :'( I misread the question... Haiz... then no time to redo...15 min nia mah. Then haiz... very wasted leh... Is I know how to do one lor then haiz... Sad ar..... :'(

Haha... yesterday was very tired so didn't post anything... So I shall make up for yesterday today :D HAha... that night my home got hit by the major blackout :P Haha... suddenly feel so hot while sleeping, wake up see air-con off... Then my mom came in and told me that there was a major blackout.... Then haiz... cannot get to sleep.... So hot!!! So open window and see see lor... Haha... didn't know that so many kiasu singaporeans have such high powered torchlight at home... Then can see lots of spots of lights around lor... Also got small red dots caused by laser pointer.... HAha... Then at that time still got bus mah.... Then I wondering... how is it like to be in the bus... Its like everywhere is black and no streets lights... So eriee ...
Then still got people shouting and jeering... Then some were playing with sparkles like some sort of party... Haiz... Then I thought to myself... so thats how 'mature' singaporeans are... What if it is caused by terrorist attack leh... Then you partying away.... No wonder singapore government so worried....

Haiz... then today is juz a ordinary day lor...

:'( today is such a long day.... haiz... 7.10 then reach home... All because of the stupid enrichment point for my CCA... haiz... then got to stay back to have a 'dreamweaver crash course' so that we can teach the noobs tmr... Haiz... wad they teach is so basic lor.... then wasted 2 hrs there cos we can't run away... Then haha... saw sean on the way home on the MRT.. duno wad he doing there... Then at night go cut hair lor... Haiz... very boring right? Brain also no mood to think liao... so I shall end off here... hope to have more interesting post in future :D

Today is a fine day haha... everything is the same lor... Then just now half-way doing my homework... I was thinking, it has been like so long since I receive any present or surprise gift from people.... Haiz... So sad right... Kind of miss the feeling of receiving a gift from someone... So I was just thinking... is there anyone who would like to exchange presents :D Haha... you know... just to have the feeling, the element of surprise? :P Anyone interested and contact me lar :)

Haha... my first official post after my blog has been revamped. HAha... the mood thingy I haven't add in yet cos I haven't design the smilies :D:D I want this site to be 100% original :D

Yay!!! Finally!!! My blog is back up again!! Haha... can't wait till wednesday.. so started designing it during the long weekends :P Haha.. ok... quite late liao... go sleep already... post more tmr :D

testing

HAIZ.... still haven't solve the problem... juz any how use this default template... haiz... Then can only wait until next wednesday lor... Then I can go browsing for blog template during my IT club :P Don't want to waste my time here. So I think I also no mood to post until then lar... HAiz... so be sure to come back after wednesday :D I think the blog will have to wait till next next week then be completely ready. Cos I need a day to go to the IT resource room to do my photoshop again :D Muz try to customize my blog :P

Mood:

OOps MAjor problem with template.... I'll try to solve it tonight. Please come back later :D

Mood:

testing testing

Mood:

A shocking discovery... All the pics on my site can't be viewed by others!!!!! Whahahaha... then you all nv see the design I made right fromt the start!!!!!! OKOK... I'm going to change things and be back again :|

Mood:

Wahahah!!! My dream phone!!!! All that I want out of a phone is finally here!!!!! Big big screen, high resolution digi cam and big big memory!!!! But the price sure also very big big one... Haiz... haha, just saw this in today's TODAY newspaper.... Really is love at first sight :P


Siemens S65
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The Siemens S65's massive display lets you see the world with different eyes. With those of a 132 x 176 pixel 65 k TFT display. And what you can see on this majestic screen is as impressive as it is clear: A complete package of business tools that allow you take your business with you wherever you are. Bluetooth technology lets you move around freely through wireless networks and extensive synchronization tools let you stay updated with your PC's applications.

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From [http://www.siemens-mobile.com/cds/frontdoor/0,2241,hq_en_0_27139_rArNrNrNrN,00.html]

Wahahah!!! Really hope to get it next year!!!!!

Mood:

Guess there won't be anything special happening later so I just write my blog now :D

Today was a normal day nothing special, but I just found a picture which describes me very well :P

Loneliness
A print by *hexentanz www.deviantart.com

This is a picture by the above author. I found it very interesting. So does it remind you of me?

Mood:

Yay, I saw a beautiful rainbow today :D Then I also saw a white pigeon which I think should be a dove :P but theres none in singapore, so heaven sent me a pigeon instead :P Early in the morning see all these, wah... good omen sia [Is there such thing as good omen? or izzit bad omen only? My english lousy ler :P ] So haha everything went on smoothly today, then somehow I've been made class chairman for my class :P MY first leadership role after so many years. But it wasn't a easy job, especially under my CT... she very 'auntie' one leh... But I think for the sake of my CCA points, I will just bear with it :P Haiz... but I think I not fierce enough... later get bullied :'(. But luckily I know 1/3 of my class as there are my classmates in the temporary classes. So at least got some people who can get along easy with. Hope to get to know the rest of the class soon :D But hor, something very worrying is that I read my horoscope for this week.... It says that I will have a somehow big quarrel with someone, and I have to handle it carefully. I wonder is it because of my new position, then got people buay song me... Haiz... really wonder if I should carry on being the chairman....

Mood:

Haha, still the same old happy emoticon, haven't manage to find the other happy emoticons. Wah... today was the yjc orientation... it was quite fun, but very tiring. We had mass dance and many other usual ice-breaking games. Then got along quite ok with the new classmates. Although I had been a bit thick-skin today :P Wonder if anyone find me annoying.... Then today one of them told ghost story about the school. Then it is rumored that there is ghost in LT2, then in the middle of the dance we went to LT2 but it was locked. Haha, very fun and lame... cos there are some rules like must go in even numbers like that... but still in the end nv go in lar.... :P Then hor, our CT very irritating one leh, keep on interupting our games, haiz... duno how to live with her as our CT for the whole year....

Mood:

:P I know this emoticon looks like very excited like that, but I am not, I'm just happy... Couldn't find the happy smilie... Haiz..

Today was fine... loneliness just brush pass me today... :D Got to interact more with my friends. Played basketball with them. Then loneliness came and went away... cos there was some point of time in the game that I felt discomfort. But nvm, just be thick skinned and continue to hang out with them.
Then today also met up with my new class :D Then appointed the temporary ic for the class :D haha, cos the teacher only know me :P But hope that I can continue serving the class as their permanent chairman. But if someone else can do the job better, I dun mind being a small small NE rep :D

Hmm... below is a conversation about philosophies in life between me and kenneth. You may wish to take a look if you have nothing to do :D

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So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...{I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
hey..ask u..
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
yar?
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...{I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
do u think ignorance or truth is better?
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
lol
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
see the situation lor
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...{I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
ok..
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...{I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
let me set a few scenarios...
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
k
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...{I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
say...if lots of pple dislike me..do u think it's better to be innocent abt it or is better to know it?
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
Hmm... I think it would be better to know why they don't like you
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
cos you cannot carry on having people disliking you for long term
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
maybe when you know what is wrong then you can change to make yourself a better person
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...{I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
ok..so u think it's better to know it?
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
Yup, not only knowing it, maybe change, and make yourself a better person
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...{I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
ok..
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
But if they are unreasonable then it is better to ignore it
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...{I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
ok
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...{I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
erm...next scenario...
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...{I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
do u think it's good to continue searching for the truth if they dont wish to tell u?
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
Erm...
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
let me think q while
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
a*
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...{I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
haha..okay
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
Ehh... hmm.... it would be good to continue searching for the truth, but you may not force them to tell you if they don't want to...
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
cos there are many ways you can search for the truth
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
like sometimes you can observe the people around, like when you are doing something, how would they react
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
or sometimes observe the people around you, see their behaviour, how is it different from you...
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
where you have gone wrong...
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
something you don't have to do it openly...
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
slowly observe, if you think there is something wrong, try to change a bit... test out their reactions
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
ok
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
eh...would u mind if i set another scenario?
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
ok
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
okay..
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
say this time...u know abt a truth which may be hurting to someone...would u tell them if they ask u abt it?
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
Eh... hmm...
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
this depends...
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
if that person is your very good friend
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
then I think you can tell him/her whats wrong
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
but don't do it to directly
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
make it more like concerning about them...
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
then how this/her actions/behaviour is not favourable....
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
his*
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
cos a friend is more easy to talk to
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
as they won't think that you dispise them or being unfriendly...
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
IF that person is just an ordinary friend, I think you can still tell him... but must wait for the right opportunity..
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
otherwise it could result in adverse effect....
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
but if that problem is not too major, then you can just let it be lar... but still if there is an opportunity to tell him/her... then tell
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
ok
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
btw... why you ask this? you alright?
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
haha..i'm alright..
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
not abt myself
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
just rethinking abt philosophies in life
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
lol... icic...
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
but that is only what I think lar may not be the correct way to do it
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
ok...
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
so u think truth is gd? but must be expressed n handled appropriately?
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
Ehh... hmm...
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
yar, truth is always good if you can handled appropriately, otherwise ignorance will always be an good alternative
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
ok
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
eh..ask u abt smth else...
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
do u think it is gd to 'live for the moment' or 'live for the future'?
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
... lol
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
hmm....
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
For me, I think it is good to live for the moment, but think of the future
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
cos, you never know what will happen in future
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
some would say live for the moment, cos who knows you may just die tomorrow
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
but what if you didn't die?
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
So it is good to live for the moment and think of the future
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
then you can enjoy the best of both worlds,
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
it is important to live for the moment, but also equally important to think about tmr,
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
you can't like eat all the food today, cos you think you may die tmr, but if you never die, then what do you feed on tmr?
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
oh..ok..
So Yesterday...Relinquish my possibly False Hopes...Ignorance or Truth? {I aM kEnNeTh Ng} says:
great comment..think u should record it in ur blog...hehe
ŦåŋßĶ~~ [http://www.tanbk.blogspot.com/] says:
lol

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